Taking a break
So it's been a while that I've been feeling the way I'm feeling, but I guess I just haven't admitted it. I am very depressed (again) and I'm having some anxiety issues this time around too. I'm to the point where I can no longer cope with...well, pretty much anything. I don't want to get out of bed in the morning, I don't care about anything, I can't focus on the stuff I need to do. I feel like I'm adding to much pressure on to myself right now by participating in challenges and pushing myself to lose weight. I'm going to take a break from actively pursuing weight loss, but I'm not going to use it as an excuse to gain weight again. I just feel like there's so much stuff that I can't handle right now, I really shouldn't add more. I am going to the doctor next week to see about getting on meds again for depression, and possibly even something for anxiety (but I don't know if they do that, this is really my first experience with anxiety other than 2 panic attacks years ago). Anyway, I'm at least happy that I've realized that I need help, and realized what I'm dealing with. I hope to see everyone again soon, when I am a happier, mentally-healthier me.
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