March Ups and Downs Fighting Depression Thread
 

New thread for March!

Hey everyone. Work is still crazy. I’ll have to work at some point this weekend too..

The scale dropped a bit.

We’re expecting a storm tomorrow. Hopefully clear for rest of the weekend.

I did another relaxing yoga class tonight; I think it’s helping. :)

I'm back. Missed you all.

I'm so tired, I'll post again very soon but did want to let you know I'm back online.

Welcome back Lisa

Thanks panda. I had a long hard day. My knees hurt.

The govt took $400 out if my disability check, for medicare premiums, which royally screwed me. I'm not happy.

I have lost a total of 35 lbs, 10 last month. I'm down to 296.

How are you, panda girl? Keep up the good work with your yoga.

Holly, Kathleen, Monica, coop and anyone ive missed, including the newest to our small but mighty group, miss you all.

I wasn't able to get TV service on, thanks to uncle Sam taking my medicare premiums all at once. Did I mention I'm not happy?

My phone is back on and I get the internet on it so I'm happy.

Jennifer couldn't get a hold of me a couple of weeks ago, so she sent the Benton County sheriff out to find me. I think she's starting to miss being away from me. Miss her like crazy.

I'm so incredibly tired this evening. I think it's a culmination of the last few days. I can hardly keep my eyes open.

Night ladies.

Lisa I hope you were able to get some rest.

I took a nap today and it ended up being 4 hrs. Last Saturday similar (5 hrs).
I was so drowsy this afternoon but in the morning I made it to my double workout sessions- I had a cardio class and a barre class. Then I did some errands which I debated doing but I was already out and didn’t want to have to do them tomorrow. I did NOT feel like going to workout this am, but it would have cost a lot to late cancel, and I would have regretted not going since I am really trying to go on a regular basis now.
Friday I canceled ahead of time, since there was a big storm, but I assume that class probably got canceled entirely later. I saw a large downed tree on my street today. The storm was bad. Lots of places flooded or lost power.

I’m glad I live in the city. I feel if I had lost power it would have been resolved pretty quickly.
I can’t imagine living in PR, losing power for 5 months...

Anyway doing pretty good with my calories. I’ve been at 1200-1400 per day lately.
I’ve been thinking of trying for 1000-1200, but not sure. Maybe in a couple weeks. Or if i am at 1400 or 1500 some days, then other days during the week I’d aim for lower.

Tomorrow I have another double workout, then need to do several hrs of office work, then have yoga in the evening.

Hope everyone is enjoying March so far?

Hi all, I haven't been around lately, been dealing with my depression, I was diagnosed in 2012 with Major Depressive Disorder, anxiety, PTSD, panic attacks, Agoraphobia, OCD and Bi Polar 1 disorder, I weaned myself off my meds as I hate the way they make me feel, and I was gaining weight, I think, I have been finding other ways to cope and mange my depression and anxiety, I meditate, do yoga, and color, I also play MMORPGs a lot, I am slowly getting the weight off, I am not following a plan, I actually found something that works for me, cutting my sodium down to 1500-1800 mgs a day, and cut out a lot of sugar, and processed foods, I have learned to make my own taco seasoning and use the spices we have in the cabinet, I rarely reach for the salt, there are some days when I just want to give up and some days it's great, I am sorry that you are all struggling with depression and such. big hugs to you all.

Thank you I Believe In Me. ! Good to be back.

Kathleen,

My glucose level went down 2 points. It's in the 5s now. Trudy was very happy. (My nurse practitioner)

welcome back to TracyB! :)

Lisa congrats on getting your number down! ! :carrot:

Kathleen so good to hear from you :) I'm not sure of the exact date when I go back to the summer job but it's usually the second week of May, so a while yet. Yeah supposedly the sale of the RB's store is still progressing though it seems to be dragging on and we're all sick of people asking us about it because we know nothing ourselves :devil: tell us how you are doing! please :D

Hi everyone! Glad to read the updates.
I had a double workout on Saturday and a double workout on Sunday and guess what- the scale jumped up nearly 4 lbs. I know I didn’t eat extra 13,300 calories in last few days, so it’s just water or whatever but I really dislike seeing the number go up. I am contemplating not weighing myself every day, but weighing once a week could be just as bad, so not sure how best to handle this.

For now I just plan to try to not be discouraged and keep on plan.
If it is still up next three days I will update my weight on my statistics.

The scale went up AGAIN.
I am up 4.6 lbs in three days.
And my sleeves feel snug.
I’m not happy.
Plus I worked late so went to bed at 3:30am.
And I had to skip my french class.
And i have to do a presentation this afternoon and a different one this evening and prep for the Thursday one.

I’m just disappointed and cranky today.

PandaCupcake I think I would be cranky also! booo to the number but KNOW that you are still progressing, try to ignore the number if you can and continue on your great progress :)

Hi to everyone else, hope no one is being badly affected by the storm, Monica?

Yesterday I made the decision to cancel my moto meeting tonight because the forecast was for heavy snow, it still hasn't even started here yet , but no one gave me flak when I sent out the email last night, so I am enjoying our evening without having to do the 65 mile round trip.

But the snow will arrive and tomorrow will be spent shoveling. So glad I have the day off.

Ski races this weekend, so it will be busy at work.

Even the co-worker who I thought I liked, is irritating me now because she talks all the time too, and only about things like being on a diet, what to eat, what not to eat, and now I see her doing things like walking away from customers when they need help, and being kinda rude to them (even before they deserve it :devil: ) I guess I just need my Spring break from this place!! which will happen hopefully in 5 weeks.

Hey guys, I'm new here. I struggle with depression, anxiety, and panic attacks, and have trouble controlling emotions. All of these have made an impact on my ability to lose weight. I slowly gained about 140 pounds from binge eating and lack of exercise. Today I made a big step, I had an appointment with a psych APRN and she prescribed some meds to help with depression, anxiety and binge eating. She prescribed Prozac, anyone tried this before? She claims it can help with binge eating along with controlling my anxiety and depression. I really hope this helps me along with therapy I am about to start. I'm feeling hopeful.

Hi Amanda and :welcome: to our small but mighty group :) congrats on taking the step on making the appointment, and I hope very much that the meds will help you!!

Hi to everybody else :wave:

we got a dump of snow, nowhere near as bad as many others, 'just' 11 inches or so over 2 days but I have been shoveling alot :tantrum:

today is my "Monday" as I just had my 2 days off and oh boy do I hate going back to work :devil: takes alot of self control not to snap at my co-workers AND boss AND boss' wife :rolleyes:

I have to draft a letter to our state's Attorney General's office of consumer protection, about the restaurant that we had cater our raffle back in January, i've given the manager ample time to respond multiple times and he hasn't, I really don't like feeling like he's trying to blow me off, well a letter from the Attorney General will get his attention I hope .

have a good day!!

Hi ladies,

Things here are difficult right now. I'm messing with insurance coverage, mostly it's Medicaid crap. I don't feel like details, my mood is bad.

I'm trying to count my blessings.

My legs were weak for PT, this morning. I was dehydrated, I think. Won't do that again, gotta drink more when I go in early. I feel good, always do after PT. Gets the blood moving.

Welcome to the new ladies. Welcome to the oldies but goodies.

Things will be better, financially, next month and no, I do not get that $400 back, that was taken out of my check this month. My medicare premiums are being paid now so that is good. Everything else is in the crapper.

My phone is on this month, it's wonderful to be in contact with Jennifer and my friends. Like I said, hopefully now, with a lower rent, things will improve. Lord have mercy, I miss TV.

Much love to you all. Thanks for letting me rant.

Welcome, Amanda.
Lisa, I’m so glad you got your phone working so you can keep contact with your loved ones.
Vermont mom- that’s more snow than we got.

The storm knocked power out for someone on my team so I had extra work to do to cover. But at 3:30 i powered down my laptop.
I put on some makeup and thought I would at least take a walk down the block, but i fell asleep around 4:30 and woke up 3 hrs later. Still tired- debating what to do next..

I’ve been isolating myself from friends but I really feel i need to focus on myself right now. I’m at the point where i am just announcing that i am too busy and I no longer i no longer worry that anyone will be hurt or offended.

Hi all
I think I have been on this thread before. Yes I live with depression. I have been sort of maintaining for around 5 years. But The weight inches up. Am going in 5 weeks to see my "family" for a few days. So I must lose some of the weight I gained when I saw them last. Last Sunday I was 12 lbs heavier than they last saw me. I lost 3.5 of that weight. I will settle with losing around 5 lbs more. But I am not in that great dedicated strong willpower place right now.

So here I am back at 3fc asking if I can come in to this group.

Sending light to all!

Welcome Flower123

I didn’t sleep well last night. I had a nightmare.
Feeling blah today. Was going to put some laundry in but the machines are shared with other tenants and are currently in use. I’m bored and trying to get myself out for something that doesn’t involve spending a lot of money or eating a lot of calories. I wish I could just “take a walk” just for peace and fitness but I always feel I need to combine a walk with at least some errand.

I’m not in a good mood. My bf had dumped me but then apologized and indicated he wants to stay together but this makes no sense to me. He’s been traveling a lot for work and now it’s the weekend and we have no plans. This is stupid. I can’t have a boyfriend that i never see. I saw him once last month when he texted me last minute on a Friday night to come over.
I think I preferred when we were broken up rather than this on the fence stuff. I should move on.
I think he has been looking to meet other ppl but thinks he can keep me stringing along as a back up.

Boys pretty much suck.

Life is too short to spend your time being unhappy and being used. One person is not worth that much pain. Spend time with people who care about you.

You sound very strong. You'll get it all figured out.

You don't need to ask. Everyone is welcome.

I attempt low carb eating. The past 2 days, I've failed miserably. Time for me to get back on the wagon. If you are interested, I can help. I've lost 35 lbs since Nov.

I have a headache this morning but a large crazy project just got canceled which is actually a relief and means my work calendar will lighten up considerably, at least for now.
We are getting a snowstorm but I think it starts after my french class tonight so i should still go to that. Next week is the last class. I have missed a couple classes and haven’t been focused so actually glad it’s ending.

Lisa, thank you for the encouragement.

Wishing everyone a great day!
Update: the large crazy project is back (no longer canceled). Ugh

:welcome: back to Flower123! I think I remember your username from being here before but I forget specifics about you :^: but glad to see you here :)

PandaCupcake, booo to more snow for you and extra booo for the project coming back :p

HI Lisa :) you gave nice advice to PandaCupcake!! I hope things do improve with the lower rent, and so glad you have your phone, and I sure as heck would miss TV too!

Hi to Kathleen, Coop, Monica, JesikaBeth, and the new ladies!! :wave:

more snow coming here too tomorrow, 5" to 8" tomorrow, another 3" to 5" Wednesday, bit more Thursday, snow showers Friday, UGH. I have to remember that March is typically a very snowy month here. My upper body is really doing good with all this frickin shoveling, LOL!! I'm just glad I can do it.

The sale of the RB's store is AGAIN delayed! now supposedly it's March 31st. I am just going in and doing one day at a time.

That's such a pretty phrase!! love it :love:

Thanks everyone for the welcome. Really nice to read!

PandaCupcake sorry your bf treated you so badly. Everyone deserves someone who treats them well. Sounds like you know that. Sorry the "large crazy project" is back on.

Lisaloveshearts 35 lb loss since Nov? That's a lot of weight. Congrats.
I have had great success in the past doing a very low carb and low calorie diet. Now I am doing something more moderate. If that doesnt work, I will have to adjust things and do a low carb/calorie sprint.

VermontMom I live in Vermont, Champlain Valley. I remember you ride. That's about all I remember. Guessing you are ready for some warm riding weather. And here we go, round three of the nor'easters. the letter you are writing to the attorney general, are you writing it to the consumer protection division? I have a lot of luck turning things over to them. I usually call them first. Wishing you the best with that !!

I was craving bad food today. But held strong. I need to find a way to give up my addiction to low calorie hot chocolate. Made with cocoa powder, cashew milk and stevia. its bad for me in every way. Holding pattern with the weight loss. Even though the calories are not higher than 1100. I think it's because of inflammation. I could cut down more on the carbs. Will do that in a sprint in April if I have to. Going to find a grocery store where cod fish is on sale. I think eating that might help move the scale.

Hoping everyone has a good Tuesday.

good morning! Flower123 oh my gosh you'd think I'd remember that you are about 50 miles from me?? :D and yes I am a rabid rider. If you are ever in Stowe, I work at an overpriced deli/convenience store on the Mountain Road and my real name is Holly: :) Yes I sent the info to the Consumer Assistance Program of the AG's office, I did call first, then used their contact form on Friday. Haven't received a confirmation email yet but I will be patient.

I need to commit to do a daily weigh in, I think. This will be about the third time in my life I've done a major weight loss, and you'd think I'd be so delirious with joy that I'd maintain forever, but you start to slack here and there and it comes back so easily.

PandaCupcake, is the low calorie hot chocolate really that bad for you? or is it because you have it alot?

White fish is a great protein source. do you especially like cod? man I am old enough to remember when cod was super cheap.

I recently found a recipe for a microwave 'chocolate mug cake'. It isn't low calorie or low fat or low ANYTHING, it's only a portion-control thing, but I actually regret finding out about it, because it is SO GOSH DARN DELICIOUS and QUICK and no-fuss to make, from ingredients I always have on hand.

HI to every one else!! have a good day :)

Hey Holly. Nice that you get to work in Stowe. Had to laugh when I read "overpriced" convenience store and Deli. Most places there are pricey. I have not been on the mountain road in a long time. Used to go there to a healer. But that was maybe a decade ago... or more. I used to go to McDonalds on the Mountain road and get a fish filet. And stop at Green Mountain Chocolates in Waterbury Ctr. Those were the non diet days. I would say if you ever are in Burlington to stop by where I work. But I am retired. Hope you are not deluged with snow. BTW everyone, I am Pat.

Everyone, I hope you are doing well. Today I gained weight. I have no clue how that happened. Got some Cod fish. But the store also had fattening samples. Chocolate and then sausage with potatoes. So I guess my plan for low calories sort of went out the window. Still it was only 1400 for the day.

Hope everyone has a great Wednesday!

Hi, I'm here. Just not much to say right now. I'm OK, just not up to adding anything.

I haven’t been doing so great.
After I exercise, the scale goes up.
It eventually goes back down but I hate seeing the number going up.

I’ve been tracking my calories, protein, and carbs and could definitely do better. Some days i am at 1500-1600 and should aim for 1000-1200.

Work is better than last week.

My “bf” said he would love to see me this weekend but now that it’s nearly the weekend i asked tonight what his weekend looks like and he said busy but “maybe” brunch Sunday.
Then he later texted to dump me again and then said that i am fat and have a fat a** and was just generally saying i am too fat now. I can’t write exactly what he texted but it was very direct and mean.

So that’s a big wake up call as he’s the second guy to tell me i am fat But the other guy wasn’t as mean about it. The other guy acknowledged in an indirect way that i am fat, and i had asked him first. The bf wasn’t asked and I think already knows i have been trying to lose wt so there wasn’t a reason for him to say everything he just texted me now.

And yes of course i also meant ‘wake-up call’ as in my “bf” is a jerk that abandons me every month and now this.

I just feel very alone. My best friend moved out of state a few months back, and I can’t deal with most ppl right now.. so i wish my bf and i could be back to how we used to be when things were better, but it isn’t seeming like it would.

PandaCupcake...you are doing FINE and you didn't ask for opinions, but I HAVE to comment that the "bf" comments are effing crappy and you don't need to have anyone 'close' to you tell you that!!!

It is a shame to see the numbers on the scale go up after you have done some exercise but it WILL level out..or even if it doesn't, a pound of muscle takes up SO MUCH LESS SPACE than a pound of fat. And you are making your body healthier if you work out :)

HI to every one else :wave: Lisa sorry to see that maybe you are a bit down, we love you and hope you are OK!!

I have been shoveling snow for days and I am sick of it, but am glad of the weighted cardio workout it gives. and it makes me feel strong and self -sufficient. But I still hate snow :devil:

today is my "Monday" back to work and my idiot boss and idiot co-worker. Oh well :D

Hello everyone,

Glad to see Lisa was able to pop in.
Thanks Holly. I am in better spirits today.

I have a double workout Sat and a double workout on Sunday.
I was originally also supposed to go today after work but not sure fridays every week is a great idea- i have to jet out of work early and do I really need three workout days in a row..
So maybe i will add fridays if my schedule permits or if i miss some other scheduled session i can’t attend.

Usually lately fridays my brain is fried from the work week and i need to just breathe.
Plus i have office work to do which is due monday am..

But i have Sat, Sun, and then fitness classes again on Tue, Wed.
On some of the alternate days maybe i should just walk or something near my home.

It’s only afternoon but I’m doing really well so far with my meals.
I had a protein drink and salmon.

I know you didn't ask me either but what your bf said was shitty and totally uncalled for. There are no excuses for it, period. End of story.

If you want to lose weight then do it for yourself, NOT for someone else. I would have told them both to **** off.

Do this for you.

Sasha ( young kitty) has been SOOOO bad today. First, she finds a way to get under my mobile home from inside my mobile home.

Secondly, she runs across the kitchen counter and spills a whole can of condensed milk.

I think im going to take a nap. Geez Louise, nervous breakdown here.

Hi everyone, I'm new here.

Not sure how much I currently weigh, I don't have a scale at home. I should try to find out, but am scared.

BPD (Borderline, to make it clear), chronic depression, PTSD, OCD, social anxiety, are issues that I struggle with and that contribute to my weight gain. Trying to be good about it, and to lose the weight I gained...

Welcome, Montrealgal

Welcome,Montrealgal.Sounds like you are dealing with a lot! Congrats.on starting the weight loss.

Some people do not use a scale. Especially at first. So if you dread a weigh in, then maybe you can wait until you feel you have lost some. That's what I did when I was more than 200 lbs. I waited a bit. Then got on the scale.

Thank you.

There is a dress I haven't worn since beginning of Fall 2016 semester at uni, and it got to a point where it didn't go in at all, so I'm using that dress at the moment to gage things. A week ago the dress went in but REALLY tight in the tummy and arms, and it looked like I was pregnant. A week later (tonight) it's a tad less tight on tummy (but the same on the arms), and I look just fat and not pregnant, so my stomach isn't so round anymore - very likely water retention a week ago. :D

Hi ladies,

The only time I weigh is at Drs appointments. My next one, on the 31st, I think, will probably not be a good one. Food bank food is usually pasta, bread, and sweets. Ive kinda had to eat what they gave me but I am grateful. Grateful to have food.

Not much to post really.

Ive got PT tomorrow at 1 pm. I like going at 1 or 2. It gives me time to drink water. It gives me time to loosen up and move around. I'm too old for 8:30 am, anymore.

I'll be so glad when this month is over.
Hopefully, you all are having a better month than I am.