Good Morning Chicklets

How's your Monday going along ?

The weekend was just beautiful. I got alot of cooking done for the week, got to play with DD in the sunshine (but didn't finish laundry or cleaning ). Some times you just gotta say _@#&%%_@!!! and enjoy life.

How was your weekend ?

good good morning chickadees!

It is a busy Monday morning at work! I couldn't get to sleep last night so I didn't get up early enough to exercise! dang I hate when that happens! gotta figure out a way to get it in later now.

What's everybody up to today?

Liz - thanks for the website on your waterpark! That place is awesome! there is nothing like that around here. I bet you were wiped out from being in the water that long! We are Farenheit down here - so I'm guessing your temperatures would be around 60 Farentheit? ya'll sure warm up quickly up there for being so cold during the winter!

Wonder what Tippy is up to?

Leenie - so glad ya'll got some sunshine!

What's everybody having for lunch today? I forgot to grab anything from home, so trying to decide what I want to do - could grab a salad, or a loaf of wheat bread and boil some eggs that I have around here. hmmmmm nothing sounds good - I must not be hungry yet.

hope everybody has a blessed day!

hugs,
cathy

today lunch is 3 slices of turkey breast, spinach salad w/tomatos and"broccoli slaw" (shreded broc. & carrots raw), cukes and fat-free- redwine dressing.... afew croutons, and a few sunflower seeds.

one wedge of laughing cow and some baked tostitos. herbal tea, BORING....

Hi. I am new to this board - but have been on 3 fat chicks for years on and off. I hope to get to know you all.

Melody

Hello Melody & Welcome!
We glad to have you here!
and look forward to getting to know you!

Marbles - that doesn't sound boring to me at all. now you've made me hungry for some tostitos I just had some deli sliced turkey on 1 slice of wheat bread, and I'll eat a couple of cucumbers in a minute.

what about everybody else - what did you have for lunch?

I haven't been posting alot because all I feel is sadness in my life right now.I don't want to bring anyone down because its my problems.

I have been attending therapy for over a month now.There are some good days and there are alot of bad days.I keep hearing its going to get worse before it starts getting bettter.I never realized at how much i have hidden and won't let come out until now.With the flashbacks i have had 5 different abusers.Not 1 but 5.This makes me sick at myself alot which i shouldn't be feeling.It sickens me at the things my grandmother has done to me.The same with the others but my grandmother; a woman who bears children and supposed to be a mother.All i seem to do is cry and sometimes i will be in the greatest mood and just one little thing sends it all back to me.I sit and think why me? why didn't I tell anyone? Why didn't I tell my mom? Then I cry some more.

Panic attacks keep me in a constant state of chaos and nothing is helping.Not even meditation.Panic attacks are absolutely awful things to experience because it feels at least to me like I have an overdose of caffeine.Those shakes that sent me to the ER happen all the time now because of the panic attacks.

Dh is so sweet and patient with me.Sometimes he gets so angry over what abusers have done to me.I wake him up sometimes at 3 am because of nightmares or flashbacks.He has to go to work the next day and is so tired from being up with me.He stays worried when I am in an uproar emotionally.But he continues to be so loving and supportive.I don't know how he puts up with me.

I feel as though I am getting fatter all over again.I am trying not to eat to much but its just not helping.

Lynnie, posting here and conversing with us could be helpful......just by taking your head to a good place where people support each other.

(I've been using a therapist for over 2 years). I've learned how to cope, how to control my reactions and just recently she told me to "stop kicking yourself in the a$$"; ie I'm human, I make errors). It's a lot easier for me to accept myself these days.

Lynnie, I agree with Marble - come post often. I've been in therapy for a couple years and it's helped alot. Once all the hidden pasts are brought forward, you'll start to get better. Tell DH thanks for being so supportive from me. He must be a gem.

Things are going good for me. I'm still effected by the weather a lot and it's supposed to snow tonight, but I'm trying to ignore it. I think I put my lightbox away way too early. But who would have guessed we'd have all these record low temps? Anyway, I'm doing pretty good.

The end of the school year is next week and that's a busy time for me at work. I'm looking forward to it because I have all of July off (except the 1st). I get to stay at home and play for the first three weeks. Then the fourth week I'm going on a cruise to Alaska. I've got a question for you all. With the mental issues, do you all find it hard to go on vacation? In a lot of ways I sort of dread it. I'm so much more happy at home. What do you all think?

TTYL.
Marie

((((((((((((((((((((((((((Lynnie)))))))))))))))))) ))))))))) I was wondering where you were....hang in there hun and don't give up on us!

Liz

Lynnie((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))) )))))))))))))))

April