Thanks for all your experiences, ladies. I have an appointment with my pdoc week after next. He's always talking about Depakote and Lithium like they're they only mood stabilizers. I definitely do NOT want to take Lithium, although he insists that the weight gain is worse on Depakote than Lithium. I can't even complain about weight *gain* on the Depakote, because I haven't gained so much as I can't *lose* anything. I keep gaining and losing the same five pounds over and over again.
I need to increase my exercise regimen more before I give up and get back on the medication roulette wheel. Of course, the cocktail I'm on right now is not working well, either. I just got off the Lexapro that I had been on for years and years, and now my depressive crashes are more acute than they've been in a long time. He suspected that the anti-depressant might be the reason that my moods were still so unstable, and now I don't know what we're going to do next. On top of all of THAT, I've been suffering from the brain fog I've heard some Depakote and Lithium users talk about where I can't really speak or write succinctly because I lose my train of thought (or I babble on and on without ever making a point like I have been in this thread), so we've been thinking about a possible cognitive medication such as Abilify.
I am so tired of this. The last couple of days, I've just been so depressed and frustrated that I've just eaten whatever I darn well felt like in a sort of defiant rebellion. Like, why should I even bother? Why shouldn't I at least have my one good, reliable friend food when everything else is so out of hand?
I know, I need to be healthy, especially with all the health obstacles I face, but I just get SO tired.
