Heck, I never turn down a sincere hug!

The weather has been gorgeous here since Ike passed by (I almost said "through" but he really only went "by" us), and it's likely to stay this way all week. I hope it's as nice in Houston and Galveston - it might make patching things up go easier.

I've got a busy day ahead...

1. Write one ECE essay.
2. Post my personal inventory list on the blog
3. Scribe that letter to my grandmother (it's written on my laptop, but I want to do it in my own handwriting)
4. Put clean clothes and empty hangers up.
5. Print "reasons to diet" response card and copy list to blog.
6. Read Biology chapter.

I don't think I missed anything.

Hi Girls,

Boss is here today so again, no time to really play

Have a wonderful Wedneday.

Love, Leenie

money stresses me out...esp. when i cant work to help...since it would cost more for me to work because of childcare!!! my mouth hurts....jaw actually...havent done school with kids yet...ughhh....just want to take pain pill and lay down!!! i cleaned the kitchen all up and scrubbed it with the new mop head i got since the other one fell off....i want to go crazy sometimes...ok lata oh and thanks for all the hugs!!

Hi everyone!
Still feeling rather crapy here, I'm blaming some of it on the change of seasons even tho we've been having very nice weather.
Thankfully my tooth isn't as painful as I was expecting, but the gland in my throat on that side is swollen and sore.
Hubby changed the check valve in our septic box yesterday, but because of getting everything pumped out there isn't enough water for us to make sure everything is working properly. It should be, as all he did was change the valve in the pipe and the pump does turn on..?.. He also fixed the pipe under the house for the water softener, so hopefully that won't freeze this winter. Ahh, the fun just never quits. I'm suppose to be washing my floor and making some soup, but just can't quite muster the energy to face today.
Sorry for all the complaining.

Sassy that you can take the training after your vacation. And thanks for the hug, I needed it.

tera you are one busy lady. Makes me really feel like a bum here.

hope, I sure hope everything works out for you. All the temporary seasonal jobs are starting to have job fairs around here.

Hi leenie!

to everyone else!

Well I better go, the day is awasting!
Take care everyone!
K

I need a serious kick up the a$$. Right now I feel like all practicality has left my head and the only thing that would sort my eating out is one of those guys from bootcamp shouting some sense into my erratic head. I'm not actually eating badly, but the need to stick to my calories isnt there at all so I'm just eating as I please..

Argh. Think I'm gonna go take my pup for a loong walk and think this out. (Feel free to type some menacing message in caps at me )

spoz I can't yell at you since I am in the same boat!!!LOL...So yeah good luck with that...i havent kept to my calories in ohhh i dont know 2 3 months but I have still managed to lose some by just not eating a lot...You know what i just thought this week i have wanted to just eat to eat...i realized its like the week before tom comes and i usually just want to eat i gotta nip it in the butt!!! ok talk to you all lata...

and lots of prayers and peaceful vibes for all of you!!!!

Seriously, Mo4. If I had as many li'l ones underfoot as you, I'd be wiped out almost all the time and you're right about childcare - it just wouldn't pay off. Just look at the money you're saving the family by being there for your kids as income and you won't feel so down on yourself, yes? Moms should be free to raise their children without guilt or extra stress!

K, you don't need to blame a crappy mood on the weather. If you've got an infection, that's probably responsible for it. I know physical ailments have an effect on my mood.

Hang in there, Lauren. Maybe you just need to shake things up a bit. What is your calorie restriction, if you don't mind the question?

Oh, and I've only gotten three of the things on that list done. One of them I've decided can wait til tomorrow. Still need to print the card and inventory and put clothes away and B will be home in 30 minutes for us to go over to my aunt's for dinner. Yikes!

Thanks tera,
I went to the docs today and I'm upping the tetracycline that I take for acne and watching the gland. He did give me a prescription for a different antibiotic that I can take if this doesn't work. I just hate feeling the way I have been lately and right now I honestly can't see the end. I know I'll feel better eventually, but right now..........its just dark and I feel so trapped and helpless.

I am so angry,depressed, ticked off, sad, crappy...If you can be all of them at once. I got another flippin speeding ticket. I have even been watching my speed I thought it was a 45 and it was a 40 and I got pulled over. like the last time i was flying so yeah i didnt care but now I have really really been watching my speed and i had no where to go wasnt in a hurry NOTHING and I FLIPPING get pulled over.....I am sooooo ticked off at myself. I just put the baby to bed and went to my room and cried I didnt even want to hear what my dh had to say. He has gotten his share to but still like I don't even want to drive now....Like ewww...the cop was nice and not arrogant or anything but I thought maybe he would give me a warning but I guess not!! they musta been double teaming because there was one already up there and then went back to where they were after he finished that one....it just sucks I dont have the money to pay for the one that I got or this one or most of my bills....Ever had the feeling that your drowning and cant save yourself....I soooo feel like that....My family is so needy and need so much but lack of funds make it hard........ok well I am going to go...i had even got a movie to watch but i dont know cause i am not much in a movie mood....errrrr...ok lata

Hi everyone! today was a pretty good day minus one of my college classes which iCANNOT STAND! but i came home and was bored to death until i logged on 3fc.....now im back to my cheery self! hugs to all

Mo4

Have you looked into any of the family assistance programs in the area? I only ask because you sound like you really need help, and I can't think of anything else helpful to say.

I know it can be hard to ask for help, and sometimes it's even harder to get it it. I know that there's a huge difference between what some programs consider "needy" enough to get assistance and what families actually need, but seriously... have you checked it out?

Theres not a lot around this area. We were on food stamps for a while cause of a high house payment but we aren't any long and that really hurts.....I am up at 1am eating chicken noodle soup i was like craving it and couldnt help it I tried to ignore it...but it wouldnt go away!! I havent had it for a long time and for some weird reason needed it.

Like i was thinking I get to get away this weekend for that retreat (Which my friend and mom is paying for me to go thank goodness!!) Anyways like I know I can push and push and push for my family to do more and they are trying some but I have got to just suck it up and try to be super mom. Like even though I cleaned everything today the house looks completely trashed. The biggest thing is that people leave stuff lay...I am guilty of it also..alot of the time its because I am needed before I am even finished with whatever I was doing...so then I have to back track and clean everything up!! But like I am looking on the floor and there is a cup, water bottle, paper, brush, toy, sock and a part of the babys sandwich...like stuff that coulda been picked up when it was dropped...but no now I gotta take 20-30 minutes to go thru the downstairs and pick everything up and wipe everything up....I need to just get myself in a set schedule that means getting up at a certain time every day. Right now I am dragging myself outta bed and it makes it more miserable....I really just take this weekend and use it as a time to refocus myself in everything...completely...ok well I guess that is all i have for now...im keeping on keepin on!!!

Hi everyone!

Mof4 - xtra I honestly can't believe how much you carry on your shoulders! No wonder you are so tired! Heck, I can hardly haul myself out of bed in the am, and I don't do near what you do each day! I wish there was some way I could come by and do a quick tidy-up for you now and then, although if you saw how messy my house is most days you would NOT think I am qualified.

Lauren - IF I KNEW HOW TO MENACE I WOULD, BUT ARE THE CAPS ENOUGH ON THEIR OWN? Seriously though, I understand how frustating it can be to be where you are. Its great that you are not eating horribly, but remember how easily it can slide - I went from eating the right foods in the right portions, to eating the right foods in whatever portions I felt like, and then bam! not too much later I was back to my whatever, whenever eating plan and my weight went wooosh up a lot. No, I'm not trying to be scary, and I doubt I'm saying anything you don't know first-hand, but for some of us, there just is not much room for flexibility, is there?

Buddly - I'm sorry things are still in the pits. That frankly sucks. And doesn't the acne flare-up just make it so much peachier to deal with? Mine went wacko during the stress of my move and I still haven't gotten it back under control. It was so nice, too, meeting all theses new people with gigantic zits all over my chin - pretty! Hope the tetra kicks in soon and gives it the KO!

Ladybug - Hi!! This board has the same effect for me - instant perking up! What class is driving you bonkers?

Leenie - nice to see ya, even if it was just for the quick hi!

Hope - oh, I hear ya on the money troubles. It really hasn't sunk in for me yet just how broke I am now - no money for gas or groceries. My bigger thought of worry for ya on the new job is the back issue - you only have one spine - take care of it, please?

Sassy - have a GREAT vaca!!!!

Tera - how was dinner at your aunt's?

Well, the scale is moving again, and in the right direction finally! I don't know if its all the biking, or the starting to run again, or maybe the living on a pb&j budget, but whatever it is - woohoo!! I figure in another couple weeks I might be able to get back down to where I was before I fell off the wagon. That would be really nice.

Also, I finally got my kayak in the water again!!!! I got my roll a couple times, although I missed it a bunch too. Still, it was awesome to get back on the water. But holy ouch! My muscles are sooooo sore, in a good way.

Oh my! I just looked at the clock. I better get to bed - I'm exausted, and REALLY need to break my snooz-alarm tag habit in the morning. Why can't I just get up when it goes off the first time? Why why why????

Latas!