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From Last Week's Thread:

Posted by Buddly:

Hello all
After I woke up at 6:20am I actually fell back to sleep until after 10 this morning and then in the afternoon I put my head down on the kitchen table and I guess I fell asleep as my hubby had been on the comp playing games, but when I lifted my head he had the potatoes all peeled and in the pot and most of the brussel sprouts prepared. I guess the last few days that I've been really stressing and not sleeping finally caught up to me. Thankfully I sort of feel human again. Now if I could get the pain in my lower back to go away all would be really good.
We had our thanksgiving turkey dinner tonight. My mom and sister came out as well. And oddly enough I didn't over do it for a change. I wanted to, but after the first go around I was so stuffed. And I only had a little sliver of mincemeat pie instead of a piece of each. I really do like this wellbutrin for the control. I've lost 14 lbs since I started it.
Anyway I should go shower and get ready for bed, just wanted to pop in and say Hi while I'm feeling a little more positive than I have been.

Sassy hope work goes smoothly for you tonight.

jerzy good luck with the unpacking. Its such a pain, but company is a great motivator. Hope you are feeling better. Congrats on going for a run. I sort of wish I had gone out for a walk as there was actually a little sun today.

Heather good to see you!!

to all.

Well take care,
K

Good morning everyone,

Just got off the scale and did my measurements. Have only lost 1/2 pound this past week despite being on program faithfully. However, I did my measurements and they have changed, so something must still be clicking. Still, it's disappointing to not see that scale budge much.

My goal this week is to buy an exercise ball (I use it for back and core strengthening exercises) and some handweights. I had intended to do that last week, but never make it home from work in time to get to the store I'm buying them from.

I did go to the bra fitters on Wed., and am down a cup size and around the ribs. It's a pretty one, but man those places are expensive. I've found the same bra online now, and cheaper, but I need the fitting so I get the right size. It makes such a HUGE difference!

It's been gloomy and rainy and ick for days now. Winter is for sure on its way. We were just over the border for the weekend and there was snow in Minot when we woke up yesterday morning. I realized on the drive home yesterday that I hadn't started using my SADelite yet. I will do that later today for sure. Already have it pulled out.

Hope everyone has had a good weekend, and for all of us Canadians, Happy Thanksgiving!

sassy i am really confused??WHy did you tell yourself You hope work goes smoothly for you???I was like wait I thought I was reading sassy's post?? You like messing with peoples heads dont you?? I also like the wellbutrin cause it does help with control but it just keeps me up way late...ok well I wanna get my sons school done now so I dont have to worry about it the rest of the morning...ok lata

Momof4: that is Buddly's post from last week, if you look at the top of the message. I put it in bold red letters and took off my signature, so now hopefully there won't be any more confusion! lol.

Well DH started his new job yesterday. He liked it. Just made me feel like I am just beating my head against a brick wall though. He told me what some of the other positions there start at and it is A LOT more than what I am making here. :( What really depresses me is my new coworker? Only makes 8 CENTS less than me! :yikes: I have been here 3 years! Well it will be next month. So what is the point of me working all these crazy @$$ hrs?? So I will be applying to the hospital. Its totally ridiculous. I feel like I have wasted my time and money. I went to college and got TWO college degrees to work here? I went into debt for this job? When my new coworker makes 8 cents less then I do and does not have any college degrees!

It makes me really really sick. :barf: I didn't even wanna come into work tonight, not only because of that, but because also I still don't feel that great, but I am here..........I dunno why though honestly. :(

I dunno I am just really really depressed right now.........:kickcan:

I'm not doing great. I just want to stay in bed. My friends have tried to get in touch but I've cut off all my phones and e-mail accounts because right now the only person I can bear to be around is my mum. I'm so glad I have her and she is taking me away next weekend to clear my head but I feel guilty about totally leaving my friends.

Anyway, just dropping in.

Buddly, Heather, Hope - hope you're all doing good and sassy I hope you feel better soon too :hug:

:wave:

OUch sassy...you told me didn't you....LOL....Yeah if I were you I would def. Apply at the hosiptal. That is just crazy that you have a degree and she doesnt and theres not much difference in the money.....argghhhh

well I am having a rough day....not sure whats made it rough but it is....so I am going to go...taking everything in me to be patient with my kids....ok lata

:hug: to spoz, sassy and mof4 - and everyone who's struggling right now. I am, too... I've been spending a lot of time in bed because I just don't want to get up and have to deal with life. People's general reaction to my staying in bed is "that's great, relax and catch up on some sleep," but they don't get that when I'm doing this it's because i'm really DEPRESSED.

I HATE getting up and having to get dressed because nothing fits me anymore and I can't bear going out in public. I just bought a new pair of pants from target because I need pants that aren't painful.

Iris.. i hear you loud and clear. I sat in bed, stuffed my face all day went to gym because i had a tiny burst of inspiration or motivation...i dont know. Then I came home and started stuffing my face again. Everybody is being nice to me because they think I'm feeling a bit low, when in Gods truth I just want to go sleep and not wake up.

We'll get there.. just takes time I guess :hug:

Ditto Iris. :o

I have pool in a couple of hours and I REALLY hate the thought of being seen in public tonight. Nothing fits (at least without all the rolls showing), and it's HOT again. I hate hot weather b/c I can't dress appropriately so I'm burning up.

I skipped class today because I just didn't want to go. I'm going to have to catch up before thursday am. Yes, I'm whining.

Heather, so good to see you. Please keep posting.

Sassy, I hear you about being underpaid for your education level. I'm in the same boat believe me.

Spoz, try not to isolate too much. It has never paid off for me. At least let your friends know what is going on before you disappear and then ask them for space. There will come a time when you need them again and feel good enough to be around them.

Hugs to all who need it. :hug:

Well, it's the season for depression. (At least that's the trend I've seen with my cousin who is bipolar and memoirs I've read.)

Every morning I wake up hoping I'm sick so I won't have to go to school. I had a bout of shingles recently and though it was agonizing, I loved the excuse not to have to go to work or wash my hair.

I'm not feeling depressed necessarily (prob. the meds!), but am incredibly lonely. I can't stop thinking about it. More than ever before and I am getting lost in books and t.v. shows fantasizing what relationships might come for me one day.

I wish I was someone who lost my appetite when feeling sad!

Hello from the "sickie" lol
 

sassy, i hope you feel better soon!

and everyone else... man we all need some kind pick-me-up! I don't even know what I need right now. A nice night in with the girls. Except there are no "girls," I don't have a group of friends like that.

jerzygal to be honest I often wish I was sick so I'd have a legit excuse to just stay in bed - so sassy some of us are actually jealous of your fever!

Hey..

I know I've been MIA lately..and sorry for that. I guess I was in denial or whatever and went off my meds. BIG MISTAKE!!!!!!!!! Basically everyone thought I was still taking them..but nope. I dunno..I thought I was doing better, so thats why I went off them.

Fortunately, I'm back on them. I'm also on Xanax again. I ended up in the ER not too long ago with a massive panic attack that lasted hours. They gave me the meds..and I've had like a 3 attacks since. Thankfully, its helped. It's also knocked me out for hours..LOL!!!

Ugh..I'm just a giant mess of problems at the moment too. I have nobody to talk to about it either. So I've been holding it inside.

So ya..lol..Thats my lil mellow drama, lol. Again sorry for being MIA.

Good Morning :coffee:

Shop :hug: welcome back sweetie, I'm glad your here and you know you can talk to us... we love you !!!

:wave:

Hi all,

Man, my feet are killing me tonight after working all day then making dinner and cleaning up. Could it be the extra 80 lbs I'm carrying around? :dunno: Tough call, huh? :chin:

I've gotta get off here and read for class. :p I'm so excited. Just wanted to stop in and say hi.

Welcome back Shop. This is the place to spill your problems, so let's have 'em! ;)

HI everyone :hug:

I'm doing OK, other than I've been sick as a dog for a week now. Oops, there I think I just coughed up a lung.

Take care everyone. Big hugs to all who can use them.

Holy Heck - Francie is that you? Nice to see you again. How are the new digs? Love the hair!

Heeellloooo!

Hey Chickies! I am sorry about being MIA as well! DH & DD had like FIVE days off so it has been crazy! I am returning with fabulous news though! DH has been declared in remission!! Yay! No more Chemo! The MRI & the Petscan both came up clean! I have been doing the happy dance all over the place! And! Our neighbors are letting me walk their golden on a regular basis now! So I am getting over a 3 mile walk 5 days a week...plus still going to the Y for classes! Whew! I have been chasing my tail all week that is for sure! But I may have figured out what I need to do for my weight to start heading in the right direction...really too early to tell but I will let you know when I know...:) I have been doing realllly well with the food...exercise...my schedule...my meditation and everything.. I am just going to pat myself on the back right there..lol

Good to see ya Shop!!! Yay! I am sorry you are having problems...take the meds if you need them and don't worry about it...do what you have to do to feel better...whatever that is!

Luv luv Everybody!!!

Raven

OKay..I wrote something here..but really..its sooooooooooo lame. I'm just gonna talk it over with dh. He should know whats going on in my weird mind, lol.



But here's something else thats been bringing me down..

I've been having nightmares where I have this beautiful baby daughter named Isabella..and the dream is always the same. I give birth to her..we take pics of her..I annouce to all of my friends that I've given birth..then after I've put her down for a nap..I go and check up on her..and she's missing. The photos are gone..all the baby stuff is gone. I'm freaking out cuz I cant find her. Everyone is starting to think I'm lying about even being pregnant since all the proof is gone. All thats left is the birth certificate. The only one who believes me is Fonzo, and thats cuz he was there. I've had this dream 4 nights in a row..and each time I wake up sobbing. What does this mean????????????? Does it mean, I'll never have a baby??

still flipping under a big black cloud. i'm very disgusted with myself.

For Francie: Dream
 

Originally Posted by Shopaholic1204:
OKay..I wrote something here..but really..its sooooooooooo lame. I'm just gonna talk it over with dh. He should know whats going on in my weird mind, lol.



But here's something else thats been bringing me down..

I've been having nightmares where I have this beautiful baby daughter named Isabella..and the dream is always the same. I give birth to her..we take pics of her..I annouce to all of my friends that I've given birth..then after I've put her down for a nap..I go and check up on her..and she's missing. The photos are gone..all the baby stuff is gone. I'm freaking out cuz I cant find her. Everyone is starting to think I'm lying about even being pregnant since all the proof is gone. All thats left is the birth certificate. The only one who believes me is Fonzo, and thats cuz he was there. I've had this dream 4 nights in a row..and each time I wake up sobbing. What does this mean????????????? Does it mean, I'll never have a baby??

Hi Francie -- I went to a Dream Interpretation Site and found this on dreaming about babies:

Baby

To see a baby in your dream, signifies innocence, warmth and new beginnings. Babies may symbolize something in your own inner nature which is pure, vulnerable, and/or uncorrupted. Babies may represent an aspect of yourself that is vulnerable and helpless. If you dream that you forgot you had a baby, then it suggests that you are trying hide your own vulnerabilities; You do not want to let others know of your weaknesses.

If you dream that you are on your way to the hospital to have a baby, then it signifies your issues of dependency and your desire to be completely care for. Perhaps you are trying to get out of some responsibility. If you are pregnant, then a more direct interpretation may simply mean that you are experiencing some anxieties of making it to the hospital when the time comes.

To dream of a crying baby, is indicative of a part of yourself that is deprived of attention and needs some nurturing. Alternatively, it represents your unfulfilled goals and a sense of lacking in your life.

To dream about a starving baby, represents your dependence on others. You are experiencing some deficiency in your life that needs immediate attention and gratification.

To dream of an extremely small baby, symbolizes your helplessness and your fears of letting others become aware of your vulnerabilities and incompetence. You may be afraid to ask for help and as a result tend to take matters into your own hands.

To see a dead baby in your dream, symbolizes the ending of something that is part of you.

To dream that you are dipping a baby in and out of water, signifies regression. You are regressing to a time where you had no worries and responsibilities. Alternatively, it is reminisce of when the baby is in the fetus and in its comfort zone. In fact, some expectant mothers even give birth in a pool, because the environment in the water mimics the environment in the uterus. It is less traumatic for the baby as it emerges into the world. So perhaps, the dream your search for your own comfort zone.

Also found this:

Children

To see children in your dream, signifies your own childlike qualities or a retreat back to a childlike state. It is an extension of your inner child during a time of innocence, purity, simplicity, and a carefree attitude. You may be longing for the past and the chance to satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurtured.

To dream that your own grown children are still very young, indicates that you still see them as young and dependent. You want to feel needed and significant.

To dream that you are watching children but they do not know you are there, is a metaphor for some hidden knowledge or some latent talent which you have failed to recognize.

To save a child, signifies your attempts to save a part of yourself from being destroyed.



Hope that helps!

:hug:

Mornin' All. :coffee:

Well I still feel like crappola. :barf: I'm going to call the dr this morning to see when he can get me in, my DH said he will get off at 3:30 pm today and tomorrow, so should be enough time to get to the dr, if they can get me in.......

I hope you all are doing well!

:hug:


Update: I called the Drs office, all they have open is tomorrow at 3:30 pm. So I went ahead and told them to mark me down and I could always call and reschedule if I had too. Figure maybe we can figure something out. Maybe my DH could borrow his mom and dads van or maybe my fil could come and take me if he isn't working. I wish I had a bicycle, I could ride a bike there easy. UGH I hate having one car. I mean I know my husband has his motorcycle and the worse case, I guess he can ride to work but still............we have to get ourselves another car! lol. Its just beginning to get way too cold for him to ride that far. If it were closer, that would be different, he could deal with it for 10-15 min, but he goes all the way downtown, so that is quite a hall from our place. (one reason we want to move)

Originally Posted by Ravengirl:
Heeellloooo!

Hey Chickies! I am sorry about being MIA as well! DH & DD had like FIVE days off so it has been crazy! I am returning with fabulous news though! DH has been declared in remission!! Yay! No more Chemo! The MRI & the Petscan both came up clean!

So glad to hear this Raven... my hub finished chemo in March... had a bone marrow transplant. His will return - the type of cancer he has is incurable. He's been in remission and goes to the cancer clinic today (goes every 2 months) to find out if he still is in remission or not. I've always gone with him; this is the first foray on his own. I'm nervous and so is he because it's always in the backs of our minds. He's been feeling more fatigued than usual (which was one of the symptoms) so we're doubly nervous. His appt is at 10:30 and is usually an hour. He's going to phone me as soon as he gets out. If it's not good news, I'll leave the meeting I'm at and drive into the city (cancer clinic is a 2 hour trip).

Best wishes for you and your hub! Prayers are with you!!

Everyone... if you have a few free minutes today, please keep DH and me in your thoughts, but especially my DH

Originally Posted by Sassy_Chick:
Hi Francie -- I went to a Dream Interpretation Site and found this on dreaming about babies:

Baby

To see a baby in your dream, signifies innocence, warmth and new beginnings. Babies may symbolize something in your own inner nature which is pure, vulnerable, and/or uncorrupted. Babies may represent an aspect of yourself that is vulnerable and helpless. If you dream that you forgot you had a baby, then it suggests that you are trying hide your own vulnerabilities; You do not want to let others know of your weaknesses.

If you dream that you are on your way to the hospital to have a baby, then it signifies your issues of dependency and your desire to be completely care for. Perhaps you are trying to get out of some responsibility. If you are pregnant, then a more direct interpretation may simply mean that you are experiencing some anxieties of making it to the hospital when the time comes.

To dream of a crying baby, is indicative of a part of yourself that is deprived of attention and needs some nurturing. Alternatively, it represents your unfulfilled goals and a sense of lacking in your life.

To dream about a starving baby, represents your dependence on others. You are experiencing some deficiency in your life that needs immediate attention and gratification.

To dream of an extremely small baby, symbolizes your helplessness and your fears of letting others become aware of your vulnerabilities and incompetence. You may be afraid to ask for help and as a result tend to take matters into your own hands.

To see a dead baby in your dream, symbolizes the ending of something that is part of you.

To dream that you are dipping a baby in and out of water, signifies regression. You are regressing to a time where you had no worries and responsibilities. Alternatively, it is reminisce of when the baby is in the fetus and in its comfort zone. In fact, some expectant mothers even give birth in a pool, because the environment in the water mimics the environment in the uterus. It is less traumatic for the baby as it emerges into the world. So perhaps, the dream your search for your own comfort zone.

Also found this:

Children

To see children in your dream, signifies your own childlike qualities or a retreat back to a childlike state. It is an extension of your inner child during a time of innocence, purity, simplicity, and a carefree attitude. You may be longing for the past and the chance to satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurtured.

To dream that your own grown children are still very young, indicates that you still see them as young and dependent. You want to feel needed and significant.

To dream that you are watching children but they do not know you are there, is a metaphor for some hidden knowledge or some latent talent which you have failed to recognize.

To save a child, signifies your attempts to save a part of yourself from being destroyed.



Hope that helps!

:hug:

hmmm...what about missing babies?? Maybe it means something is missing from my life?? AKA A BABY!! LoL!!

I dunno though. I had the dream again last night. Fonzo had to wake me up cuz I was screaming her name in my sleep..:(

I've had a truly awful week but today seems a little brighter. I had a diabetes appointment today at my clinic and it appears my control is getting better and they said considering how things have been for me lately, thats really awesome. They also told me I've basically put back on every single pound I've lost in the last year - but I'm not phased, I've given up on calorie counting and dieting now. Anyway, my parents are taking me away for the weekend to clear my head so that should be nice.

Judo my thoughts are with you & DH.

Iris, you're doing great just hang in there :hug:

we didn't get good news.. the cancer is back

:hug:judomom:hug:
My thoughts and prayers are with you both.

Judo... you and your DH are in my prayers.

Judo, you & your dh in my thoughts and prayers

Hello. Still feel like crappola. At least I see the dr tomorrow.

Francie -- I didn't see anything on there about missing children.........so I dunno? :shrug:

:hug:

Hello
 

I just wanted to say hi to everyone :)
Im trying to lose weight but I totally ate too much break-fast and Lunch
anY suggestions?
I HAVE ONLY 5 POINTS LEFT :/

:grouphug: Judo, I will be saying many prayers for you and your dh. :grouphug:

Judo I am sorry :hug: May you both be surrounded by love & light at this time and I will send strength your way.

Shop - to me the dream signifies that there is a deep part of yourself, something vulnerable and childlike, that you are not "connected to" and is very lost to you. Maybe there are difficult things in your life regarding past hurts or difficulties with friends and family that you are blocking subconsciously or are in denial about to protect yourself. You need to reconnect with these current or past hurts in order to move on and find that missing aspect of yourself. You'll know when the ball starts rolling because the recurring dream will stop. You're dreams are like a file cabinet, they sort out every aspect of your life subconsciously at night and can often help you understand how you feel about things. So, when you realize the cause of this dream, and 're connect' you should stop having the dream and we'll know that your subconscious has 'filed' this particular dream and the cause for it.

Hope this helped a little!

Hi All. :wave:

Big :hug: to all. :)

Good morning Ladies :wave:

Judomom :hug: I'm so sorry sweetie... is there ANYTHING we can do? you know you have our prayers.

Hi Girls... and here's a big ol hug for each and every one of you :hug:


Leenie

Hey Everybody!

Judo...my thoughts are with you and your DH... I have been thinking of you off and on since yesterday and hoping you are both alright. I know what you mean...they say my DHs is incurable as well...he has Astrocytoma Grade 3 (brain cancer) We are nearly 1 1/2 years from his diagnosis... I am scared every day but I try to just focus on the present...that is really all anyone has...the future is guaranteed to noone. He is feeling good, his energy is doing better the further he gets from his last round of Chemo...

Good news Peeps!!! The scale finally moved!!! 2 pds from last week!!! Man! I am in heaven!!! Bounce, bounce, bounce!!!! It has been sooooo long since the weight has been going in the right direction I don't know what to do with myself!!!

Gotta go walk the dog!! :P

luv luv Everybody!!!

Just popping in to say "Hi":wave:
Good to see you Shop and Raven!

Not much new around here. I must have pulled my back and pinched a nerve on Friday. I had to go to the doc on Monday and she put me on a muscle relaxant. And I've been in bed with ice ever since except when I went to the chiropractor yesterday. This morning was weird tho as I was standing by the sink and things started to spin and next thing I know I'm on the floor looking up at the ceiling.:dizzy: Checked my blood pressure and it was sort of low, especially for me. Not sure whats going on there. I do go back to the chiropractor tomorrow. We took DdA's car came out of the shop. It seems its running better, but now sometimes it won't start. I'm hoping its just one of the emergency relays as we had the same problem with our old van. I talked about looking at newer cars, but DdA loves this thing and won't hear of it.

:grouphug: Take care everyone,
K