Hey Nichols. Good to see you again. Even though I am sorry to read that you too grapple with depression, and the effects. I hear ya re: everything you have said! I now post only in this area. I try to hide how i feel. But if a bit of it seeps out I usually am told to "be more positive". Which only causes me to go more into isolation either online or irl.
Often the life of someone who feels depressed, is isolation. Either because I,for one think the truth of the depression can be toxic to others. I don't want to be that person. Also I do not want to be told, yet again to be positive, suck it up, etc. That only reinforces my own feelings about it. Isolation can be all too real, even if people have a loving great family and kids. There is a part of themselves people feel they must hide. Thus, isolation.
Food for me is medication. So I get it. The only way I know to self soothe. I don't want to be on antidepressants for a couple of reasons. So I hear that as well. Although I do take suppliments. And am going to start treatment for a genetic (inherited) disorder that causes addition, anxiety, isolation, depression (
among many other things I do not suffer with). I am finding it harder to diet these days.
I want to let you know that there is a very kind community here.
https://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/dep...on-thread.html
Its small but active. Perfect for people who do not have the time or energy to do a lot of personals.
I have long admired how you function as an involved and good mom. I just wanted to let you know that. I am sorry you live with this all-too-common hidden secret. But I am glad you have written about it here. Please know I will always be here to listen and witness your challenges. I know all too well how isolating depression can be.