I am so sorry you are feeling bad about yourself. I'm going to tell you something it took me a lifetime to discover: diets don't work. If there were even one diet that did work logn term, everyone would be on it and nobody would be overweight.

Before I go further, I strongly recommend that you seek the help of a therapist that specializes in eating disorders. Next, I want to recommend that you find a good nutritionist who specializes in Intuitive Eating. You can find one here:.

https://www.intuitiveeating.com/cont...elor-directory

Next, I recommend that you read two books:. Intuitive Eating by the folks at the above website, and Overcoming Overeating by Jane Hirschmann and Carol Hunter.

I also recommend that you stop starving yourself. Eating too little always results in a binge and weight gain.

Finally, the most important thing to do is be kind to yourself. I know this is hard to believe, but you are already enough. Today. Your size doesn't determine your worth.

Hang in there. You will be OK.

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800 cals per day is way too low. Eat 1,500 cals per day, every single day, and exercise for 45 minutes 4-5 times per week. Do this consistently and the weight will come off without your feeling so deprived that you give up. Good luck!