November 2009 Chick Chat - Come Join Us
 

Purefire, glad you are feeling positive and congrats on the 4 lbs! That is great!:cp:

Today was a pretty good day. I saw the Michael Jackson movie this morning with a couple of good friends. I loved MJ dearly as I've said on here before. It was like seeing an old friend. After we went and had some great thai food. I did have to work for about 3 hrs because we are short on coverage and I couldn't get the whole day off. It was slow though so I mainly just sat and talked to a co-worker the whole time. I really needed the time off this weekend.

I had a bout of smothering depression late last night. I've been fearing an onset lately. I'm thinking I need to take some proactive steps to head it off. I'm thinking I definitely need to start working out even if it's a couple of times a week and I'm going to start a gratitude journal again where you have to list 5 things daily you are grateful for. I have such a tendency to focus on the negative in my life more than the positive. The thing is when I hear about other people's lives I wonder what all my whining is about. :o I just need to remember how lucky I am in many ways.

Good night all

vermont-this is from the end of the oct forum since it is closed..but thank you for your love and support in this time. i am trying. my mom came to church this morning and i didnt think she would but she broke down crying and of course i did too...it will be a long week. my uncle is flying in on tuesday. but that you for caring.

good morning purefire, hope4me and momof4 :)

mom, continues :hug: to you and your mom is handling your gram's passing.

Purefire, wishing you good things in the potential new friendship.

hope4me, I would also recommend some exercise to shore up against a potentially bad episode, especially if you feel it coming. I haven't had a bad bout in a long time, which I am VERY thankful for!! I use my light therapy each morning, and work out almost every day, it must be working because I haven't felt really bad in ... well, I don't remember how long, I guess since last winter! so that is good.

Good morning ladies!

Pure - I'm glad you're feeling better, and congrats on the 4lbs

Mom - :hug:

Hope - VT is right, exercise helps. Have you ever seen Legally Blonde? There' a wonderful quote about endorphins making you happy in it :)

Have a great day ladies!

Good morning, chickies - and what would I do without you all!

Hope, I'm so sorry you're feeling blue - and I can relate to the never wanting to go out thing. I'm sure I'm the biggest bah humbug ever - but I can't help it. And if I do know I'm planning to go out, I get anxious for days before hand.

I've also been concerned about a relapse lately. While I'm generally ok, I'm finding myself crying a lot, over nothing. This isn't usual and normally my first sign is not sleeping, which hasn't been a problem. I'm also managing to stick to plan quite well. I just feel a bit like I'm on the edge, you know? It's been two years this month since my last major breakdown, and I'm concerned. If I do crash again, where do I go? I'm already maxed out on my meds, and I can't go back in to that circus of trying to find something that works.

So, I get where you're at - hang in there! Feel free to PM if you ever want to chat! :hug:

Mom - there are no words. I sat with my grandmother the same way, many years ago. With each breath a part of you wants it to be the last, for her sake. And the other part prays she'll hold on for a while longer. I'm a big believer that older folks decide when they're going. When they've had enough, and they feel that we, who are left behind, can cope, they just let go. I am sending lots of mental hugs. You are strong enough to get through this, for you and your mom. :hug:

Vermont - thanks so much for the congrats on my little success. It means a great deal. I've been sticking to plan pretty well and lost 4lbs last week, which feels amazing. I called my DH in Lebanon with the news :o, I've got 154lbs to go so I'm sure I won't call him with every few pounds, but this felt good.

Pure - SO many kudos for sticking with the kicking! :D You did a good thing getting rid of him, and you're obviously feeling better for it. The school stuff will work itself out - I remember my first economics classes at university, just feeling like I'd NEVER get it - and then one day it just pops. And think how much more it will mean when you graduate and you've worked so hard for it! And good luck with the new beau - as an ex-military wife (ex-military, not ex wife) I can assure you, they're not bad and they adapt to change well! ;)

Leenie, hope all is well at work!
Lost - hope all is well with the move.

To everyone else....:hug:
Happy November, chickies!

hi everyone,
sorry for introducing myslef and then disappearing for a bit. i've had a crazy little bit.i've lost a tiny bit of weight which i'm excited about and seem to be sticking to my diet and exercise plan. but i can feel my problems creeping up...i've been super anxious lately; panicky and worried about everything and anything. and way too stressed and nothing seems to releive it. agitated and snapping at the boyfriend. and at the same time completely unmotivated to do anything! (other than a bit of exercise, which is wierd for me, but not school, socializing, anything..)i'm trying to push through it though.

momof4under5- i'm so sorry to hear about your gram. i know how hard losing someone close to you can be and i wish you the best.

happy november everyone!

thank you for the support

Havish- I believe my gram waited for my mom to leave to go so my mom didnt have to see her go. She struggled all night breathing. My mom woke her up and told her she was running some errands and would be back my gram nodded her head. My aunt was sick with a cold so she sat downstairs. My parents had only been gone 5 minutes and my grams dog just start flipping out barking and barking my aunt ran up the steps and gram was gone. So she just waited for my mom to go so my mom didnt have to see her go.
Thats crazy how dogs can sense something like that...really crazy. I never knew that they could and would react like that. Hopefully the dog makes without my gram. ok i need to go..

I'm so sorry! <HUGS>
I've been there too...

Good Morning,

The sky is beautiful blue today. You know it can be very cold or very hot... as long as the sky is blue I'm ok.

Mom sorry to hear about your G'ma :hug: its so sad. Hang in there hon.

Jiggles welcome back... we all have days when we don't post so don't apologize, we understand.

Pure YEAH on the self-esteem.. and 4 lbs to boot, how exciting :D

Hope sounds like your doing the right thing, self positive talk is so important...yeah you. I've heard the MJ movie was wonderful.

Holly (cupcake ;) ) Marbear :wave:

Havisham how are you feeling today :hug:

:welcome: BethC

Nothing new here, which is a good thing. Just been a little run down but thats b/c I haven't had my monthly visit from aunt flo ... its been over 2 months and when that happens I lose all energy. Oh well, I'm sure she'll come a knocking soon lol.

Have a wonderful day ladies :hug:

Leenie

Good Morning chickas,
Today marks 2 goods things:
1. I'm officially down 16lbs :D
2. It's my 2nd anniversary :cool:
I may be back up a lb or two as we're going out to eat tonight, and I can't control sodium. Plus I may have to eat dessert. Haha, not that I'm going to eat a 7,000 calories dessert - but you know.

Mom - I hope you're hanging in there. :hug:

Havish - 4lbs is amazing! I'd call hubby everytime I lost 4lbs ... but I guess that would depend on what type of longdistance plan you had. I made a 8 miinutes phone call home from Prague once that cost $60!! :o

Lennie - I love midol - it's got caffeine in it for a reason ;) I suggest a few of those and a cup of swiss miss diet hot choclate. 25 calories, and the combination is enough to make me happy for days... The sky is blue here too, and it's chilly. Just the way I like it!

Jiggles - post whenver you can, as long as you come back - that's all that matters :)

Pure, Budly, VT Mom, Lost, Hope :wave:

Have a great day ladies. enjoy the sun if it's shining where you are. And if its not, do what I did - print a picture of the sun out and tape it to your office window.

good morning Pure, Buddly, Lost, Mom, Leenie, Havish, Jiggles, marbear :wave:

Hey marbear, big congrats on being down 16!! and - HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! :carrot: and this is so kewl - it is our anniversary too , 'cept this is our (gulp) 30th :cool: I hope you find a delicious dessert to savor tonight :)

the weather in NJ (where I was born and grew up) was very mild this time of year, and there was still color in the trees, so it was still pretty. I had a bouquet of yellow mums, and my mil made my gown, it was very simple but pretty.

I hope everyone has a great day :)

Good morning, all you wonderful chickies....which makes me realise, if anyone called me a chick anywhere else, I'd be offended....but here, I wear it with pride! :D

The weather here is gorgeous, too - sunny and cold - my favourite. I love this until the snow flies, and then I suddenly feel very English, and can't fathom how I survive this every year.

So, the big 4-0 looms in the very near future...but I'm hanging in. I asked my family back home (the UK) not to call...not sure why. I'm possibly going to Quebec to the casino with my son (he's 18 so he's able to go in to the casino in Quebec)...but then that monster nudges me and says "come on, do you really wanna drive all that way and you won't enjoy it" - you know the voice. Anyway, we'll see.

Marbear - congrats on the 16lbs and the anniversary! My 4lbs seems like a tease as it's all over the place now...but this is a journey, not a destination, so I'm sticking with it. And yes, the LD plan is vital....sadly Lebanon is not on any LD plan I've found - I guess no-one wants to call there! ;)

Vermont - if that is you in the pic, how on earth have you been married for 30 years???? You'd have had to be an infant bride!!! My 20th is next year...time flies, eh??

Mom - Hope you're hanging in. The funeral will suck, as they all do - mainly for the effect it'll have on your mom, since you seem to be very well adjusted. Watching ones parents in pain is the worst. My mom's mom died in the July and her dad died that same December...at his funeral she couldn't stand, she just sat and sobbed. She said it all just rolled in to one and she couldn't cope. That's when you just hold her hand and be there. It helps more than you can know. Hang in and know we're thinking of you. :hug:

Leenie - thanks for the check in - not too bad so far. How's things at work? When aunt flo goes missing, it's so draining...you have my :hug:

Lost, Jiggles, Hope - Hang in and keep posting when you can. :hug:

Happy Tuesday, all!

VT - Happy anniversary to you as well :D I wouldn't gulp before saying 30 years, being married 30 years is something to seriously be proud of. Congrats!

Marbear & Vermontmom: :yay::yay: Happy Anniversary!! :yay::yay:

Vermontmom, I thought just what Havisham said, did you get engaged straight out of the womb? :lol3:

Marbear and Vermont Happy Anniversary!!

Marbear, Havisham and Pure congrats on the weight loss!!!

Mom:hug:so sorry about your Gram. I've heard that it is very common for people to wait until they are alone to pass on.

Hope hang in there :hug: I've been feeling myself sinking, but I'm trying to fight it.

Hi Leenie, Beth, jiggles, Raven, Sassy, Liz, Cathy, homebound, and everyone else :hug:

Sunny and cold here as well. It was raining last night and then froze, so my van was a little frozen this morning. Thankfully the roads weren't bad. I still haven't gotten back into that exercise thing. DdB started an early morning babysitting job so we are establishing a new routine here, always hard. At least this week is a lot quieter than last, I felt like I was living in my van with all the running around I had to do.

Take care everyone and have a great day,
K

aw, thank you everyone! I was VERY young, I was 18 when we married, DH was 21. Yes I'm sure my family was groaning and weeping for the inevitable tragedy :devil: but we showed them :cool:

Havisham, how soon is your b-day?

Hello everyone. Wow, it's November already, October seemed to fly by for me. I am pretty stressed out lately. Seems to be a combination of job burnout, issues with my grown son and his gf, my bf being quite depressed for several weeks and my step dad is in poor health right now.

I am waiting to see a new tdoc. My old one has to take an extended medical leave to have her hip replaced. I feel like I can handle most everything going on but I find myself getting snippy with people. I am pretty sure I am having anxiety symptoms. I don't see my pdoc for a few weeks and I am just trying my best to relax, take it easy and do things I enjoy. So far, so good.

I am off work tomorrow and I plan to take a walk with my bf, maybe at a local park and take some pictures. I also need to stock up on produce and protein. It's odd, I used to dread grocery shopping but these past few months I enjoy doing it.

I hope you all have a good night and a good Wednesday. :grouphug:

just touching in real quick..tomorrow is the viewing....I dont know how I am going to do..I am afraid that I have not yet grieved for my gram yet and seeing her might i dont know push me over the edge...i have been so concerned for my mom. I am at peace with my gram passing but still doesnt mean I wont miss her
Then I have one of my youths mother driving me crazy because on sunday when we were leaving for a revival service a car flew past the church van and ended up hitting a car full of girls that turned infront of him on a blind hill. The one girl was killed so the mother is kinda lecturing me why i didnt show sorrow and advise the kids to go to grief counseling and all kinds of stuff...when I do feel for the families and I have gotten address for the youth to write the girls and the family of the girl that passed...i have sent text out to my youth. The kids were not allowed to go over to the accident while my husband and youth parent went over to help. But grief counseling is not really what they need because they are not grieving over a death of someone they knew...they are all getting a wake up call that these girls were doing nothing other than getting groceries to go home and make supper. They didnt know they werent going to make it home. I really think some of these teens needed to realize how precious their life is. Yes they might need counseling to talk about it and sort their thoughts out. I dont know I was very aggrivated because I was being judged on what i did or didnt do without the parent even asking me what i have done to help the kids...for crying out loud i bend over backwards for these kids...I am feeling guilty for going and staying at my grams funeral tomorrow night and not being at youth with the teens.....I guess to some people nothing is enough for them. ugh...sorry its really bothering me....theres more than just that she going on about but thats the jist of it...
oh yeah not to mention for some reason I am almost 230 again...and I havent really changed my eating paterns that would cause it to go down so I guess its time to do something because if not I have to go buy more pants..and I cant afford that with christmas...ugh....talk about depressing...just a downward spiral with weight...im gaining weight so lets eat more junk because i feel bad...UGHHHH...
ok well im going to bed..sorry cant do personals just cant get to it...thanks for the comments, support, and prayer!

Oh, momof4, you have so much going on now poor girl! :hug: I don't think you have anything to feel guilty for, you do so much for the youth group and it's stinky of that woman to criticize you when you do so much, AND when you're already dealing with a family death. You just hang in there and know we're all around you, especially at the viewing :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug: <---all of us hugging momof4!

thanks vmom...we will see how tonight goes..that parent wants me to call her but she is going to just have to wait for now!! I need to go do school since i have th funeral tomorrow wont get much done!!

A plus- I did go on live strong my daily plate and update it and figure out how many calories I need to lose weight. I wrote out how many calories then accordingly for each meal so I know what I need to stay in. It worked before and I can NOT hit 230 I refuse to...so I guess its time to change something...bad part is I am motivated and in the mood to excercise but i MUST do the boys school...*sigh*

Happy Wednesday, Chickies,

SO disappointed today as my weight is going UP. I'm going to have to kick myself in to gear, here!

Mom - there just are no words, but you have to give yourself a break. You do an awesome job with your kids and with the youth group, but you can't please all the people all the time. At the risk of being a b***h, the only response to this other mom is "bite me". She wasn't there, she didn't have to deal with it, and it sounds like you have your head screwed on right. The kids aren't grieving a loss, they're dealing with a shock. And you're right, this is life - it's not always pretty and it's not always nice, but it's what it is. What you did show them was strength and compassion, which is exactly what you should have shown. You weeping and wailing (which sounds like what this other woman would have done) wasn't going to help them.

Take a breath - if the boys school doesn't get done for a day or so, that's not the end of the world. If they went to regular school, you'd probably have pulled them out for a couple of days while you went through this - I know most parents do, so if they miss a bit it's easy to catch up. You need to do something just for you - if you give all you have away, what's left? :hug:

Vermont - my b'day is Nov 19th. The big 4-0. I had planned to go to Quebec with my oldest son, but I realised I was just stressing about it and it would end up being more of a pain than anything else. Not to mention that it's a $1000 weekend, when that $1000 could buy new snow tires or something. If DH was home, we'd go, but for just me it's not worth it. So, I'll probably just hang out. No-one ever remembers to do anything for my birthday - I'm the one who sets up other's b'day's so when it's mine no-one thinks about it. Still - it's just another day, right? :) Oh - and I can relate to your marriage story - I got married at 20 after less than four months of knowing my DH - and we're still married almost 20 years on. It's not always easy, but we're still hanging in there! :D

Hydra - Sounds like we have some stuff in common - the older kids and their woes, job burnout...I think two weeks in Hawaii sounds like heaven right now - who's in??? :) I've also felt more snippy and anxious lately - as I mentioned earlier, I'm hoping it's not a relapse. hang in there!

Buddly - thanks for the congrats - although right now I'm wondering what I'm doing wrong! :)

Getting colder here - dustings of snow on the cars last night. I'm tired of everyone asking why I'm still in a t-shirt and aren't I cold. I'm FAT, people - I have layers of warmth to carry around with me. Not to mention, I get in my car in the garage, turn on the heated seats, drive for 50 minutes in the warm (and I can't bear driving with a coat on) and then walk from the car to the office - it's not like I'm traversing the arctic in shorts and a tank top!!

I have my nice, healthy (and delicious) pasta with me, but someone in the office just ordered in Chinese. It smells SO good. Oh, the sacrifices!! ;)

Jiggles, Beth, Leenie, Pure - big hugs and waves!

Hello Ladies....

Its been a frustrating week already with a midterm on Monday in Medical Terminology which I got a 92 on.... a quiz on Tuesday in Anatomy and Physiology which I am not sure if I passed or not. A quiz this morning in Medical Terminology which I know I passed... Tomorrow I have a quiz again in Anatomy and Physiology... but I swear... I don't get that class at all.. I studied and studied... so I don't know.. Luckily it is the last day of classes for this week...

Going to get some sleep...

Have a good night ladies..

Momof4 :hug::hug: many prayers coming your way.

Pure, glad this week is over for you, sounds like it way too hectic. Good job on the grades.

Havisham, I know what you mean. I'm always hot. Sometimes I shower twice a day if I'm active b/c I feel dirty or sweaty and I can't stand that. The slightest thing gets me out of breath and overheated.

Hydra, sounds like you have a lot on your plate too. That's a lot of stress to deal with. I hope it lets up soon.

I'm off tomorrow but have a lot of studying to do. Hope you all have a good Thursday.

Good morning ladies, thinking of momof4 :hug: and of course everyone else :) Purefire, congrats on that 92!

I helped a friend pack and move yesterday (well, got her started) for 6 hours, my biceps are sore! and she lives in an upstairs apartment, so lots of up and down. And something very funny happened -

Girlfriend had checked with the store owner next door and got permission for us to look in his cardboard dumpster for boxes. We lifted the cover from one side, and got some good boxes, then saw others on the bottom, on the other side. GF gave me a boost up, and I rested my waist on the top of the dumpster and bent down and was able to reach the boxes, but 2 quarters from my jacket pocket fell out.

Now, come on...why did I think it was worth it to get those quarters?? But I did. I got boosted up again, and two GF's held me by my ankles and I reached way down to the bottom and got the quarters :rofl: :rofl: I was able to pull myself back up by using abs (Now I know why I work out! :D) and it was pretty funny.

I hope everyone has a good day :)

Hehehe.
VTMom - your dumpster story made my morning :D

Hope & Pure - I hope you both do well on the tests you have taken/have left to take. Pure - congrats on the 92.

havisham - I'm always hot, and I've always sweat alot. I was the same when I was under 150 as I am at 210. I have one friends who's always cold who bigger than I am. I say this because I dislike the "I'm fat" answer. You should tell them tha fabulous people are always warm isntead :D

Mom- :hug: You and your family are in my thoughts...

Leeni, Bud, Lost, Hydra, and anyone else I forgot because I smell - :wave:

Have a great day ladies.

I'm a little nervous posting here since I have a few folks from real-life who now come to 3FC too ... but they probably already know that I have issues so ...

Let's start with, I take 10 mg paxil for social anxiety and periodic depression. Like many of you, I original went to the doc to get something to relax me, stop the panic, help me sleep. He wouldn't do it. Told me it caused depression-like moods. He wouldn't even consider xanax to help me stop smoking.

We perservered and now I do very well on my paxil.

The only bad situation I still have is the dentist. Doc does allow me to take ativan (lorazepam) before I go. Since I had a few, I took some the night before my appt, some before the appt itself (Wednesday) and ... since I had leftover ... one last night.

I'm irritable, I'm weary, I can't get started doing anything around here. I hurried to the post office and straight back feeling anxious to be back home. I'm uneasy ... nothing is wrong, I just feel uneasy.

It's like I've never been on the paxil. This is how I used to feel.

And!!! I'm retaining fluid ... badly! My face and hands feel huge. My eyelids are actually fluidy looking. I did a little research and fluid retention is a very common side-effect.

I must remember to discuss this with Doc the next time I go. I never thought I'd have to worry about drug interactions if I only took two ;)

So why am I posting? Many times in my life, I've come to realise that if I'm struggling with something ... I'm never the only one.

Vermont - thank you, your story made me smile and I needed that today!

Marbear - I agree on the "I'm fat" thing, and I like your answer. I've always been a warm person and I'm like Hope in that I am obsessive about being clean. I shower every morning and bath most nights just because I feel so concious of the heat. I always have this secret fear of being the fat smelly girl. :o

Pure - I can so remember those days. When I was doing finals at uni, a girlfriend introduced me to a product called "Rescue Remedy", it's a Bach's Flowers product. All natural herbal blend. You either drop a couple of drops under your tongue, or in to a glass of water and it relaxes you. It helped me enormously, took the edge off, helped me focus and had no negative effects. The only warning I'd have is, if you're planning on having a glass of wine after an exam, do so at home. Nothing major, but you'll just feel extremely happy. Not drunk or high or anything, just very happy. I noticed it driving home - one glass of wine after an exam and I was sat in traffic smiling to myself and singing. Again, not drunk or anything - just very happy. ;)

Mom - I hope the funeral wasn't too horrible. Have a hug. :hug:

Leenie, Buddly, Lost, Hydra - Hope all is well and you're quiet becuase you're out living your life! :)

Very down the last few days and I'm not sure why. I'm sticking to plan but still gaining weight. I blame IBS so I'm sticking with it - one day I'll have dropped like 10lbs over night. :p

Really worried that I'm starting a slide - I so don't want another breakdown. My meds combo is good and it took me years to find it, and I can't face going through all that again. I'm hoping it's just that it's my b'day and DH isn't here and there are no plans to do anything....I'm probably just feeling majorly sorry for myself. Got home last night and yelled at my oldest DS - so tired of teenage BS, you know? It's when you ask for a simple thing to be done - sweep the kitchen, vaccuum the rug, whatever, and it's all just too much work. So I get in at 6pm, have to make dinner, then do all the jobs he's either not done at all, claimed to have done but I'm not sure, or done but done badly. And he's been home in front of his computer since 3pm. This is one of those times when I'm weary of being alone. So I had a good cry and phoned and woke up DH to cry to him...then I ate a tub of frozen yoghurt. At least it's fat free and high in fibre.

Sorry - needed a little pity party for a minute there - no hard feelings if you all changed post mid-way through. :D

thanks for listening!

Hi, Susan,

First, anyone IRL who posts here is already a great person - and let's face it, we're all having some issues. ;) You are definitely not the only one.

I was on Paxil for a few years and found it a life saver. However, I found that when I got down to 10mg and below it was like I was on nothing. The anxiety and panic attacks were crippling.

To my knowledge, there aren't any drug interactions between Ativan and Paxil. Maybe it's just where you took a few in a relatively short space of time (and I can totally relate on the dentist - I need at least 2mg to get in to my dentists chair!), and now you don't have it in your system. Little bit of a come down maybe?

That non-specific uneasiness is awful, isn't it? My family always ask what I'm anxious about - and I don't know. It's nothing, and everything. For me (when possible) that's time to snuggle up in pj's and hibernate for a while. :)

Hang in there - a friend of mine at work always says, 'this, too, shall pass' - and you know what, it will. :hug:

:hug: to all that need them and who are struggling. For those who feel they are slipping, more :hug:.

I've had a very blah day. I was off today and did absolutely nothing. After I got up I hit the couch and didn't move. I took a couple of naps on said couch but that was all. I feel like I'm in a fog today. I really needed to study but I'm barely alert enough to feel guilty that I didn't. TOM is here and that's what I'm blaming it on. I usually have one day where I'm just exhausted but dang. I feel like today has been a dream, and a lazy one at that. :dz:

Catch y'all tomorrow.

hi girls...working on boys school...had a break down yesterday before funeral...explain all later

Mom - :hug:

:hug: Momof4, how are you doing?

Just a quick hello, I've gotta go into work and close. I missed my test this a.m. I've been in a fog the last few days. I just couldn't concentrate to study. I couldn't even make myself pick up my notes to study and can't afford to bomb a test. I'll have to make it up. I'll check in with you chicks later. Have a great Saturday everybody.

Good Morning,

What a busy day. DD and I are heading to bed so I'll catch you all tomorrow, I mean later on today lol.

Hope & Mom :hug:

Luv yah !!

good morning everyone :)

momof4, :hug: and let us know, when you can, how you are.

hope4me, best wishes to your head clearing so you can study :)

:wave: to everyone else!

it is sunny and 48 degrees here, which is warm! I work 11 to 6 today, so I will enjoy my m'cycle ride to work, and just be careful in the dark on the way home (small critters and big ones, like deer)

hope everyone has a good day. Remember to do the things that we know help us 'get through'.

Good Morning,

Holly have fun and yep watch out for those deer, my BIL hit one not long ago.. the deer was fine but he was all banged up and his bike totaled.

Its warmer here today as well.... Time to take down halloween stuff and put up christmas lights... I hate doing it when its 30 degrees out and my fingers get numb lol.

Got some salmon for dinner .... the world is good :D

Have a great Sunday everyone.

Leenie

Cant be long cause my 3 year old is sitting on the couch pouting because she wants to sleep with papa and she is just being stubborn so I am going to have to take her upstairs.

The day of my grams funeral my sil who was to watch the kids kinda stood me up. She said I didnt say for sure and her and her fiance fought and she left and didnt take her cell...so i was left 20 mins before i had to leave to find a place for my four little ones. I was very angry but I have calmed down because I know it was a misunderstanding. But at the time I broke down crying just couldnt do it. Then at the funeral I cried the whole way thru the service because I held it all in until then. Most girls are daddies girls but my dad was always the authoritarian. his way or the highway. He would do anything for me now and still gets me stuff and takes me places, watches my kids, takes my kids places, gives me money...everything and i love him to death but when I am upset its like I cant be with him...i have been trying to figure it out but I think from writing this I did. When I was growing up I always held my emotions in when he would scream at me or swear at me or not let me go anywhere (they were afraid of my biological mom kidnapping me since she made threats too...I suffered for it) I would cry pretty much every night but even if they hurt my feelings by making fun of the way I sang or my butt (he would call me bertha butt sister) or make fun of other things about me I would just laugh and shake it off but it killed me inside... I wouldnt cry until I went to my bed or room...I didnt like letting him see me cry. I didnt get emotions back until I got with my husband (shortly before when i started to heal emotionally) My dad would always be like knock it off i was just kidding with you and make it like it was no big deal...but I think that might be why i cant cry on his shoulder or run to him when I am upset...he tries to be there and makes sure I am ok but when it comes down to it...its like a wall flies up so fast I dont know what happens.. But my mom i just could go to her and cry and be open with her...ok so anyways blah blah blah
just been getting thru this week hoping to have a little bit of a more normal week. i need to do lesson plans but my stinker is probably not going to give me a chance.

OK SO WHY IS IT....i only got 4 hours of sleep last night but I jumped up when the boys woke me up put the music on bumped it up loud, got everyone breakfast, got the kids dressed, showered, and got out the door without much of any problems (except a missing 3 yr olds shoe..LOL) But when I get 7-8 hours of sleep I am so tired I cant even get out of bed and then when i drag myself out I feel like absolute crap and the day is going with out me....not me running my day the day is forcing me to exist??? WHAT THE HECK IS THAT???

Ok gotta get this girl in bed she is overly tired and I will pay tomorrow since we got home late and its past her bedtime!!
thanks for listening..i will try to catch up on post tomorrow when its kinda normal again!!

Good Morning Ladies.. :wave:

Mom ~ :hug:

Havisham ~ thanks for the remedy tip. I will look into it when I get home from school.

unfortuately I don't have alot of time to post... I just remembered I have to go feed my dad's cat. My dad, stepmother and son are all in Florida for the week.

So hope everyone has a decent monday and I will post more later..

:hug::hug:

good morning ladies :)

momof4 - :hug: and I don't know why it is that when you get hardly any sleep you're Superwoman :) but more sleep makes you tired..I hope you get everything you need done, and then have some time for yourself.

Hello to everyone else!!

I hopeyou all are having the beautiful weather that we have had for 2 or 3 days, I rode to work yesteday, and will do same today :bike: and sorry to hear of your BIL's crash with the deer, Leenie, yes that is my number one concern (well, that and MOOSE)

Good morning, Chickies,
Very mild here in Sunny Ontario, which is nice. I like being able to have the windows open.

Mom - I think we're all like that - I can function on 3 or 4 hours of sleep, but die if I only get 7. I think it's to do with how deeply we sleep - like we know we only have a limited time so we don't get as deeply asleep - or something like that. And I'm sorry the funeral was so tough, although I'm glad that you had a good cry - it's so cathartic.

Vermont, Leenie, Buddly, Hope, Lost and everyone I've omitted to mention because I'm crap - have a fabulous day!!

Found a couple of delicious things out - one: Perrier has less sodium than regular bottled water (it's like a quarter of regular water) :carrot: This is great for me, as I don't really care for plain water, and Perrier with Lemon juice is awesome (and excellent for your digestive system).

Two - made this dish the other night that I thought I'd share. I don't often really enjoy my own cooking, but everyone else loves it. But this I loved, don't know if it will work on anyone's diet plan, but I thought I'd share:
Cut up chicken thighs in to bite sizes (you could use breast but the thighs are more tender)
Cut up peppers, onions and zucchini, and cook all through in olive oil and garlic, with herbs of your choice (I did basil, oregano, thyme and bay leaves) and with the chicken.
Add plain tomato sauce (not ketchup - just like spaghetti sauce but I used just plain tomato)
Simmer through for a while.
Serve over pasta - I actually did a lot of sauce and cooked the pasta through in the sauce - makes a one dish meal and makes the whole thing so delicious, without any fat at all. By cooking the pasta in the sauce, it makes it feel almost creamy - without any of the downs of cream.
Anyway, just wanted to share.

Still a bit down, but I'm hoping it's just the birthday blues and it will pass.

Hope all are well!!