Welcome to the Aug Depression Thread
 

Welcome to the Aug Depression Thread. We are so incredibly happy happy to have you here with us. We are a small but mighty group of people who share our thoughts and feelings with one another. All are welcome!!!!!

First of all, yes, I am sideways. I can't seem to fix it. It's no biggie. It gives you an idea of what I look like.

Second of all, I had knee replacement on July 16th. PT sucks and makes me cry.

Thirdly, I'm stuck at - 50 lbs. I'm still trying though. No giving up, not in my vocab.

Forthly, while I was being taken care of following surgery, my friends came into my mobile and pulled everything out of it. I am back in it now and so incredibly happy. I cannot even express to you how happy I am. Despite the ****ing pain, I am sooo happy. My house is clean and the possibilities are endless.

I'm back!
 

Holly, Lisa, & Flower,

Hello to my long lost friends! :) It has been WAY too long, I know. I can't even remember when I last posted or read any messages. I didn't go back. I just read the July thread and decided to post really quickly to say hello. It is very late, so I don't have time for much right now. My life has been busy and crazy, as always. But I am going to try to catch up on some messages and post an update sometime soon. Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers! :hug:

Believe!!!!!! I miss you. How are things with your health? It's ok if you don't respond. Just know I care.

My mobile looks fantastic. I love it here now. I'm looking at rugs to decorate the living room. Color, bright colors, deep reds, deep oranges, it's going to be beautiful.

I found this one today. What do you think?
https://rugs.com/multi-2x3-equinox-a...Broad+Audience

Not sure If the link works? It's gorgeous.

My leg aches tonight, not just the knee. It runs down towards the ankle. I really don't ever see me going through this ever again. My right one needs done.
My walking without the walker is great but as soon as I sit down, I regret it. The Oxy helps with pain but I'm trying to be so careful with usage.

How is everyone?

Thank you, Pat. I hope the healing process gets faster. I've iced the entire leg tonight. It was aching and shooting pains. I've got PT Monday afternoon so I'll try and ice it around noonish.

I am so so excited about decorating my mobile home. Like I said, my friends came in pulled out the remaining carpet and gave the mobile a good scrubbing. Now, it ready for some rugs and curtains. I would like to have wood floors in the future but for now, itll be temporary rugs.

I had a rough day. The knee wasn't in great shape. I cried out several times throughout the day. After hurting it on Sat, there are just things I just simply cannot do.

my PT was very kind and understanding. We pretty much came to the conclusion I should continue with my workouts but take it easy on a couple of the exercises.

I got through it.

Night ladies.

Hi Pat and ladies!!!!

​​​​​​Pat, my PT guy say one harsh word about my serious lack of judgement on my part.

We adjusted a couple of my exercises and the rest were fine for me to do. I did not meet my measurement goals due to swelling in the area I hurt. I'm kinda bummed but not surprised.

I hope y'all had a great Tuesday.

:(

Pat, the pain blows chunks. I had no clue what was coming was this bad. I'm supposed to get the right one done. Now is not a good time to make that decision. I can't even imagine going through this again.

I can't handle pain personally. Be kind to yourself.

Awwwww thank you. That's so kind. I'll try not do anything stupid from now on.

Welcome to the thread. 🥳

I'm under the weather today. Chills so bad. I felt awful and of course, no cold medicine when I need it. I've never had chills this bad in my 53 yrs.

I texted my friend what to do and she suggested Tylenol. I took some AND ibuprofen. I feel so much better. So so so much better. I'm going to try to go to PT in the morning. Missing a Friday would be bad.

4 weeks out today, exactly.

Edit: I was going to try to show you my incision but I don't know how.

Lisa thank you for starting the August thread! and again welcome back! :) I missed you!! I am glad you had the replacement but so very sorry about how painful it is. But it sounds like you are being careful with the pain medication and that is so smart of you! and bless your friends. However when you first said your friends cleaned out your mobile, I thought you meant your phone...like your mobile device? :rofl: now I understand. and yes that link worked and that rug is gorgeous with the block colors! did you decide on it?

Four weeks out is still a short time for such a major surgery. Did you do PT yesterday? And so glad you are feeling better from the chills episode . So glad it's over! but I have to ask..doesn't it make your worried that now there are so many possible symptoms for Covid 19?

Kathleen - wow!! you see we never forgot you because each new monthly thread would say 'we are a small but mighty bunch" and that was your phrase. Please visit when you can and catch us up!!! missed you!!

Pat - I hope you are okay, you 'sound' quiet. I know last month you communicated that you were down because of this ongoing seclusion :( and some medical issues. I hope so much you are okay :hug: You have sustained me here for months, with your quiet friendship and support! so great.

and Pat - that temporary gig I was so happy about? It lasted THREE DAYS. Yeah. The guy thought he could operate under the food truck owner's license..that is not so. Somebody in town called to investigate and we got shut down. so disappointing!!! I am back to feeling adrift with no purpose.

to Lisa and Kathleen - my summer job that I love so much? that this summer would have marked 19 YEARS there? they decided not to open this year. I KNOW i should be trying to take advantage of having the first summer of my adult life off. And I do my best but I am so programmed for work to be what I base the rest of my life around.

Last month my summer chef boss called and asked if i would assist him with a gig, he borrowed a friends food truck and we set up in town and had a busy great 3 days AND I was able to bake cookies/sweets at home and sell them at the truck too. And that gave me fresh energy and I felt like a useful person again. But as i described above, it lasted 3 days.

And you would think that I would use this free time to take care of the cluttered and mess around this house? but there are YEARS worth of stuff collected and NOT BY ME . I know Pat has tried to help me with this. And yes Pat I have armed myself with garbage bags and gotten rid of large black garbage bags worth of stuff. But is a drop in the ocean it seems :( I have told Pat that the main problem is husband starts projects and needs things, hardware/ electrical/ etc supplies. But he never puts things away properly so he can never fnd what he needs, then just buys more. So then we have twice what we need . Repeat that for the last 30 years and that is what I am dealing with.

today I got angry enough to just go ahead and tried to take care of an area that just grates on my soul 100 times a day. it was a container spilling over with hardware and supplies. I pulled it all out, piled it in a storage container (and those things just make the problem in one area) and behind that container, found tax papers and payroll slips from 1992. omg!!! I went thru every piece and recycled the plain paper and shredded the sensitive stuff. But my sense of outrage is that I have to take care of these things when I did not create them. is this just part of being married for so many freakin years/????

ok i am done I guess :(

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