I know this is going to sound really, really bad, but I have to unload, so here goes..

Like most of you on this thread, I have "issues" with my weight - it depresses me everytime I go to get dressed. Yet, I can't seem to get seriously motivated to get rid of it. Anyway, that's not the bad part here's how my day went a couple of days ago..

I called a place where I use to work and a friend answered the phone - this friend has always been heavier than me - always - well, I haven't seen her in a bit and she proceeds to tell me how she's had a breast reduction and this has motivated her to lose weight, she's lost about 20lbs. On the outside I was thrilled for her but man, on the inside, I felt like crap since I had recently re-gained about 15 lost pounds. Then I had to stop by the same business a little later in the day to meet with someone else- honestly, I was hoping not to run in to her, there she was when I walked in I waved and acted like everything was great - told her I had to go meet with so and so but to stop in to so and so's office. OK - so I'm thinking well at least that's over. Then I'm sitting in this other person's office, visiting and she say's, "boy have you seen all the weight that Jane lost?" "yes," I said, "She looks great." Then she says, "Have you seen Sally, she's lost quite a bit too, and so has Susy." Well, eventually I left the office feeling like crap. Then, and this is no lie, I went to a Christmas party and the wife of one of my coworkers was there and she had also recently lost about 15lbs. O MY GOD!!! IS EVERYONE IN THE UNIVERSE LOSING WEIGHT BUT ME???? I felt liking taking my big body and crawling under a rock.

I know I sound like an ultra BIT**. I mean on the one hand I want everyone to notice when I finally get off my butt and lose weight and yet I can't be genuinally thrilled for these people. Is that the pits or what? All this weight loss for others seems to coming at a time that I feel more depressed than ever.

The good news is that most of the people (except 1) that I talked to, lost weight via weight watchers and have sold me on it. I was fairly depressed for about a day, but now I've committed myself to weight watchers. I'm going to sign up after the holidays.

Has anyone else been there - you know - when you should feel happy for someone elses success but your jealousy just seems to keep getting in the way?

I know exactly what you are talking about. I have always been the type of person that could eat anything I wanted and only weighed 125 lbs. Well, I had a baby 2 years ago, and gained 20 lbs, no big deal, then about a year and 1/2 ago, I started working 40 hours a week, and have gained 60 lbs in a year. I can't eat anything without gaining 10 lbs. I weigh 200 lbs and I am devestated. I have tried every diet in the book, but can't really afford the $15 a week to go to WW, although, everyone tells me it works.

Well, a few weeks ago I ran into a hugh school friend who always has weighed more than me, always. She has been walking every day and lost 30 lbs. I was happy for her, but in the same breath I wanted to scream and cry because I was insanely jealous!

It is hard to feel other people's joy when we are feeling so sad inside and out....I think that is very insensitive of people to go on and on like that....they could talk about something a little deeper than who is losing etc.

I think if people were honest they would have to admit that it is hard to be happy about others weight loss and achievements when we are kicking ourselves left right and center.

It is not about them but it is about us and I think we all know that.

It is a tough one for sure!

Eliz

Yes ladies your not alone, we've all been there.

A good friend of mine (who I've known since I was 10 years old) wants to meet and spend the day together. I have been avoiding meeting her cause I've gained SOOOOOOOOO much weight lately. Sad huh.

I have to say, I am not jealous ANYMORE when people lose weight, I am very happy for people because I've been there one to many times. However, it does upset me so that I can't get my diet started and the more I think about it the more I gain, I get so incrediably mad at myself.

Just remember this, ANY diet will work if you stick with it. What we really need to do is change our way of eating for good. Good luck all !!

Love, Leenie