I really want to do something for myself today. I've been in a horrible downward spiral for a month now. My meds seem not to be working and my new MD (I moved & had to find all new docs) doesn't quite know what to do with me yet. I'm either staying up all night, night after night, or taking double meds (per my doc) and end up totally hypersomniac (11 to 12 hours per night and waking up groggy).

My bingeing is crazy. Today I have tried today to just not beat myself up and see what happens. I had 8 packets of fruit snacks (about 600 cals) and a chicken/avocado sandwich. Not too bad. Fairly nutritious.

Now it is almost five. I don't want to feel like I've wasted another day so I'm trying to talk myself into going to the gym. I just feel so huge that I don't even like putting on my gym clothes. I'm going to go into the bedroom and change and go to the gym. I will post later tonight. Please, please send me your positive thoughts or wish me luck or anything!!!

.....sending positive thoughts........

hugs

You can do it! You'll feel better after a workout.

Okay . . . I walked on the treadmill for 15 minutes and rode the recumbant bike for 11 minutes. It was the most I could do but I'm glad I did it!