hey everyone..i feel like i need to say this to someone so here it goes...Last night i binged...i got in the car..went to a store..bought a donuts and a pint of ice cream..ate the donut and half the pint in the car..drove to burger king..ate a ginger bread sundee...drove to wendys and bought a cheeseburger a small fry and a frosty went home & ate it and before doing all that I ate three regular meals at home & 4 pieces of bread with honey..three gramcrackers...& believe it or not this is a small binge for me i hate myself for doing stuff like that...before starting this journey i NEVER did stuff like that..i dont know what comes over me...i feel this morning again that i want to just pig out...im not happy..i feel crazy. For a while now i been binging..then eating right...My stats are lying..i let the 160s fall out of my grip but i haven't changed it i keep on going between 171-176...171 when im eating right & then slip again....176 when i binge. I try to just think to myself.. well Amy you've at least kept off 58 pounds dont be so sad & bad on your self. I never thought that losing weight would make me feel so freakin out of control with food and start this binge habit..that no one knows about. I hide it. I started this journey at 21 im 22 & a half now and ive been binging off and on for a year now. Why cant i stop? I didn't do it for 21 years...im so sad. I don't know where im going with this..i think i just need to say what i did last night and that if anyone else is like me.. that they aren't alone...

Hello Amy,

Ive had a couple of binge lapses during my journey, and I found that its not that I was hungry or that " I really wanted to eat something", but it was rather the fact that " something was really eating me".

It took some time, but I started dealing with the reasons why I was feeling so bad and why I wanted to ignore all of the situation and run towards the food.

The truth is, you arent hiding your binge habit. You are only hiding the cause of it from yourself. feeling guilty about the binge and the foods you ate to the point that you are able to forget about what's causing you to respond to a stressful issue in your life in such a manner.


I hope you all the best

Jonah

Maybe keep a diary of your feelings and what's going on. You may see a pattern or something that is triggering you to binge. Good luck!

Hmmm... i dont know.. since you never had the problem for the first 21 years of your life, im willing to bet that your binging is a result of your calorie restriction.... The majority of all eating disorders are born because we started restricting our food at some point..... your subconcious has taken over and forced you to binge.
its your bodies survival response to the stress youre putting it under, and being "starved" (as your body perceives fat loss to be)
perhaps at some point you took your calories too low....?
and now, youve binged so many times, its becoming habit, and instinctive.. a powerful urge...

Maybe you should tak a diet break, and eat at maintenance for a while. focus on NOT GAINING and not binging... if youre getting enough food throughout the day (your maintenance cals) you might be able to conquer this awful urge thats taken control of you

Mkroyer i think you are exactly right when i first started i would eat 700-1000 a day right now im at like 1200-1300 with exercise...but thank you bc what you said just really opened my eyes...i dont like my weight at all right now but maybe for my mental health i do need to just maintain for a while and focuse on not binging...ty everyone.

If you are exercising you could also bump your calories up to say 1500 or so and still loose also make sure you are eating the right kinds of foods because if your still eating bad foods within your calorie limits you wont be eating enough and never feel satisfied you can eat a lot more depending what you choose to eat. Just a idea don't know what your diet is like.

And I'd suggest not over exercising because that will just make you really hungry. Least it does for me.

oh and also we've all been there don't beat yourself up over it and just carry on with your diet and take it as a sign maybe something needs tweaking in your diet or exercise plan but you can take care of that and get better and better at this with less and less binges.

Do the holidays get you to emotional eating? Maybe you don't realise something you're repressing and food helps feed the repressing? Just a thought? I know this is a rough time of year for a lot of people. I hope you're feeling better today.

This is really a difficult time for anyone who is fighting with depression let alone with weight loss issues as well. Sometimes we just need to let ourselves be, at least for a moment.

PrincessAmy-- youre welcome :0
Ive recently realized that i dont believe i binge to "cope" with emotional or past stressors. I never binged in my younger years (at least not destructively). I binge becuase i want FOOD. My body wants FOOD. Even when im feeding it enough i still have the urge because a habit has been established. Ive recently changed my eating patterns to include a few more calories, carbs at every meal (brown rice, sweet potatos, etc) and im eating every 3 or so hours.. your basic body building diet. it has helped TREMENDOUSLY the past month with binging urges.. i havent binged once. i Have eaten off plan, but i haven't binged.. im also not really losing any weight. but thats ok, because i feel less out of control, and less hopeless than i did before.

Im definitely worried thats once i go back into a more severe calorie restriction, that the urges will reappear.

But my undereating and over-exercising were so hard on my body, im paying for it now.