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Originally Posted by CDubsGotGoats: |
Chelsea— I'm so happy to see you reappear in this group! It's been kind of like a group therapy setting, all of us in a circle, except one chair, your chair, has been empty. Give us the lowdown...what's it been like for you? Is your life on the up and up?
Tonight I said to Bob that I wanted to make a happy collage showing two cats on a rug, their tails making spirals—the symbol of renewal & rebirth. He said, "'Sounds like wish fulfillment to me." What was that supposed to mean? I felt like he was raining on my parade. It's his parade, too! And then I said I wanted to get some cushions for my outdoor lounge chair, the one on the deck with its lovely view of our little patch of forest. Bob said disparaging things about what happens to cushions like that when they get rained on repeatedly, how moldy & gross they get. When I replied that I would bring them inside, every time I used them, he said, "We don't have any space." The BERP is all about making space, lots of space! I walk bags of paper out to the recycle bin every day, and bags of trash to the trash can. Why can't he see that? It's like he won't really have faith that the house is going to look spacious and orderly when I finish, until I do finish, and even then he'll have something pissy to say about some detail he doesn't like. =sigh= Why can't he share the dream with me, a dream of a better future when our environment will be pleasant, our cats will be happy & loving, and I'll be no longer fat? I can see that future coming, but he can't. |
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Just back from a 90-minute. 3.5 mile interval workout. This is a picture of me before heading out, sporting my spanking new hi-viz yellow shirt that matches my visor and shoe laces, thank-you-very-much! I felt so bleeding coordinated for the first time in my life. ;)
Yeah. So, now I'm going to take my shower and crawl into bed to die. :D I totally kicked my own butt with this workout. I've been working so hard and been sticking to my eating program but not an ounce lost this week. I hope this doesn't indicate a plateau. |
seabiscuit and VermontMom thanks for the hugs about the bad interview. I am feeling much better today after a good cry, a good (healthy meal) and a good sleep! and pretty proud that I didn't binge when I was upset because that is a major problem with me! So - overall I am proud that I am making progress, trying to find work and step away from my eating issues.
And thanks for the comment on the sig line. I thought about that one day when I was cheering a loss for someone 50lbs heavier than me and I thought, if they have the right to be happy at that weight, why don't I? CDubsGotGoats (I love that name by the way, I love goats!) have a hug () the down won't last forever! Fiona W - sorry to hear hubby is struggling with changes. Just remember if he is grumpy it's probably because he liked his old life and might be a bit worried about it becoming too different - a compliment in a weird (although frustrating) way. Hang in there, he will jump up outta the dumps soon enough. worththeeffort2 Hi! I like yr new shirt too!, what is/are interval miles workouts? sounds interesting |
lostbutstilltrying: an interval workout mixes periods of walking with bursts of fast walking or jogging. I have a series of recorded interval workouts I bought from Prevention magazine but I also just load music on my iPOD shuffle so the tempo varies between 100 and 160 beats per minute as the songs change.
The benefits of interval training is that you get a higher calorie burn and burn fat without burning muscle and the only equipment I need is my iPOD shuffle and a good pair of sneakers. Today was the first time I've done more than three miles. |
Dang it!!!
I just posted long personals and everything and LOST IT ~ again ~ in cyberspace!!! I will be logged in and then ~ after writing a lost post ~ it asks me to log in again and knocks my post out. Arrrrrrgh! I am reading along and will post again soon, but wanted to let you know that I'm okay. At the lake for a long weekend and going out to walk the dogs with our little family NOW!!! Hope all is well with everyone! Thanks for keeping this group rolling, even in my absence! You gals are AWESOME!!! :hug:
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I hope this post finds you well.
Things here are ok. My house is a mess, I just can never seem to keep up. I have been so down for so long. The Dr said I was on a bi-polar downer so she suggested putting me on Lamatical. I am starting to feel a little bit better. One more week, I can go up to 2 pills. It is a slow progression on this medicine. I haven't been working out. I know I should but my motivation is zilch. I think at some point, I will but I have not yet hit rock bottom. Until then, I am still really happy with myself. I have a great life. I have a daughter who loves me. I have a roof over my head and a nice car. I am pretty and very kind to others. I love my jobs. I am very lucky so until the time comes when I lose some weight, it will just be icing on the cake. My math class is going well. I passed my 1st Unit test. Now it is onto decimals, percentages and ratios. Word problems really give me fits but I just keep trying and passing my homework and tests. We have to get 80% on everything we do, even the tests. I actually enjoy math, even though I am not that great at it. I miss you all and hope you are healthy and happy. |
Hey, hope everyone is having a good weekend. Mine has been good so far. Woke up today and got a haircut, mowed the lawn, and did a lot of homework for my government class. Ugh! That last bit was the worst part of the day.
We went to the cemetery today and got to see Isabelle's grave marker and vase. We bought some artificial flowers to have out there. It's very beautiful. We also installed an eternal lighthouse with a solar LED candle that will light up at night. It's so pretty. Went to mass afterward and then home to relax. I did MORE homework. I have this week off from class for Memorial Day, but I plan on working on assignment anyways to get ahead. Hubby and I have booked a trip to Nashville, IN. It's a bed and breakfast that has HOT TUBS in the room!!!!!! YEAH! We had the trip set for last summer for our anniversary, but since I had gotten pregnant we cancelled it. No wine and no hot tub would have been a bummer. So we decided to make the trip this summer for our anniversary. I can't wait! :) I've been doing really well eating wise. Smaller portions, counting calories as best I can. I'm so glad I have Monday off, the extra day will be nice to relax. Vermont- I wouldn't say I lift heavy. I've only been into for about a month now. I bench a measly 35 lbs right now, but did two reps at 40lbs after my three sets the other day. Leg Press 210lbs, deadlift 60lbs, shoulder press 15lb db's, calf raises via leg press machine 210lbs. I do a few more lifts, but that's the gist of it. I've improved quite a bit from where I started. lostbutstilltrying- Lifting is intimidating at first. Going into the free weight area will feel uncomfortable, but just go in and do your thing. It will feel awkward the first few times because you don't know where anything is and there are all these beefy people around. Focus on form. If you have terrible form, you'll end up hurting yourself. Also don't start heavy, make sure to work your way up to the heavy stuff. Also, if possible, use free weights and not machines. I only use two machines in my routine, seated row machine and the assisted pull up machine. |
Good morning! I am up pretty early. It's just so easy, with birds and approaching daylight which is SO nice. In winter I would not get up before 7:30 yikes.
Had dinner with our son, other son and his fiance last night, nice. Younger son nd fiance are getting married this Sept. 27. I am making their cakey dessert substance :D she would like Cake Balls. I know of them; never had one, never made them ... yet. I have 5 months to practice, lol I had to be extremely direct (mean/b*tchy) to the new guy at work, he did something again which I had nicely asked him NOT to do, which affects my job. Well maybe now he will remember. My chef boss was right there and did not correct me so I know I was right :carrot: Fi, i am sorry Bob is not sounding on board with the good changes! I hope he comes around and appreciates and can see 'the whole picture' soon. Ohio, so good to hear from you, and i love your positive attributes :) I hope your new med takes effect SOON so you feel better. Sabrina, you sure do alot on your days off :D I guess we have to, right, or else nothing would get done. I love the solar lights I have seen in cemetaries, they are beautiful, such a nice 'night light' for the ones we love. Kewl about the booked time away! worthy - WOW 90 min. of intervals, you sure did kick your own butt, lol. High viz is the way to go! great advice from Sabrina to you about weights. Also tons of tutorials on youtube but as you know, just because it's on the internet doesn't mean it's right, lol. I have also read the benefits of free weights vs. machines, you exert more effort with free weights so maybe more benefits in shorter time...whatever works for you, wtih no pain or injuries. congrats on sticking to plan and I would say that the interval work plus counting calories SHOULD make some loss!! let's hope so! Kathleen - oh, the lost posts are SO frustrating aren't they. Hope you have nice weather for time at the lake :) and good walks! lost anytime we DON't turn to food in times of stress is great!! very glad you didn't and proud of you also. Hi to Amy, Chelsea, lilturtle, Monte Cristo! Oh I've been doing SO very well with light and relatively clean eating, despite the constant temptations at work; until last night, my younger son gave me some Lake Champlain (locally made) chocolate for a late Mother's day gift. The dark chocolate/coffee truffle bar made me lose control and i ate the whole thing 6 ounces I think, maybe 8 ounces :eek: |
Fiona: I'm sorry Bob is not being very supportive right now. I hope his mood changes for the better very soon. :hug:
Kathleen: I type up my longer emails in Notepad first. That way, I can read each person's post and respond to it, then just copy and past into the reply tool. I started using this approach after losing one of those long, personalized responses, too! :dizzy: Ohio: Fantastic work on the math class. I've tried and tried to refresh my math skills because they truly aren't any good. I admire you for taking the class and doing so well. Keep studying hard. It will be so worth it! :cp: Fleur/Sabrina: Your vacation sounds so relaxing and wonderful. Wine and a hot tub. ~sigh~ Maybe your hubby will toss in a foot massage to boot! :D You sure outdistance me in the lifting department! Great job! You're right the free-weights area is very intimidating. :strong: Holly: Cake balls? Isn't that a Batchelorette Party dessert? ;) Do I sense the guests will be dining on cake balls on occasion during the next five months? Good for you for standing up to the new guy. You asked nicely once. You were direct the second time. B**chy doesn't come around until the third time when you bounce his head off the wall as a 'gentle' reminder. :) Through my MyFitnessPal account, I received an email yesterday with links to some exercises to be done using free weights. Sabrina and Holly, with your encouragement here, after studying the form in the demonstration videos, I may just try the free-weight area of the gym on Tuesday. Can you hear my teeth chattering? :o I'm off to visit my parents today and take them to the family cemetery to lay flowers. Since they are both elderly now and unsteady on their feet, I don't want them in a remote cemetery alone where one or both could fall. Even though my idiot brother has lived in their house with his wife and two children rent-free for more than two years, he doesn't do this sort of thing for them. So, I will drive up to pay a visit and lend a hand today to make sure all is safe and secure. Happy Memorial Day weekend, everyone. Be safe. |
Hi there everyone...
I'm exhausted because my allergies are terrible! I have so much to do with packing, cleaning, etc., but I just have not had the energy. Today I bought a few things at the grocery store, then I bought Snickers a big exercise ball, I think he will have fun with it. Sorry for a short post, take care! Amy |
Worthy - LOL @ the cake balls joke :D and hey, that's kewl that you decided to hit the free weights section tomorrow!! you go! :carrot: and thanks for your input on the co-worker, LOL! He seems to have straightened out..for now. And as for your brother and his family who aren't helping your parents, grrr...!You are a wonderful daughter to visit and drive them to the cemetary.
I'm always so confused about Memorial Day..is it for anyone who has passed away, or just vets?? You see the veterans honored of course but my family has always gone to the cemetary to place flowers on family members who are not military. Amy - so sorry your allergies are making you miserable! :( Must get in the way of needing to continue your packing/moving process. I hope you feel better soon! and is the exercise ball the one that they can roam all over? sounds fun :D Hi to Fi, , Kathleen, Sabrina, Monte Cristo, Ohio, lilturtle, Chelsea, lost; we haven't heard from coffeeshopgirl, project judi, 1life, nor hope for a while, I hope you are all good! I have some bug bites that are making me :tantrum: I even took 2 benadryl last night to help..it did help but i got so very drowsy. Got the bites from cutting the grass yesterday, should have worn long sleeves! I have off today, not because of the holiday, just that i have Mondays off; and it was wet this morning, then dried out, so I weedwhacked and it looks so nice and tidy. It is clouding up again., it just keeps changing. I have ridden to work a couple times now, but really want that to be every day. I could get on the bike now..but I really don't need to just ride for the purpose of doing it..don't want to go to a coffee shop because I would just be tempted. |
Holly: Memorial Day used to be Decoration Day, established to memorialize America's Civil War dead. Later it included all Americans killed in combat. Because families commemorate their relations who served, I think it was a natural progression that the opportunity started to be used to spruce up the graves of other family members, as well.
It was cloudy and raining when I took to the elliptical for a workout this morning. I did 60 minutes straight. Once I was done, I got to thinking about the fact that just six months ago, I struggled through only 10 minutes before having to stop to rest, gasping for breath. Today, I was turning up the resistance. I needed the extra calorie burn to compensate for that bratwurst I ate for supper last night. It wasn't a binge it was just a really high-fat, processed meat product that I shouldn't have eaten but that tasted SOOoooooo good. :) |
I watched Flags of Our Fathers last night in honor of Memorial Day. I am so grateful to the men and women that serve in our military. I know I can't so thank God for those that do.
My eating hasn't been all that great. I hope to get back on track this week and get on that darn scale. |
Ugh! I just deleted a long reply! So frustrating!
Oh well, I'm having an ok day but it's too warm. I've started packing more today but I have more to do. Snick doesn't like his new toy, he's scared of it so I'm returning it. I'm thinking of going back to my fitness pal. The possibility of ankle surgery is becoming more real. I'm going to get another opinion, maybe I'll have it up where my family is, although I do like this surgeon. Take care, have a good night! Amy |
ohiofreespirit, I get your house related pain - I am pretty sure I have more mess than house at this point - if I am having a down or anxious day and I get the minimum done, everybody feed, clean enough and out the door then I give myself a pat on the back and that is good enough. Good job on the math test!
FleurDeLis, I have never been to Nashville and thought about going, because it’s not too far – be sure tell us how you enjoyed it when you get back. And thank you for the good advice about lifting! VermontMom – I too am finding myself getting up earlier, but in my case, it’s because the dog and cats see the sunshine, hear the birdies and come jump on the bed until I wake up. Learn about alarm clocks silly animals! worththeeffort2, good for you for taking care of your aging parents. I have often worked with the elderly and so many of them are forgotten by their busy younger families and they feel restricted and lonely. Sounds like you think they are worth the effort too! seabiscuit – sorry to hear about your allergies, no fun at all! I misread your post at first and thought you bought a big snickers exercise ball and I was picturing a strange contraption that has a snickers candy bar in it that rolls away from you so you have to chase it down to get the candy bar. Sorry the kitty didn’t like it, I’ve had that happen and I think you’re smart to get a second opinion on the surgery. That is always a good idea lilturtle – Hi! You can do it! You can get back on track! I am doing better up-wise as well, am making progress on the job training front and although I have a much dreaded physical tomorrow, I feel like I can handle it. Eating is going well, exercise is going ok, just on a slight back pain delay - but my goal is to join a gym this week - I will not let my social anxiety stop me from going to do this, I can do this! |
Vermont- I used to think of Memorial Day only for veterans, but after losing Isabelle, I've decided it shouldn't just be for them. We made it a special day for Isabelle. Went to the mass at the cemetery and visited her grave again. She changed our lives and had such an impact on us, just like those who serve or have served our country. I know I'm definitely a busy body! Can't help it! As for getting up early, I get up during the week at 5:45am! I love the early sunrise because it makes going to work so much easier!
Worththeeffort- You can do it! Just crank up your music and focus on you. No one else really exists when I'm in that zone. Good luck! Lostbutstilltrying- Let me know how lifting goes if you try it. Also there is a weight lifting thread here on this forum. I've found it really helpful. I feel like I've been doing really well with my diet and exercise. I went to try on some clothes today at walmart, but was disapointed. :/ I won't go into the details, but I just feel like I'm not making any progress... Very depressing. I came home and cried. :( |
Hi again!
Lostbutstilltrying- that's so funny about the exercise ball! Snickers is my pet guinea pig! He got his name because his coloring is like that of the caramel in a Snickers bar! :D Thank you for your support regarding the other opinion on my ankle, I appreciate it. How are you? Fleur- I saw your post in the calorie counting forum, take care! Toodles ... Amy |
lilturtle: Sending you good vibes :goodvibes: that you are able to get back on track this week.
Amy: MyFitnessPal has really been working for me. I hope the ankle surgery is something you'll have the freedom to prepare for and schedule so you'll have the healthy foods around that you'll need while recovering. :carrot: lostbutstilltrying: Thanks for your positivity. Yes, my parents are worth the effort, too--even though my mother can drive me crazy. :dizzy: You can totally overcome the social anxiety and start going to a gym! You can do it and you're going to feel so great! :cool: Fleur: I'm sorry you had a disappointing day trying on clothes. I hope you bounce back and feel better about things tomorrow. :hug: I had to take Benedryl to deal with my allergies after supper, so I'm barely awake at this point. It was a good day off. I even managed to prep a salad to take for my lunch tomorrow and packed my gym bag for after work. I'm looking at doing 20-30 min. with weight training and 60 min. of cardio. I'm really hoping to lose at least two pounds this week. Fingers crossed! :crossed: |
Hello ladies,
I am so sick. Everytime I cough, I pee my pants. It's awful. I feel like I am going to cough up a lung. I am medicating myself to try to calm down the coughing and sneezing. I have to work tomorrow. I don't know what I am going to do? I don't want to make anyone sick. So anyway... School is going well. I need to work on some schoolwork tonight in-between sneezes. I am so sorry some of you are struggling with things, allergies, anxiety and weight. I am so sorry. Hello to everyone. *waves* Much love to all. |
Finally posting again!
So very sorry that I didn't check in ~ except once (briefly) ~ during the LONG weekend! We kept pretty busy at the lake and entertained my 2 nieces all day Sunday. Got several walks in during the weekend, but they were shorter than planned. Ate decently, but snacked a bit, as usual up there. Haven't weighed in for a few weeks.
As a few of you have mentioned, I am also very thankful for the sacrifice that our military and their families have made so that we may live as we wish in this country. Especially remembering those who have made the ultimate sacrifice. I don't know quite where to jump back in with personals, and I hate to say that I don't have the time for them tonight. I have to get some sleep. Please know that I am reading along and will check in whenever possible. I am so busy with the end of the school year for both my kids and preparing for an upcoming trip to Ireland. I will be without a computer and wi fi while there, so please keep on posting and welcome any new people to the group! I will be here to start up the June thread, though. For safety reasons (for lurkers), I don't want to give the exact dates of our trip, although someone is staying at our house with the pups. So happy to see that Chelsea checked in, but sad that you have been struggling. :( I am keeping you in my prayers. :hug: I often fall asleep thinking of our group and praying for everyone. It is wonderful to know you are all here! :grouphug: |
Ohio,
It's good to hear from you! I hope you feel better! I've had a dry cough lately, it's no fun, hugs! :hug: take care and it's nice to see ya! Believe, It's nice to hear from you! I understand that you get busy, take care. I am also grateful for the military service that so many gave to our country. Take care! |
Hello friends,
I cancelled working with one client and I am waiting to hear from another one to see is she wants me to come work with her, when I am sick. Today is my daughter's 21st birthday. I have no idea what to get her? I hope you all are well. You are in my heart. |
It feels like it's been a long time since I posted: I've been so busy with the BERP! I had a great time Saturday when my 13-yr-old great-niece Grace came over to help me sort clippings up in my collage studio. She was a whiz at it! I gave her some gifts to help move her along in her own collage efforts, and from all reports she had a splendid time, too. Plus, I paid her for the four hours—minimum wage, which seems reasonable for her age. =smile=
The rest of this week I have to focus on getting ready for the book guy to come on Saturday: I'm giving away some 1500-2000 books to a local charity, for distribution to schools & prisons—plus for selling, perhaps, to support the running of the charity. There's a lot of unshelving and sorting of books to do before I'll know what I'm getting rid of. Bob has promised to help me with the unshelving part today, because that activity, when I did it once in the past, caused a painful back spasm that crippled me for days. Onward we go! Ohio— It's nice to see you back posting regularly: I sure hope you feel better soon! Amy— You posted, but you didn't say anything about what's going on with you! What's the latest news? Best wishes to everyone else...I'm reading your postings & thinking about you, just really crunched for time! |
I'll try to do a personal post tomorrow. I feel like I haven't talked to y'all in ages! :)
My manager kicked butt and took names over the whole "issue" last Friday when I was out. And has decided that we are not going to fix it for them, just give them guidance, which really relieves the pressure for me. Although I didn't enjoy having a meeting about it at 8am today, lol. So, hopefully this is mostly resolved and won't cause that much more stress. But when one thing goes away, another comes up. My aunt, uncle and grandma are going to be visiting today. Normally that would be a good thing, but my family, being Italian, is very loud and argumentative about everything. I used to be okay with that, but since the whole divorce fiasco I have what I can only describe as PTSD about family conflict. Last time he was here he ended up having an argument with my dad and I completely freaked out. Like curled up in a ball hyperventilating and crying. It was not good. My littlest sister had her ninth birthday yesterday. And guess what she wanted? Real handcuffs, lol. Specifically not those lame ones at wal-mart that just open with a button. And another sister ordered her a cane with a dragon on top. My family is so weird. My 14 yo brother got a cane and a pipe for his last birthday. No, he doesn't smoke, just thinks it is cool. They also caught a snake and were feeding it toads in the backyard. I never know what I'm going to find when I go home now. Crazy kids!! |
Originally Posted by worththeeffort2: Originally Posted by lilturtle: Originally Posted by seabiscuit: Originally Posted by lostbutstilltrying: Originally Posted by FleurDeLis: Originally Posted by ohiofreespirit: Kathleen - Oh Ireland will be so great!! we will miss you so much but we will continue our support as if you were here :D Originally Posted by Fiona W: Originally Posted by MonteCristo: Well I am having a much better day today, than yesterday! and all because it hasn't rained since last night. So this morning after coffee I did work out, then finished mowing the side yard, then went to town for errands and few food items, now back home and it's only 2:30 pm :) I could do a quick trip to town on my motorcycle but I really don't have any destination. Suppose I could pick up a quart of skim milk :D and I hope to be able to ride to work for the next few days, no rain forecast...yet. I think I'm also down another pound :carrot: As of now, I am almost just 10 pounds away from my lowest adult weight, 142. That is hard for me to grasp because I still feel so pudgy. Our minds are weird aren't they :dizzy: |
Ohio - I hope you feel better soon!
Thank everyone for the encouragement. I did good yesterday so I may be back on track. I had a meeting today with the people I rent my apartment from and the pressure to move is not as great as I thought. They just want me to be moving in that direction by doing things like filling out applications and getting on waiting lists. So that is a relief. |
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Fi... Thanks for asking about me. I still don't understand what the BERP is... I am okay, just very tired and I have a lot of things to do, especially packing. I feel like a bomb went off in my place, ugh. :^: I have 2 weeks as of tomorrow to finish packing, I feel very overwhelmed. Sigh, thanks for asking but things feel a bit unnerving right now between lining everything up for the move and getting my healthcare from Medicaid to transfer over. Ugh! Holly- thanks for your concern, I don't plan on telling my current surgeon about getting another opinion, I like and respect him very much but my hospital experience when I had my first operation was a nightmare, not his fault. His staff apologized but it has left mental scars, I like him a lot but I feel rather nervous after that experience. I've made an appointment with an orthopaedic surgeon in NY, a top notch hospital. I'd prefer to recover with family, not strangers. I also found out that the hospital may provide financial assistance due to my not having much income. Yes, it's funny about Snickers not liking his ball, that's ok, I'll return it. Have a good night. Amy |
Amy - I hate moving and packing. I am so unorganized by nature. You have my sympathy. Just think it will all be over in a couple of weeks and you can move on to unpacking which to me at least seems less daunting. I dread the time I am going to dace when I move from here.
That reminds me...I really need to organize. Any tips Fi? |
Oh I got on the scale this evening. Yes I know you are supposed to do it in the morning but I just had to do it when I had the courage. Down 11 lbs since 4/29. YAY!
I just realized something - I have lost over 100 lbs in less then a year!!!!! |
IBelieveInMe2 – welcome back to posting! Enjoy your busy and fun summer season!
seabiscuit – sorry things are chaotic and unnerving, this too shall pass! And it sounds like to you a well thought out surgery and recovery plan – do what’s best for you. ohiofreespirit – sorry to hear you are not feeling well. You know what helps a stupid (pee oneself) kind of cough – gargling warm salt water a couple times a day and vicks vapor rub on the bottom of the FEET (under socks) when you sleep – crazy, but it really helped me! For a 21 yr old, dinner and money? I know that sounds trite, but at that age I loved going out to dinner somewhere nice and was often saving up for things. Fiona W – wow that is a lot of books! Do be careful of your back! MonteCristo – I think most people are getting busy as the season changes, and all of us will be in and out more. Sounds like you have an active and fun life, what helps me is realizing that if I love my family and respect them as adults I have to let them solve their own problems and ignore it while they pick fights (a lot of my family are drunks and nut cases) Whatever you do, don’t take all the burden and none of the fun from their visit. VermontMom – I’m glad to hear your doing much better today, you always take time to say the kindest things to everyone and we appreciate it very much! And WOW! on getting so close to your lowest previous weight – that is super impressive! You are an inspiration! ilturtle – glad to hear things are getting better! You can do it, you can stay on track! And CONGRATULATIONS ON THE LOSS! And on 100 LBS IN LESS THAN A YEAR SUPER AWESOME!!!!!! |
I still am in shock that I have made it past 100 lbs. I still have a ways to go and I haven't seen much difference myself. I will with the next 100 though. My goal is to be down in the twos by the end of the year.
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Originally Posted by lilturtle: I am feeling a little bit better today but just a little bit. I am getting ready to leave for school. I have to drive to Columbus for my Math class. Have a great day everyone. I will try to get back in here tomorrow. |
Another day of dealing with books—moving out unwanted books buried in the far corner of the dining room, dusting off books piled up in the downstairs hallway and sorting them into keepers & nonkeepers, carrying up books on the stairway that go in my collage studio, and so on. It's exhausting, of course, because books are so heavy, especially art books. But the good news is, the work Bob & I did yesterday cleared out a whole floor-to-ceiling segment of the huge built-in case that Bob built (years ago) in our living room. That means there are spaces for the recent keeper books to go. I'm especially pleased to be bringing together all my scattered books on collage, and on the Dada & Surrealism movements, since they provide me with a lot of inspiration.
This morning something happened that reminded me of how short a time it's been since I went binge-free and sugar-free. I had a number of errands to run, starting with the post office and on from there to the drugstore. As I was walking out of the P.O., I was slammed by a sudden downturn in my mood. I got in my car and sat there a while, thinking, "Why do I feel so depressed, when morning is my best time of day?" And then I realized: I used to buy candy at the drugstore, so going to that store is no idle proposition. Even after figuring that out, I still had trouble when I got to the drugstore, because they'd rearranged everything, so I couldn't just grab what I needed quickly. I walked and walked down the rearranged aisles, looking for one elusive item. It seemed like every aisle had candy on it! I had to walk by this candy display and that candy display, where I could smell the chocolate right through the packaging. It was an ordeal, I'm telling you. I wonder how long it'll be before encounters with cookies, candy, and donuts don't make me miserable. They don't incite cravings anymore, but they do come loaded with all those negative emotions I used to feel while binging—almost always in my car, 'cause I was ashamed to do it at home. =sigh= Amy— BERP stands for Big Entropy Reduction Project—a massive decluttering and reorganizing effort all through my whole two-story house. Good luck with the packing! Trish— How utterly fabulous that you have lost 100 pounds in less than a year! Man, it took me 20 months to lose the first 50 pounds, and I have a ways to go before I'll have lost 100. I am most impressed! =smile= lostbutstilltrying— You wrote personals to everyone but didn't say how you are doing. What's up in your life? Holly— 10 pounds away from your lowest adult weight is terrific! Just hang in there until your mind gets with the program: you're doing great, gal. When I get to 10 pounds away from my lowest adult weight, I'll be 5 pounds away from my goal: I'll probably post a video of celebration, or something equally extreme... |
So pissed off!!!
This is about the 5th LOOOOOONG post with personals I have lost recently with one faulty click of a button on my keyboard!!!!!!!!! :mad: :devil: I am going to try the idea of copying and pasting from a notepad or Word. Hopefully, I will have time to finish getting to everyone this time around....... again! ARGGGGGGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :dizzy:
Wishing everyone well in the meantime! :wave: |
Here it goes.....
Okay, I am trying this post by copying and pasting from a Word document! Let’s see how this goes…..
Chelsea: I was SO incredibly happy to hear from you, but sorry to hear that you have been really down. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers! :hug: Hope things turn around for you SOON!!! Trish: CONGRATULATIONS on your weight loss, especially losing 100 pounds in one year!!! That is FANTASTIC!!!!!!! At this rate, you will get to your goal of being in the 200’s by the end of the year! How exciting!!! I am so happy for you!!! I am also glad to hear that there isn’t as much pressure on you to move as you originally thought. Holly: Congratulations to YOU on being only 10 pounds away from your lowest ever adult weight!!! That is truly INCREDIBLE!!! Good for you! I get the feeling you are a “get ‘er done” type of gal! I need some of that!!! Thank you again for all of your thoughtful and kind responses to everyone in the group. I really appreciate it! You are such an asset to this group! Amy: So sorry you are feeling so overwhelmed with all of the packing you need to do, along with everything else. Try to do just ONE thing at a time and continue to BREATHE! This too shall pass. You will be moved, life will go on, and ALL will be well….. soon! I hope you come to a peaceful decision on your surgery and surgeon. Too bad you had that horrific experience last time. Don’t blame you for not wanting to go through THAT again! I will keep you in my prayers as you continue to pack, move, and make decisions about the surgery. You have a lot on your plate right now. Please try to be patient with yourself! Fi: Holy cow, you are the ONLY person I know of that has more books than I do!!! I hope your back holds out as you move all of those heavy books around! It sure sounds like you are getting a lot accomplished in your house. That is great!!! Keep up the good work! That is interesting about your experience before and at the drug store. You have such great insight into yourself and your behaviors. As someone who is always trying to analyze my own and others’ behavior, I admire your self-knowledge. You are an inspiration to me in this regard! Knowing WHY you are behaving a certain way is often half of the battle! Good for you for RESISTING all of that candy you had to pass in the aisles of that drug store!!! ohiofreespirit: It is great to hear from you again, but sorry you have been so sick! I am glad to hear that you feel a bit better today. Hopefully, you are on the mend! I was also on Lamictal for a long time to prevent the really low lows. I just tapered off of it around the end of 2013. I think it did help me, and I was able to go off without event now that I am feeling more UP. I hope it will help you. Funny that you are driving to Columbus for your Math class. You are in my neck of the woods then! Is it at DeVry here in Columbus? I know you said that at least ONE of your courses would be at DeVry. Hope school is going well for you this quarter/semester. I also hope your daughter had a happy 21st birthday. What did you end up getting her? Sabrina: So sorry you had that awful experience trying on clothes at Walmart. I can so relate to that experience and the depression, frustration, and disappointment that go along with it. Been there LOTS of times. Be patient with yourself! Your pregnancy was really such a short time ago. You will get to where you want to be in time. Glad that you made it back to the cemetery to visit Isabelle’s grave for Memorial Day. I really like how you said that you can always make sure that she has a “beautiful place to sleep.” You are a great mother!!! (insert hearts) I am so happy to hear that you and your hubby are going to go on that trip to Nashville (IN?) this summer ~ complete with wine and a hot tub in your room! No doubt you both need it after all you have been through! :hug: lostbutstilltrying: It is great to see you continue to post and to post personals, but do please also tell us how YOU are doing! We care and we want to be here to support you, too! How did your physical go? Have you mustered up the courage to join a gym yet? YOU CAN DO IT!!! worththeeffort2: You are doing SO WELL with exercise!!! Glad to hear that you realize how far you have come! Hope that helps to boost your mood at least a little! Thanks for the tip on typing up a response separately and copying and pasting it to the reply link. It is SO frustrating to lose a post that I have put so much time into….. let alone five!!! MonteCristo: Your family sounds very interesting….. like mine! Never a dull moment! I hope the visit with your aunt, uncle, and grandma went well and without event. So sorry that you had such a traumatic experience with the argument between your uncle and dad last time. I hate family conflict, too! Hope your little sis had a happy 9th b-day!!! Did she get her “real” handcuffs? Well, I worked out with my trainer yesterday, but need to still work out today. I am extremely frustrated with my body and house clutter, but determined to CONQUER it….. one day at a time!!! It is a daily challenge for me. Food could be better. Still working with the doctor on getting to the correct dose of thyroid med. Weight has maintained at about 214. Can’t wait to get back into the 100’s. I CAN DO IT!!! Please, Lord, HELP ME!!! :^: |
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I am glad to be seeing my therapist tomorrow after seeing the vet for Snicks nail trim and picking up his records. I appreciate all of the kind words. Just to clarify, I think my surgeon is awesome and I have decided to have him do the next surgery. It was frustrating with being stuck a lot for an IV at my last surgery which was so upsetting. I think that the surgery has been a great help in my daily life. So I don't remember when I last told you about my 'iffy' friends, well one of them decided to be a complete @ss to me, so I am glad that I know his true feelings so I won't waste time with him. Have a good night. I hope tomorrow is better. Amy |
I had to go down to the social security office because I need a new card. It was a zoo and just as bad as going to a welfare office. I am a little grumpy today. It's raining and I got like 4 hours of sleep. The person who took me also treated me to Subway so that was nice.
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Hi all! short post today as it is a down day - just a note to let ya know where I am at - kinda sorta passed my physical, did the physical lifting and bending and walking part just fine, which I am happy about because I was worried about it. BUT when they found out I have absense (small) seizures, they said I might not qualify for training and a job. I haven't been able to afford a neurologist in years, but I booked an apt with one and I have to see if he will give me meds and a note that will let me work -
The job training place will let me take the classroom part of the training, 40 hrs a week for 5 weeks, but if I can't get the doc to sign off on me working in patient care (in the next 5 weeks) I get the boot and no certification and no job (after all that work) it's very nerve wracking. but what really tipped my day over to the sad side of the force was getting made fun of when I tried to run for a bus. Not only was I really really bad at running (couldn't even run a few steps) but people shouted at me to "run fat lady run" and then complained that I smelled when I got on (I was red and sweaty from running a block) now I know these people were jerks and that I am out of shape which is what I am working to change, but it still made me cry ...... stupid jerks I will catch up with everybody later, and I WILL work up the nerve to join the gym, just haven't done it yet (but the weeks not over yet) It's 3pm and I am just now eating lunch as those stupid bus jerks made me so ashamed of myself I couldn't eat at lunch time. love to everybody |
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Hi little turtle! Lost but still trying- :hug: I'm so sorry people were mean to you. I have been made fun of because of my weight too, it's mean. Hugs. :hug: Good luck with the neurologist. I have seen neurologists for migraines. Take care. Amy |
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