lostbutstilltrying: I am so sorry you encountered those ignorant jerks today. I'm sure many of us have been there, too, and understand the pain you feel at being singled out. I'm glad you allowed yourself to cry in order to vent the pain. I hope you're able to let that pain go now. You're a beautiful person. We're all here to support you! :hug:

Dumb jerks!!!
 

lostbutstilltrying: I am so very sorry that those stupid jerks were so mean to you when you were running for the bus. :devil: That really makes me angry!!! :mad: Please consider that they are just rude and insensitive people and try to let it go. I know that is way easier said than done, but jerks like that do not deserve your time or energy!!! :( I am sending you COURAGE for joining the gym! Do it for YOU!!! You deserve to be healthy and fit! :hug:

lostbutstilltrying - Sorry that happened to you. :( That would upset me too.

Not much to report. Eating almost the same thing every day. I think I will weigh myself over the weekend.

lost, :hug: I am so sorry those ignorant soulless beings were such jerks, oh how it hurts to hear crap like that :( You just keep on being you and we are on your side hon!!!!

I will be back to say hey to everyone soon, gotta clean up from dinner but had to give lost a hug!

Hit the gym hard this week. My muscles are tired and sore but I'm hoping I accomplished a big time fat burn. Since I was unchanged last week, I'm crossing my fingers that I lose two pounds this week. Sunday is my monthly weigh and measure.

The next doctors appointment is this coming Thursday. I suspect I'm going to be moved into the transition stage of the weight loss program, so I'll move out of ketosis and back to eating carbs. I plan to continue avoiding refined sugar but honestly, I am truly looking forward to being able to have a sandwich.

thank you for the hugs everyone, knowing that people care makes a difference. I will pick up and keep going on, I hope that everyone has a good weekend

Inspire Positive Soul Sensations
 

I saw the attached image on Facebook and snatched it to share here because it speaks to my journey and I think it might speak to others, as well.

If you can't read the image, it says: "It's not that some people have willpower and some don't. It's that some people are ready to change and others are not."

It's the same epiphany I came to a few weeks ago, when I was struggling so much. It's not a matter of can and can't. It's a matter of will and won't. When I'm fighting for each step on the treadmill, track, or elliptical, I repeat that phrase to myself before chanting inside my head, 'I will take this step.' Doing that forces me to own my choices.

Have a blessed day, everyone.

Hi there...

I love the positivity in this thread, which I need to hear! I have a head cold and I'm trying to get ready for my move. I'm pretty tired...

Take care and my apologies for a short message...

Amy

Well, Darryl from Books for America came today, and left with about 800 books. Not as many as we hoped he'd take, 'cause the woman who talked to me on the phone told me erroneously that they take hardcover fiction that's older than two years—which they don't. So I still have at least 700 more books to get rid of.

But one good thing about living in the DC area is that a lot of charities have their main offices nearby. Darryl told me that another organization, American Veterans, will pick up the remainder of what we have, so long as it's in boxes or bags. (Books for America was great 'cause they provided their own boxes.) I can't imagine someone carrying a bunch of heavy hardcovers out to a truck in bags, but as it happens, my BERP efforts so far have freed up some boxes. Not enough, though—I have to do more BERP-ing to come up with more boxes. It's amazing how many boxes of miscellaneous paper I have squirreled away everywhere!

I just re-read those two paragraphs. I need to apologize to y'all for how utterly boring my postings have been of late. Opening boxes, clipping images, sorting clippings, moving books from one place to another—it's all paper. That's my life, doing various things with paper: before the BERP, during the BERP, and after the BERP. You can't be a collage artist if you don't love paper, that's for sure. But these days I don't have time to make art with paper, 'cause all this fuss is about getting excess paper out of our house—plus bringing some order to the great mass that remains. =sigh=

Since Sunday night is our weekly date to have our niece Margaret and her son Gavin over, and I have to do some grocery shopping before that, tomorrow doesn't count as a day off. Therefore, I have decided to declare Monday a day of rest—from the moment I wake up...until I fall asleep that night. So there!

I'm just about climbing the walls here...I've had three episodes so far of completely breaking down and freaking out about the BERP. I don't want to have another one! When I became bipolar, I lost all my tolerance for stress...and this whole multi-week ordeal is STRESS CITY.

I hope y'all are having a more fun, more restful weekend than I am. =smile=

Hi there!

Fi, way to go regarding your huge progress with your BERP! Wow, that's awesome!!! :carrot: :D

I, too get overwhelmed easily, stress is my enemy, ugh! I've become better at it but I still struggle.

Today I went to the doctor, I saw a doctor in my family physicians group, he was very kind and caring, I felt like I have some confidence in him, which feels great. He switched my antibiotic and slowly, I'm feeling better. I really didn't feel up to going to the doctor but I'm so glad that I did.

I restarted my Ok Cupid profile, I've been so pleasantly surprised by some nice guys. I chatted with one tonight on the phone, I am quite elated! He seems very kind, funny and sweet, also sincere. Warm fuzzy feeling!!!

Have a good night ladies!

Amy ;)

At the lake. Food has been good, except for a piece of ice cream cake for my daughter's 15th birthday today. Walked some today and did a few exercises, but plan to walk more/further tomorrow. I love reading all of the posts here and being a part of such a supportive group! You ladies are wonderful!!! Please remember to watch for the June 2014 Ups & Downs Support Group thread...... coming SOON!

My eating was very good over the weekend. Under 1000 calories both days. I'm really feeling motivated. Today I go to the grocery store. I go once a month. While I didn't get any junk food, the temptation is going to be there to binge on some of the healthier snacks I got. If I do that just means no snacks for the rest of the month as I won't be going back to the grocery store.