February Chick Chat - 2010
 

WOW its February, these months are surely sneaking up on me fast.

How is everyone?

I'm ok... work is crazy and will be for a few years, we have to "shine" and hold our own or we're out !! lol Can't complain tho, things are really good !!

life just sucks sometimes....i wish I wanted to take my meds.

Momof4, :nono: go take your meds! It can only make things better. :hug:

Sleet/snow is falling here. Tomorrow will be day 3 of 6am shifts. After work I have a test, that is if they don't close the college. Eating and working out is going ok. Gotta get to bed.

i know that they will help but im in that why even bother who cares curl up and die funk....(not suicidal).....just blah there is so much going on and I am just trying to make it thru...not trying to be a super woman just barely trying to keep my head above water and get thru!!

Go take your meds anyway. I get like that too, and it only makes things worse if I actually stop them.

Tuffy's appetite was good this morning. She is too weak to walk, so we take her to the litterbox and bring her food and water. Hubby didn't want to take her to the vet again, at first, because we've already spent over $600, and she seemed like she wasn't going to last much longer. But since she's getting stronger now, if she makes it till Friday we'll take her back and get her on anti-seizure meds. She has not had a seizure since Sunday. Since the vet thinks she might have a brain tumor, hubby could be right about her time being near.

LBF-- I am sorry to hear about your cat . I had to put a cat to sleep a few years ago due to Cancer. I spent a small fortune on her with 2 Cancer surgeries. I miss her dearly , but the day after she was put to sleep my mom's co-worker found an adorable kitten hiding underneath her car leaving for a lunch break . That cat , Darby , has been a member of the family now .

hi everyone, I see we continued on the Jan. thread for a couple days into Feb. :)
:hug: momof4!!!

and yay for Tuffy for hanging in there.

I hope everyone is doing as well as they can be. The days are getting lighter earlier and staying lighter longer, that is always a wonderful thing.

yeah i have sooo much going on I didnt realize it was Feb.....

getting ready to leave for the weekened!!

I had to put my Dear Pet Felix to sleep in December. I think that added to my Holiday eating! I'm doing better now & ready to get the weight off!

Hang in ther momoF4!

Tuffy's still hanging on. Sorry to hear about Darby's predecessor, and Felix.

llmw -- sorry to hear about your kitty -- I have a 13 year old mixed Shepherd /Retriever who is my absolute buddy -- I hate the fact that he is getting older and older ... I do walk him for 3 blocks every morning and I think that is helping him ---

ahh and stress does lead to extra eating .... well it does for me --
when I am calmer , I don't eat as much but when my real job is stressful , ALL I WANT to do is EAT !! ugh

Tuffy goes to the vet tomorrow morning. Will keep everyone posted.

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Hi Ladies, hope everyone is doing ok. Been really busy here at work, new boss, new rules, new company.. but I'm blessed, i still have my job. Thats about it for me.

Love yah !!

Leenie

Just back from the vet. Good news!! Tuffy does NOT have a brain tumor. She has extremely high blood pressure, which could explain everything, and which is far more easily treatable.

:getwell: Tuffy! Sounds like she may be on the road to recovery now that you know the real problem. I'm so glad for you Lovebirds.

I was off today and watched it snow for hours. Unfortunately it is now raining/sleeting instead. It's supposed to go back to snow during the day tomorrow while I'm at work. The rain is keeping us from getting completely buried I guess.

Not much news here. I made an A on my anatomy test. Yay. I have still been eating well and exercising. I'm so astonished and grateful for this I can't tell you. I don't know why I'm sticking to things now but I'm not complaining. Gonna get to bed now since I have to get up so early.

Hope you all have a great weekend.

Congratulations on your A, hope. :cheer:

This was the third vet we took Tuffy to, and the first one to think of checking her blood pressure. Granted it's a little more involved than checking a human's bp, since it involves shaving the base of the tail, and the cuff wraps around that. But still... here they were, talking "brain tumor," when all she needed was blood pressure meds. For cats, they like the top number to be under 160, and Tuffy was around 280. So it really was very high. She's doing very well tonight.

Which means I can start going to the Y again on Monday. Weekends belong to hubby. :D

OK, where is everybody?

Anybody have any plans for superbowl? Indulging or eating healthy? I plan to go the healthier route. I'm making some grilled chicken strips, some buffalo, some teriyaki basted, a lite spinach-artichoke dip, chips and salsa, and shrimp cocktail. That's what I came up with. I unfortunately have to make brownies for a bake sale on Monday at work but I think I can stay away from them.

I'm here :D Congrats on your "A"!! and yay to Ms. Tuffy! :carrot:

I'll be pooped after work (get home at 6:30 or so) so I don't know if I'll take friend's invite up about a Superbowl party. I would like DH to go and have fun but he doesn't know how to have fun without me :shrug: I don't care much about football but I like the commercials and I like getting together with friends.

I haven't spent a day off in bed for a couple weeks, that is good for me for February. I like the feeling that I am kicking Depression in it's big butt :devil:

:hug: and :wave: to everyone.

Morning Ladies... :wave:

I haven't had a chance to read anyone's post yet this morning. I will read them later and catch up.

The last couple of days were kinda bad. I completely went off plan and stopped exercising.. and I gain 4 of the 8 lbs I had lost back. My mood was completely shot.. I felt like I was being pulled in 5 different directions.. Between son, step-mother, boyfriend, best friend, and the friend from school that I have been helping lately... I haven't been there for my son like I should be and always was have been for the last two weeks... My step-mother has been home for two weeks now and I even though I said I should be the bigger person and deal with her.. I simply can't stand to look at her or be around her. As of this morning... I know I have to just deal with it.. and go see my son and spend more than 15 minutes with him. I'm just really hoping that she will go back to work and soon. For two weeks now.. its like I am never home or never alone. before that I would go days on end with being home alone and just having me time.. I got into that role.. and at times it was lonely but that is what I was use to.. But now I feel like I use to when everything was all messed up and I was screwing up. I've come up with the fact that I have to talk to my best friend and my friend from school and tell them that I need to set days for myself and days that I spend time with them. Otherwise I am going to go insane.. I feel like my whole body is completely off schedule.. and I need that schedule back.. Then there is the boyfriend. We live 800+ miles away from each other and right now all we can do is talk on the phone and for the last two weeks we have barely been doing that. I am always with my best friend and friend from school and he doesn't like to talk to me when I am with them because I just don't talk. So he is aggravated with me and I feel really crappy about it cause I am just not there. we normally talk two or three times a day and the past two weeks its like we don't talk at all.. and its really starting to get to me... I have been completely depressed the last few days because of everything... I just have to get myself back on track and fast...

Starting today as day 1 of my watching everything again and then going from there... sorry about the rant.. I just needed to get a little of this out..

Have to get ready for class. Have a good Monday...

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Purefire, you come here to unload whenever you need to. I agree you need to tell your friends that you need "YOU" time! We don't want you to go insane :devil: but you really sound at the end of your rope :hug: You need those alone times, and then you need the time to freely talk to BF on the phone without anyone else around.

now with me, why don't I learn not to make statements like 'I am kicking depression's butt' because the day after I feel like I :foot: nothing too bad just one thing I do is play up possible situations and get all angry , when there isn't even anything really happening. But by then I've put myself in a terrible black mood. I think I really just need the days to be brighter and longer, meaning come on Spring.

snow snow snow snow.......

It is really snowy here in Chitown too --- I went to the gym tonight and actually it was kind of pretty looking out the window while hustling on the treadmill --

Well i stretched them out as long as I could but I've been off my meds since sunday. we have less then 0 in the bank. I'm in such a bad mood I'm ready to snap and tell my boss to shove it up his arse. And I've only been here 20 minutes. Unfortunately my bum of a husband is still out of work so I don't have much of a choice but to keep working at the place that hasn't given me a raise in 3 years. No, that's right, nothing has ever gone up in price over the last 3 years.. I'm doing just freaking fine. some yahoo shut the door to my office even though I've been leaving it open, it's now about 30°c in here (I'm Canadian, that's hot). My lovely new office that has no natural sun and a window with broken blinds that faces a hallway so people can stare atme as they go by. people say "You're lucky you still have a job" I beg to differ, i hate this gong show.

People kept making illegale left turns in front of me on the way in and I almost hit one, why are some people so freaking ignorant????

Best wishes, Aunty Jam. I hope it works out well for you.

Aunty Jam, you are having a terrible day :( I'm so sorry you are out of your meds and the money situation. And 86F is HOT for an indoor room!
:hug: to you and everyone else who is not doing good.
Mrs. Brady, how is Tuffy?

WOW aunty jam-I can just imagine...You totally sound like me when I go off... I totally understand the money issues...with having tons of kids and only one income you have to make things stretch..I hope something works out for you! Let us know how tomorrow goes...even if its not so great let us know!!

Doing wonderfully, thank you. Her meds seem to be doing the trick. She struggles at medication time--she cannot be made to swallow a pill. I dissolve it in a few drops of water, inside a feeding syringe, and hurriedly squirt it down her throat. She resists but cooperates, and frankly I'm glad she resists. It means she's got some kick left in her.

We no longer have to carry her to her litterbox, or bring her food and water to her. At feeding time, she's right there with the other two cats, waiting.

I researched feline hypertension and found that one of the symptoms is sudden blindness. Tuffy did go blind. I read that when the blood pressure is treated, the cats can get at least some of their sight back, and Tuffy is definitely seeing now.

Thank God.

And :thanks: for asking.

Hurray For Tuffy!!!!! I am so very happy for you both! Fang, my siamese was 16 or 17. Those were some of the best days, enjoy Tuffy and give her a pat for me!!

Recent estimates say Tuffy's around 12.

I'll definitely give her a snuggle.

And I will pet Tiger and Alex too, since they have been very cooperative. They've given Tuffy either space or affection, depending on what she needed at the moment, and they never once complained about us not giving them attention while Tuffy needed more of it.

Alex (age 3, neutered male, tuxedo coloring similar to "Socks" the Clinton cat) may feel privileged now that he is the only cat allowed outdoors at all. Tiger (age 9, spayed female, full name Tigerlily, a fat "Mrs. Garfield" orange tabby) is not; she gets lost and can't find her way home. And of course Tuffy isn't quite healthy enough....

I'm glad Tuffy is better. I'm more of a dog person by nature but I don't mind cats. Our youngest dog was horribly sick when he was very young and we almost lost him a few times, the helpless feeling was just horrible.

I'm all over the map today and it's very tiring. I'm honestly not sure how I really am I have so many conflicting emotions. I get the urge to do the stupidest things that are totally NOT office appropriate. I'm going out of my head, my mind is racing and I'm trying to convince myself it's not a real big deal so I don't over react but is it a bit deal? I mean seriously... I'm on medication for a reason right? I'm going to run around the block screaming, skip down the hallway singing, bang my head against my desk then crawl under it and have a good cry. I may just start with that one. And stress? Stress! There's already bad emotions from the female curse helping all of this along. Meds soon, cross your fingers. Thank god I only have a step daughter who is back with her mother right now.

aunty jam-sorry I had to chuckle cause I am like a mental person and get mental pictures to pretty much everything said and the whole run around the block, skipping down the hall singing.....i could just picture the whole thing in my head! I feel for you..cross my fingers for the meds

Love-THAT IS WHAT HAPPENED to my cat...when I was a teen we thought she was gone and here it was the hypertension and she couldnt see so we had to keep her in my room where she knew her way around until it got better!! She was on meds the rest of her years...she made it for a while I went to college and she became my dads cat!!

Pretty much hating myself today...just feel like I screw everything up, not doing everything I should even though I want to just cant get myself to do it...Wish I could just disappear things would probably be better for everyone all around!

momof4, things would NOT be better if you disappeared!! :nono: all those beautiful children of yours AND your DH would MISS you so don't say that, sweety!

AuntyJam, I also got a funny visual of your actions :D but I'm sorry your mind is racing like that. You got through your day OK?

Tuffy is one aptly named kitty :carrot:

I stayed in bed half the day yesterday :rolleyes: but today was much much better. I guess that's how it always is with me, thank goodness the down days are singular.

WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME??? OK so after sparaticly taking meds out of one bottle for 3 months I got them refilled and over the weekend took them for about 2 and half days since we were out of town on a youth conference.... took i think only one instead of two daily thru out the week and today I have been awful...hate myself...know what I need to do around the house but cant do it..or wont do it....just want to disappear into the computer....snapped majorly at the kids all night...actually to the point I was just like they need to go to bed before I completely go off the edge....I am not normally like that...Yes days they stress me out and I just want them to go to bed but not all day long....like i hate when i am like this I am so freaking mean i would hate to be my kid for REAL...then to top it off they are running around the dinning room entry way and living room in circles...smacking each other and knocking each other over hurting each other and I just want to grab ahold of them and spank their bottoms....WHY I hate hate hate this...I am going to put notes up and do whatever I need to do for a solid week and take meds but if it doesnt get better hes going to have to switch my meds because this is how I am everytime I try to start taking them regular I am sooo on edge, snappy, AWFUL...and I cant be like that with have so many young kids around they are going to be hyper and do stuff but they dont need to be flipped out on for being a kid....I hope nobody judges me because some people just dont understand the feeling of being this way and not wanting to and not able to fix it....its an awful feeling its like drowning and you dont know how to swim so you cant do anything to keep yourself from drowning.......

sorry so down I try not to be but I cant even be real with people in real life cause they judge and then spread the gossip and my bf just split up with her fiance so I have spent hours on the phone listening to her cry and her heartbreak so I cant even go to her....this is my only support right now. My husband just yells at me because I start off at the top....I start off yellling instead of just talking to them....so even hes noticing it.....

:*(

Hi Chicks :)
Thursday evening here for this newbie .
I have off tomorrow so I am happy about that !
I am hoping that the side effects from my Prozac get better !
Have a great Thursday !

Momof4 :hug: sorry you are feeling so irritable. I used to feel that way a lot before I started taking meds. It's a terrible feeling and you can't make it stop. I hope they even you out in the next day or so instead of making you worse.

Vermont, sorry you spent part of the day in bed. I haven't done that in a while but used to be famous for it. I don't know what caused it to stop (at least for now). I think being really busy helps although everything in me usually fights against being busy. Avoidance is usually my thing but I've had to learn to like being busier with school and work.

I'm off the next 2 days and so glad about it. Here's hoping it's productive. Tomorrow night we're going out for sushi for valentine's day since I work on sunday. Can't wait for that. :drool:

Vermont-- I used to be famous too for sleeping the whole day away. I would take a day off of work and JUST SLEEP due to the job stress ---- That is why the P doc and my regular doc suggested I start taking meds - It is amazing what life throws at us and how we respond to it --

Have a great time hope4me getting sushi :)

Mom-- hope it gets better for you . Some people can be so arrogant, catty, and stuck up !!

Mom - Come on over and we'll go skipping down the hall together ok? When I feel like that I force myself to take some down time and barracade myself in the bedroom.

I'm to tired to do anything today. I'm back to staying up until midnight and trying to get up at 6:15am. I'm a person who likes my sleep so that doesn't go over well. When I'm tired like this everything is much harder, I got home really late after work and hubby had ordered chinese for dinner... no calories there! Then get into work today and my boss brings me this home made cinnamon roll... he knows I have a weakness for them. No calories there either. Today is pay day so I have to get my meds... hubby knows going without is not even an option anymore, I'm like a yo-yo (more mental picturery for you guys... imagine my head going up and down with a string attached). Wwwweeeeeee... I think I'm going to be sick.

thanks aunty jam....I ended up getting kids all in their rooms and took a bath and read some of a new book while I was in there...feel much better this morning...took my meds last night and this morning...going to try my hardest to get them taken. Our pastor asked us out to eat tonight so guess thats what we are doing...husbands birthday is tomorrow! Then val. day sun. I want to go to the movies with him but I know he will be too tired tonight...maybe sunday afternoonfor a matinee?? I dont know!!

Ok well I need to go sweep the upstairs I got everybodys rooms cleaned and bed sheets changed!! So feeling good bout that..just need to do dishes and keep going on the laundry!! lata

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Just popping in to say HI to my favorite ladies. Have a wonderful weekend sister chicks and be good to yourself. Yes... YOU !!

:hug: Leenie

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I just went shopping to get the ingredients to make my grandson's cake, for his first birthday. It was Wednesday, but we're celebrating tomorrow. At his age, I don't think he cares one way or another. :D

I'm honored to get to make the cake. Just can't *eat* very much of it. But I've been staying on plan extra good all week, so I'd be able to eat some. Yay me. :cheer:

Happy birthday Kadoka! (Yes, that's my grandson's name, after a small town in South Dakota that his mother passed through while pregnant, and liked.)