Thanks for the support!

I am feeling better tonight. Even at church this morning I was feeling bad, but afterwards I said "Why not" and I took my girls out for lunch and we went to the grocery store together for fun (ages 2 & 9). I don't do stuff like that to relax enough and decided I wouldn't have a timetable or push today. Walked for a mile later, I think the sun helped.

I have made (temporary) peace inside myself about my parents and that was a big step. They have their own lives to live (or not) and I have mine to screw up; I'm not responsible for them. And I stepped back a bit from the volunteer work I do instead of taking on more responsibility like I had planned. Not worth it!

Lona, my husband finally figured out that my problems did indeed affect him and the sooner he tried to help or listen, the better his life would be. So now he tries.

Oh April, I'm sorry you are feeling so low. I hope you can get a nice long hot bath or shower and get comfy with a book or TV. Something YOU like. Get more sleep sleep sleep, and stop thinking. I hope you are feeling better soon, maybe Tues will help.

Hang in there April
 

You are gonna to have to just ride it out....let us know how your appointment goes....I have days like that too, more so years ago and I have just learned when they hit I have to get through them and wait for the sun to come out...it always does.....hang in there and keep in touch!

Liz

Marleah you are not alone. I have a family, too, that has many problems. I lost my only sibling to suicide four years ago. I'm now dealing with sickly, elderly parents. My family has not been emotionally right for years. They have now found out that depression has genetic links. There is counseling and medication out there. I agree with all the above people get a doctor's appointment as soon as possible.

You have to care about yourself first, you are important.

I had been really down for a while too. Did a search on depression, PMS, etc. and came across a herb called 5htp. I thought it sounded to good to be true, so I researched & researched it and never found anything bad on it just all really good stuff! So I went to the vitamin/herb store and I honestly can say it IS & DOES EVERYTHING it claimed! Basically in a nut shell it raises the serotonin levels in your brain in a non chemical way. Its fantastic! The only 'bad' side effect I could find was nausea, but I've never had it. I can take it on an empty stomach & have not once felt naseaus. All I can say is I highly reccommend it! Run a search on it... you'll see!

Hmmm..it sound's like there is lots of depression around here so i am not alone :lol: don't mean to make light of it but sometimes it's the only thing to do..i get very weepy at christmas time mainly due to the fact that all my family live in England :( although i talk to them on the phone it will never take the place of being able to hug them :cry: i've lived in Canada for the past eight and a half years and the only person i've got here is my hubby..he is alway's working or doing something with his friends so i spend a lot of time alone :( no matter how i try i cannot make him understand that he is all i've got here and the only reason i've got to stay..he is the only person i talk to (if i am talking to him) when i get up of a morning..the only other human contact i have is with the checkout girl when i go shopping :cry: i sometimes retreat into my shell when i'm depressed and refuse to talk or cook for him for day's..i hate that..hormone's have a lot to answer for :mad: anyway, in a nutshell you don't have to suffer in silence..i went to the doctor's 18mths ago about another matter and while i was talking to him i burst out crying :rolleyes: he was very understanding and put me on a 6wk course of Paxil..i did'nt complete the course it gave me severe headaches and i did'nt like the "out of it" feeling but since then i've tried other over the counter remedies and i'm feeling much better due to 5HTP..St John's Wort did'nt help or Valerian or Kava-Kava but this is...please get some help if not for your sake for your children's :D

P.S. me and babewannabe have not got shares in this product we've just both found something that works for us (grin)

Cat90.....In a way....I am in your situation. DH & I moved out west in 1971 with one son. Since then we had 2 more sons. I have no one here but DH & DS3. Two of our sons live out of town....one in Victoria & one in Port Coquitlam. We have never gone to see my birth family at Christmas. Most Christmasses have not been good since we moved here. I talk to some of my family on the phone.....but it's not the same as being there. They all visit each other over the holidays. I just don't have that here.

You say that you just have your DH there where you live....do you work....or are you at home? Maybe it would help to join something to meet people. I did that & made friends. I still see some of those people. We meet for coffee every week.

I find it real hard at times....this thing about seeing people. It seems friends come & go. They are never like family. I come from from a large French Canadian family. They are all really close knit. Maybe it is because there are 6 females & only one male. The girls are really close. It's the closeness that I miss. It has never been like that here.

I am sure part of the reason for my depression is that I don't have any of my birth family here.

Hang in there. I find it helps to come to this thread & get my feelings out. So come back often.

April

Hi April...thanks for the support :D I don't work..have never been able to find any apart from cleaning and i don't want to do that..I would love a part time job just to get out of the house and to meet other people but i don't think that is going to happen i don't even get a reply to any of the applications i send out :( we are quite isolated we live on a 10 acre parcel so the only company i have are the deer's and rabbit's :lol: my only 'friends' are the ones i have online and i am so grateful to be able to come here and chat with you all. :wave: