LOL great description :D pull to that music! I agree gloves would be good to protect your hands. If I had a cardio/strength machine at home I guess I would force myself to use it, but I would also need to be driven by music. I do search out vids that use bodyweight exercises for my cardio.


CONGRATS!! :cheer2: YAY you! :D

I am also optimistic, I changed my ticker 2# down, it might be water weight as I've only 'buckled down" on my eating for about 4 days...but I'll take it!! It is SO encouraging isn't it!!

HI :wave: to everyone else :)

I am cautiously optimistic that my funk might be over. I have gotten out of bed at a reasonable time and not gone back to bed for a few days in a row..and I find myself looking forward to the day, or the next day, as opposed to 'meh, whatever'.

Well I had to charge an ungodly amount of money on our credit card for only a month's supply, because we are temporarily without pharmacy coverage, but I finally got my meds and am feeling like myself again. I sure hope we get reimbursed...jeez...

Thanks, y'all, for the nice words about the kitten names. I'm pretty stressed out about the big change that will be coming up in July, when Bob and I will be parents of felines again. The house has to be absolutely squared away and spic-n-span before the wee ones arrive, and there's a WHOLE lot to do. I won't be making many collages for a while! One of the things I learned in med school that has really stuck with me over the years is that positive stressors, like new fur-kids to love, are just as hard on one's body and mind as the negative stressors we usually think of when we think about stress.

I had something happen yesterday that almost brought me to tears: all of a sudden, totally out of the blue, my beloved iPad2 has a crack in it—right down the middle, all the way from top to bottom. It doesn't alter the images very much, but it's most unsettling, because I was handling it with the same TLC I always do. I have no idea how it happened. Ever since my iPad2 arrived in the mail on April 14, 2011 (you see I remember the exact date), it's been my ever-present companion, basically surgically attached to me from dawn 'til midnight. I only use my laptop for scanning art & letters and uploading my collages: everything else, including reading books, writing the rough draft of a novel, painting portraits of our last pair of cats, learning French, and so much more, I do on the iPad2. I wouldn't even want an upgrade if someone gave it to me for free, because the subsequent iPads weigh a good bit more. So I hope this crack isn't the beginning of the end of what has been a lovely relationship...

Holly— Good job on starting to pull yourself out of your funk! "Fake it until you make it" is the attitude I embrace when I force myself to smile sometimes, just because exercising those side-of-the-mouth muscles is good for one's overall perspective. Just think about how much better things will be soon when you're doin' your fun job! And I agree: it makes a big difference when you get to change your ticker.

worththeeffort2— How great to hear that you've got yourself started on the rowing machines! And I really look forward to hearin' about that new swimsuit when it arrives, and the first time you get to use it.

Kathleen— All righty then about the 2.5 pounds!! And way to go on eating smaller portions: are you using a smaller plate than the rest of the family? I find it makes a big difference to me to use a luncheon-size plate rather than a full-size dinner plate, because then I can load up my plate and clean it entirely. Don't have a luncheon-size plate? Get a nice one, just for you: you're worth it, girl! I just ordered a small pottery dessert bowl to have my daily muesli in, to keep myself from being tempted to overindulge. Where are you going on your spring break vacation? Do tell...

MonteCristo— Great idea about going off sugar for 30 days! I think you'll find it makes a big difference in your energy levels. The last time I had any sugar was one dark chocolate bar on my birthday in late February, and I feel terrific!

projectjudi— Welcome on board the Ups & Downs thread! This is a very supportive crew: post every day if you possibly can, and you'll feel the love. I, too, am bipolar with lots more downs than ups, and I've also had problems with binge behavior. But I've been 100% binge free since last fall, thanks to a fabulous book, Kathryn Hansen's Brain Over Binge. Her website is also very useful: Kathryn posted my own story about how I've used her book in the followup to the "Tips for Beginners" section. Google "brain over binge blog" and check it out.

ohiofreespirit— It's really inspiring to read about how you're doing in school. Keep up with the great work!

1life2liv— Gosh, what a difficult decision to make about your biting dog! I hope things work out OK. I love your overall attitude, and get a lot out of reading your postings!

I hope not many of y'all are having to deal with temptations from Easter candy. Remember, if you have to indulge, it's far better to plan in advance for one dark chocolate item or the like, then take the time to savor every bite. Eating dyed hard-boiled eggs is also a way to go: healthy, and no sugar!

"fur-kids" :lol: but sorry to hear of that crack! I sure hope it doesn't progress or do damage to your CC! (Constant Companion :D ) and very glad to hear you got your meds, though at a high cost >:(

I agree what a good idea, for us to have smaller plates/bowls. I have little sherbet-type glass bowls, well they were what everyone used about 50 years ago :rolleyes: but now seem tiny, but that's what I have my yogurt, or sugar-free treat, in..and I eat that with a tiny long-handled baby spoon :D

Instead of starting a April Exercise thread so late in the month, maybe I'll just post here daily what I've done for exercise...today was a www.fitnessblender.com workouts, a Core/Cardio HIIT workout, 40 minutes. It made me sweat in a cold room so I know I worked hard :D

Until Next Time.....
 

This will be my last post until possibly the 25th, as we leave for vacation in the morning. Please keep posting and supporting each other, everyone! We have a GREAT group going here! :hug: I will so miss my pups (3 dogs), but thankfully they will be comfy in our home with a dogsitter and good friend of the family! She loves the pups, too, so all is good! :D Fi, we are going to Marco Island, Florida for Spring Break. :sunny: We have been there before, but not since the kids were little. I can't wait! My hubby really needs a break from the stress at his job. It will be fun to have some special family time. My dad has always called vacations "an investment in memories," and that is how I look at them. One of my nieces is getting married on the beach on Easter Monday, and we will be joining them at the small private ceremony. Looking forward to making new memories this year! :)

Wishing all of you a very :easter2:

that sounds wonderful!! and so glad your doggies will be happy at home with a family friend. Enjoy the sun and warmth, girlfriend! :hug:

good afternoon chicks :) I am happy to report that I am happy! OMG isn't that such a simple thing but such a huge thing. Even though I am dusty / dirty / tired (I am cleaning out a junked van that has been in our driveway for flippin years and I decided today is the day!)

This is the exercise I did this morning, plus about 6 minutes of Cathe abwork.

http://www.fitnessblender.com/v/work...ut-at-Home/fg/

Today is my FIFTH day in a row staying on plan!! whereas before I could not stay ONE day on plan. I'm on the change for good honeymoon :D

HI to everyone and say hello back :)

Hi everyone! I'm back. I got sidetracked with my posting but not with my dieting. I need to update my ticker. I am down and out of the 4s. I'm going to keep up with you guys now. No more long breaks.

:cheer2: !! That is awesome lilturtle! about being down and about being here :D

Hello ladies,

I hope this post finds you all well.


Jennifer is home for a few days for Easter, she has to go back on Sunday. I am so glad to have her here with me.


School is going pretty well. I will wait until I get my final grade to tell you what I wind up with. I am enjoying my class. My next session I have a math and business classes to tackle.

lilturtle, it is great to see you back posting again.

Holly, hi sweetie, good to see you, as well.


IBelieve, hope you had a great time on your vacation.

Fi, sorry about your i-pad.


I had a birthday back on the 7th of April, i turned 47. I did not have a good birthday this year.


Much love to all.

aw, Happy Belated!! and sorry it was not a good birthday this year, sometimes they suck, sometimes they're great. Hopefully this means 48 will be GREAT :D

Thanks for the concern about ny iPad, y'all, but I'm not sweating about it. The crack really doesn't change the images hardly at all, and it's functioning just fine.

Yesterday I felt really stessed out and overwhelmed by the disaster area that is our house. Every time I tried to focus on dealing with just one pile of stuff, I'd keep being distracted by all the other piles. And I've been feeling kind of like a plant uprooted from its comfy bed: instead of reading, writing, and making art, I have to get the house in shape before the kittens arrive in July. I've been calling this long-postponed endeavor the BERP, for Big Entropy Reduction Project. So if you hear me talking about the BERP, you'll know what I'm talking about. The whole BERP, which will take at least several weeks to complete, has to be finished before Bob and I can pitch in together to actually clean the house.

Today went much better, though, I've been steadily working on "clipping" magazines and catalogs. When I "clip" a magazine, it means I go through it page by page with scissors in hand, and clip out any images, or even just areas of pattern or color, that I may be able to use in collage. I put the clippings in low, open-topped boxes, and eventually take the boxes up to my collage room and sort the clippings into other boxes in categories like people, animals, landscapes, etc. It's a process that eats up a lot of time, but there's no other way for me to tackle the piles of paper that are choking our space, and toss 99% of it into the recycle bin. At least I get to think about collage when I'm doing it, and I like the feeling of creating order out of chaos.

Trish— It's wonderful to see you back on the thread! I missed you, girl. Major congratulations on being into the 300s: that's terrific news!

ohiofreespirit— Belated Happy Birthday! I wish you had told us earlier—'sorry to hear it wasn't a very good day.

Holly— Way to go! It sounds like you've got a real streak going of consecutive on-plan days. And it's fantastic to hear your mood has improved!

Hi all. Loving the energy right now, so upbeat.

Still no weight loss (stupid TOM), but I have 2 days of my 30 sugar free days under my belt. So far no hideous cravings, but I did have a spectacular headache yesterday, but thankfully a couple of exec drink knocked it out. I even did some long overdue yard work yesterday, mulching my leaves into the front yard (I have a weird thing about not raking feels like I am stealing nutrients from my yard). Even trotted out my blower and made everything look pretty after. Gave me a much better feeling than my usual sitting around. :)

Well, if the worst thing that happens to me all weekend is sneezing when I have a mouthful of chewed up protein bar, it should be a pretty decent weekend. Starting my new strength training routine has helped me work off two more pounds this week. Yay! I'm focusing on cardio this weekend. Still waiting for the arrival of the swimsuit in the mail. When I wear it the first time at the gym, I'm mentally bringing all of you with me for support. :D

Holly, it's so great to know you had a happy day yesterday and were feeling good. I hope it spreads throughout the weekend for everyone on the forum.

lilturtle, way to go. Keep up the fantastic work. You're doing great.

Ohio, Happy Belated Birthday. If you didn't do something special for yourself on your day, do something special for yourself today!

Fiona, just keep chipping away at the piles and don't feel discouraged. When my brain is scattered and I'm facing a project that feels overwhelming, I stop and make myself a list of even the most obvious steps that I need to take. That way, I can stay focused by referring back to the list, crossing things off, then moving on to the next task on the list. That way, when I've finished the list, I feel a sense of accomplishment.

Have an absolutely spectacular weekend, everyone!

sorry you had an overwhelmed day..and then the next day you made progress!

CONGRATS :cheer2: on 2 full days of no flippin' sugar! :) and yay for the yard work! must look really nice. I bet your lawn loves your for your leafy mulch :D

LOL at the sneezed-out protein bar :rofl: and WTG (way to go) on 2 pounds GONE!
do you have the protein bar as a meal substitute, or work it in as a snack? I tried a Clif Chocolate mint protein bar, 270 calories, so I made it my lunch, not sure if I should do that much though.

I just did this workout for my exercise today - http://www.fitnessblender.com/v/work...re-Workout/dq/ It... was...brutal! This 53 year-old had to adapt alot of the high impact moves, and the 'star jumps'?? you gotta be kiddin me :D I did my best though, and had to tissue off the sweat from running in my eyes (in a cool room, 62 degrees, with a fan on!)

I might come back later this afternoon to chat :) What a difference in my mood..all for the better!

ohiofreespirit - Happy belated. Mine was March 7th. It was a struggle for me too this year.

Thanks everyone for the support and welcome. I'm going to try and post every day even if I have nothing to say. I need to stay connected. I am reading along with everyone too. I'm going to Florida next month to visit my mom for a few weeks. I had to get two plane tickets. Talk about embarrassing. I haven't flown since I was 10 so I am kind of nervous. More so of the airport then the actual flight itself. I don't like new places and I don't know my way around. I will be alone too. I usually take the train but my mom is paying so she gets to pick my mode of transportation. We are driving back.

Tomorrow is Easter. I will be with my family here in Pennsylvania. My stepmom usually makes peanut butter egss and gives me a gallon sized ziplock bag of them. I hope she doesn't this year. I also get other candy. It's going to be hard to turn down candy. I have been eating a lot of pickles and carrots and keeping my calories under 1000 each day. Sometimes under 500. I went through a period of not wanting to eat. I have my heart set on being down 40 more lbs by the end of June when I go back to the doctor. That is about 13lbs a month. It's hard to tell if I am making any progress. But I am hanging in there.

It is a meal replacement. I'm doing a medically supervised weight loss program, so I'm in ketosis. I'm using Nutrimed bars, which are prescribed and have 15g of protein @ 160 calories. Although you need a prescription for this particular brand, a comparable bar is available through bariatricchoice.com. They are called WonderSlim meal replacement bars on that site. Look up item# WS114, if you're curious. And, yes, they are expensive but really no more so than a Clif bar and they replace other foods, so it balances out in the end.

And, yes, it was the graham protein bar that I sneezed. It stings to do that, so I recommend against it.

My doctor allows me to eat as much celery, lettuce, and cucumber as I want, so if I'm feeling really hungry, I can have a protein bar AND a rather dull salad of lettuce, celery, and cucumber with fat-free dressing. I usually just sprinkle it with red wine vinegar and some salt and pepper. The salad provides bulk and something to chew. The protein provides something that is filling and takes time to digest. Since I eat every three hours between 6 a.m. and 6 p.m., I don't typically get physically hungry on the program. The challenge is the psychological "hunger" but I'm using Fiona's favorite book, Brain over Binge to change my habits.

Well, my lunch break is done. I just finished 30 minutes on the elliptical. For the first time since buying the stupid machine, I did 30 minutes straight without having to get off for a break every 10 to 15 minutes. Plus, I upped the level of the workout two notches. Endorphin high! :dizzy:

Hi ladies,

I turned in my big project for my class today, it wasn't due until next week but I had it done so figured might as well turn it in. Pretty much done with my class.:cp: On May 5th, I have 2 classes to take. :(


I hope you all are well. I will check back in again soon. Until then, much love to all.

worththeeffort2 - I am going to look into trying some of those protien bars. I have not been eating healthy. Thanks for the tip.

Hi there!

I'm sorry I haven't posted for awhile, I am about to move and I have been busy!!

I miss all of you! How are all of you? How are you Holly and Ohiofreespirit?

I'm currently in NYC visiting family for Easter and I am having an awesome time! Today my Mom and I saw a Broadway play called A Gentleman's Guide to Love and Murder. It was wonderful, so engaging and funny. Tonight I am having dinner with my Dad and his wife, and my brother. I love NYC, and I saw a friend for lunch today, that was a lot of fun. I leave on Monday to go back to PA.

I got my hair colored and cut on Thursday, I really love how it came out! I had been looking for a new stylist and I found a great one! When I look good, I feel great!

I'm actually considering going to school for cosmetology, I think I would really enjoy that!

I just started working with a new therapist, he is very nice.

Take care and Happy Easter!!!

Amy ;)

Thanks for the warm welcome.
Fi I checked out the site you recommended and am trying to track down the book in Canada.
What you wrote on the site was very well articulated and made me really want to get it ASAP

I hate myself so much today! My mood is so low and I am totally disgusted with myself.
I have gone 5 months without binging and since Tuesday have done nothing but eat. I feel like **** physically and mentally. I was doing so well. I can't believe what a loser I am.
I'm so all or nothing and obsessive. I really thought that when I started eating healthy after all the years of starving myself that the binge eating would stop. Wrong! Have been in tears since this started but does that stop me?? What is wrong with me?
I went to the book store today looking for Brain over Binge but they don't have it and can't order it in Canada. Bought 3 books on EDs but am not in the right mental state to read them.
Sorry for being so negative. Not trying to bring anyone down...just needed to vent

I'm rockin' my 60s and like you, we don't have children either, or at least the 2 legged kind! We have two small terriers; the female is 5 lbs and the male is about 8. THEN, we have a big male cat that just towers over the two dogs. He was orphaned and we adopted him when he was just 6 wks old. He doesn't understand that he's not a dog, so the three of them run in a pack from one french door to another chasing the squirrels that tease them on the patio.

Congratulations on the birth of your "babies." People who don't have pets don't know what they're missing; they make a house a home.

Or as Will Rogers said, "If there are no dogs in Heaven, then when I die I want to go where they went."

lilturtle:

I can understand being nervous about a plane trip. It seems things are so complicated today! My Honey and I travel quite a bit, so maybe these tips will help. You can check out the layout of the airport by going to the airport website. Then you can determine where you check in and what gate you'll be departing from. You might find it easier to do a curbside check in. That way your luggage will be taken care of and you can go directly to security and then to your gate. If your departure gate is a trek from security, call a few days ahead and arrange for transportation from check in to your gate. It'll make things easier for you. Check the airport website to determine if you have to remove your shoes as you go through security and wear easy-on, easy-off footwear if you have to remove your shoes. Try to think of this as an adventure and enjoy the departure from your regular daily routine. And don't forget to pack a few snacks in your carry-on bag. And gum! You'll want chewing gum to prepare your ears for the change in altitude as you land.

So relax and enjoy. You've prepared and now, you're ready for an adventure!

You are not a loser - if you were you wouldnt be on this site. You'd be sittin' on your couch, snacks all around, and chowing down. We're all in the same boat and we have to realize that not all days are going to be sunny and fluffy. Take it a day at a time and breathe............IT WILL GET BETTER!

Oh, I am so sorry you are going through this :( Five months without a binge was spectacular!! and still is!! Please hang in there..and don't apologize for being negative, come here to vent and try to feel better :carrot:

So good to hear from Seabiscuit!

Hi Chubbie Chick and :welcome:!

My exercise this morning was Jillian Michael's No More Trouble Zones, boy it was hard!! I wanted to quit after 20 minutes but I stuck to it and did it all :cheer2:

Judi: I'm sorry you're feeling so down. I've been where you are; we've probably all been where you are. It is hard to be a Type-A, all-or-nothing, obsessive personality because it leads to a lot of negative self-talk when you don't meet your own expectations.

You're not a loser. You're human. We're all just human. Each tick of the clock is a chance to start fresh. You don't need to "wait until..." to start over; you just need to start again. Acknowledge that you didn't make good choices, then let it go. Don't keep beating yourself up because it only makes you feel worse and that low mood will help fuel your desire to binge in order to make yourself feel better.

If you have an e-Reader--like a Kindle or Nook--you can get Brain Over Binge that way. You can order it on Amazon. Or, hit up your local library on Monday and request the book through Interlibrary loan. Another resource that has helped me is Pema Chödrön's Don't Bite the Hook, on CD. I've listened to that CD hundreds of times and each time I start to slip back into self-punishment, I put it in the car CD player and listen to it on my commute to work. It will help you learn why beating yourself up is counter productive and provide suggestions for alternative thoughts to follow when you start to slip. Bonus: you can listen to it even when you're not in the mood to read anything.

Hang in there. We all need to vent. That's what the forums are for. Deep breaths. This moment is the perfect time to start new.

You are not a loser. :hug: 5 months is awesome. So you had a little slip, but I bet you are going get right back up and continue eating healthy. We all have slip ups.

I was going through some old photos for an online friend who wants to know what I look like, so I thought I'd show you what I look like as an adult. I'm very averse to cameras, so I don't have much. This one was when I was close to my current weight, somewhere in the 280s, I think. This one was when I had starved myself down to 230 in 2001. My eyes are sort of a slatey-blue with a darker blue ring around the iris. And I can't resist showing you my favorite photo of Bob (isn't he a cutie?), taken in the 1980s. Like most men (what is it with them?), he's barely aged a bit, except that his beard is now mostly white and his long hair shot through with lots of silver. My own hair is usually shorter than his, but always long enough to be down over my shoulders. It has a few dozen white hairs in it, but no one can ever see them, no matter how hard I try to point them out, because I have so many shades of blonde mixed together, they just look like the blonder hairs. (By the way, not a drop of peroxide or the equivalent has ever been near my hair. I have a thing about being a natural blonde, even if that blonde gets rather dark when I haven't had it in the sun for a while. My genetics are Scandinavian...)

Now come on, y'all: share some photos! Or at least describe what you look like....

I'm doing well, taking time off from the BERP today for some collage work.

worththeeffort2, that was some very great words of wisdom and then advice (recommended reading) for projectjudi!

Fi, how nice to have the pics of you! I knew you didn't look like Else Lancaster! You do have beautiful hair! I am NOT a natural blonde :o I have medium brown hair but have enjoyed highlights and then alot more highlights in the past 6 years or so.

If I get these in the right order, they will be - from August 2012, when I had to speak in front of about 700 bikers, gathered at the Statehouse, for our annual Toy Run; then last year, feeding the fire in our redneck fire pit :D ; then me on the road, maybe 3 or 4 years ago .

Hey everyone,

I took my daughter back to college today after Easter dinner. It is a 4 hour round trip, I am tired. She comes home for the summer, in 2 weeks. I am excited.

My first class is over, as I said, my second and third class is math and a business class. My Major is Multimedia Design and Development. I will be able to do web design, graphic design, 3D graphics and many more things.

I'm really sorry some of you are struggling. I wish I could help somehow. Just hang in there, please, things will get better. I know they will.


Much love to all, you are in my prayers.

Pictures
 

The first photo is me at 292 pounds on Nov. 1, 2013. The second photo is me after losing 60 pounds, April 1, 2014. The journey continues.

Here's a few picture of me....first one is at my lowest adult weight (155) in 20010. Second is last Christmas (2012) at about 220. I'm on the far left, and those are two of my sisters, my dad and my uncle. The last one is recent, from just a month or so ago, though I cheated and didn't do full body. :)

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I have no idea why some of them are so gigantic...sorry.

Also, the scale finally moved!! Not only did I lose the 3lbs I gained at the beginning of TOM, but another 0.5lbs went too! So excited!! And 4/40 days sugar free completed. :D

You ladies look great in your pics, so pretty. Keep up the good work. Here I am yesterday at Easter with my daughter and my mom. I look really bad, no makeup on but I will post it anyway.


How is everyone today? I am off work. I really need a day off. As I said, I took my daughter back to school yesterday. She will be home in 2 weeks for the summer.


I am currently at 255 and seem to be stuck there. bleh My moods are good but I am under a lot of stress. I am doing my best to stay positive and upbeat. My meds are really helping.

I hope you all have a great day and I will check back in soon.

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I'm pushing hard on the BERP (Big Entropy Reduction Project) today, clip-clip-clipping away through stacks of magazines & catalogs. This is going to be my life for quite a few weeks to come—maybe I should call it the Huge, or the Ginormous, Entropy Reduction Project!—but I'm settling into the rhythm of it. I listen to rock-n-roll, of course, and at least while I'm clipping, I'm sitting down, so my back doesn't hurt. My right shoulder is complaining some from all the scissors work, but yesterday's break seems to have allowed the muscles to recover & strengthen. I may end up looking rather lopsided by the time this is over! =laugh=

Today was my weigh-in: since I bumped up to 286 in March, today's 282 is a loss of 4 lbs. for the month. That may not seem like much to show for all my low-carb days, but I cheated a few times by overdoing it with the muesli. Atkins works well when you stick to it, but when you add additional carbs, it comes to a screeching halt. I know this from experience. There's nothing to be done for it but to stick to my guns about having only 1/4 cup of muesli a day. It would be so much easier if I could just drop the muesli entirely, but I've tried that twice, and both times I developed bad depression pain. =sigh= So I'm having to learn moderation, which is much harder to master than abstaining entirely. At least I got to change my ticker.

But you know what? I hate to admit it here, but weight loss is not even close to being my #1 priority. Maintaining an even keel, mood-wise, is always #1—since I become totally useless when depressed or manic—and now the kittens are a strong #2. They won't have room to run and play in a house choked with paper, so...there you go...I got a new batch of pictures from the breeder, too, who says they're "growing like weeds and opening their eyes." All I have to do is think of those cute little orange fur-balls, and my focus on the BERP is laser-sharp.

Thanks so much for postin' pictures, y'all! 'Love that red hair, ohiofreespirit: do you have green eyes to go with it? Your family looks Irish. MonteCristo, wow, you're a babe! 'Love your eyebrows...and your hats! worththeeffort2, you're lookin' gooooood, girl! Congrats on losin' those 60 lbs. I suppose if I had a picture of me at 351...oh never mind, it would've been too hideous to post: just a huge round face on top of black, black, & more black. And Holly...oh man, you were born to be wild! I'm so glad to get to see you on your wheels, and I love your look, with the basic black (or white) over well-broken-in jeans. Classic, totally classic. Pretty face and nice waistline, too! I hope our fearless leader, Kathleen, will show us her smiling face, when she gets back from vacation.

projectjudi— I've thinkin' about you and wishin' you well. Did you check out the Brain over Binge blog? Lots of good info there: start with "Tips for Beginners."

Happy Earth Day, everyone! I've been celebrating it ever since the very first one, in 1970, when I was a silly-billy teenybopper.

seabiscuit - I am from PA too. Where abouts are you? I'm in Harrisburg.

Judi - Hang in there. You are not a loser.

I am camera shy so I'll have to dig around for pictures or post one of the awful selfies. I just hate having my picture taken.

I am thinking of doing Wonderslim in June. I will be away most of May. I'm not sure I can afford it. I am still doing research. I need to do something more healthy then what I am doing now. I'm not getting enough protien most days.

Hi All,

Sorry to have been away most of the month, I have been following. I have been having really bad depression problems so it is all I can do to manage the necessities; getting up in the morning, making it through work, taking care of the critters. How great to see everyones faces! I will see if I can find a picture somewhere around, we don't take a lot. Anyway, not a lot to say just wanted to check in.

Chelsea

I've been away from this forum for a while, my weight has gone up and I don't seem to be able to stop it...I feel awful even though I do a lot of exercise, I can't stop eating. I'm hoping posting on here again will help :(. Hope everyone's doing ok!

Thanks for all the encouragement and recommendations everyone!
So far today I am eating healthy. Praying I can keep it up. So sick of feeling so sluggish and ashamed.
Fi I did check out that website and you did an amazing job on the introduction. I am having difficulty getting the book in Canada. I don't have an e reader and that seems to be the only way I can get it. May have to take a trip across the border.
Worth the effort I will definately check out that Cd. Sometimes I really struggle with concentrating enough to read so this would be a bonus.
Thanks all for listening to me and supporting me. It means the world to me
hugs
Judi

Hi there...

Lil turtle - I'm in Bucks, moving to Philly in June. I'm not sure if I've ever been to Harrisburg.

I got back from my trip last night, I'm tired and my mom and I got into a huge fight, she never apologizes. I try to repair things when they go wrong but she is very difficult at times.

I'm thinking of rejoining WW, but the idea of getting on the scale scares me a bit, any ideas?

Thanks.