Good Morning,

Hope everyone has a great weekend. Boy do they go fast, feels like I never left work friday LOL.

Nothing much is happening in Leenie world, just work, home, school, regular stuff which is good.

Whats shakin with you guys?


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I woke up too early!!! I fell asleep around 2, and woke up at 5:40. Why does that always happen to me? I was paranoid all night too. I thought I heard footsteps on the roof earlier last night. So I was freaked out for awhile.

Anyways..since I'm awake, I thought I'd start cleaning. Then I'm gonna walk to the store. I hope its chilly enough to wear a sweatshirt, cuz all my nice tops are in the hamper, lol.

Just wondering..does anyone else get paranoid, or is it just me?

Morning!

Thunderstorms kept waking me up all through the night Francie, so I'm tired today too

I ate like a fiend all weekend... apparently, despite wanting to lose more weight, my BRAIN thinks this is a good place to maintain!

Nothing else of news, to be honest... how's everyone else?

Heather

its monday morning such an awful day sometimes. Cleaning and getting everyone back into a routine of the week. I need to put more into counting the calories and excercising. I need to plan my days and just put it in the plan. If it means getting up before the kids then I am going to have to lose sleep. It will be worth it in the end. I have half heartedly been doing this so I guess I am ready now to step it up....I dont know I am just rambling but that was what was on my mind. I will only get out of it what I put into it.
Ok well that is about all for right now I gotta go clean some stuff, make phone calls, put thousands of baskets of clothes away, and the list goes on. I love my kids but I HATE LAUNDRY. Like it NEVER NEVER ends in this house. Now that its summer I try to encourage them to wear less...hehe...just so I dont have to wash as much. My husband helps but I always feel bad cause he works so much and then when hes not working he has to help with kids and laundry and cleaning. I know as a stay at home mom that is "MY JOB" but seriously I have 4 toddlers/babies that you cant just let them run and do your thing. They need bottles, food, diapers changed, bandaids, breaking up fights, paper and crayons to draw, made to clean up toys, so much stuff that its very hard to do things some days cause every 2 minutes one of them need something. Some people dont understand me though they think I should do it all myself but I do try it just doesnt always work. With the depression there are just some days I care for the kids and dont care what else gets done. Oh well back to my life.....I gotta go take my medicine so maybe I can stay sane. I am feeling a little out of it cause I missed a dose over the weekend and I can feel it catching up in my system. Have a good day everyone!!! lata
Oh yeah those foot steps would freak me out. My cat is sooo noisy that the one night she woke me up and I thought someone was trying to get into my door on the porch and when I found out it was her I was SOOOOO mad she had scared me something awful!!!

Hola Chickareenos.

Just stopping by to say that work for me was extremely quiet.........

TTYL!!!

Happy Monday ladies,

Momof4: If you ask me I don't think that there is any way that you could do it all. I marvle that you stay sane. I wouldn't feel bad at all to ask for some help. The kids are just too young right now to babysit themselves very long for you to do anything. Big kuddos for all you do.

I took the cat to the vet for the first time today to get some shots. Since he was a stray we don't know anything about his history. Let me tell you, it was like trapping the Tazmanian Devil in a cage. I wasn't sure if I'd live to tell. Turns out that he is healthy, has been neutered (shockingly), and is about 4 yrs old. He is off somewhere outside pouting right now . I'm sure he'll come back though b/c he knows where his bread is buttered.

Now at 2pm I have to take one of the dogs to the vet b/c they are both coughing and congested and need some medicine. They said just to bring one and they'd give meds for two.

I need to mow the grass but it is still crunchy. We need some rain badly. Other than that, I need desperately to work out, I still haven't. The eating is shameful as usual. I also need to get ready for my interview tomorrow.

Francie: Yeah, I get paranoid from time to time. I used to be really bad about it. That's the main reason I used to stay away from scary movies. The cat woke me up the other night breaking into a new bag of cat food. Freaked me out till I figured out what is was.

hope-thanks sometimes I dont do well staying sane. Today I got to a point I just wanted to sit and cry and it was still early in the day.

I folded some clothes but i still have some more to fold and some winter stranglers that need put in there totes. Like when the kids lay down from their nap i really want to just lay and relax and read a book if i am a little tired dose off for a lil bit but then I feel bad because i have house things to do. When i have quiet time I really dont want to be working I would like to relax and get a break in the middle of the day. Usually the laying and reading wins out unless the house is really bad and i cant. My meds. help soooo much in this because I remember mornings of I would get up with them get their brkfst change diaper then lay on the couch till i had to help one of them or something and then get lunch and then all take naps...I dont feel that way anymore thank goodness. but I still have the middle of the day i wanna rest. My husband said last night bout he didnt wanna hear comments about me sleeping till 9am and still being tired because he gets up at like 5. we get about the same amount of sleep because i go to bed later than him. but oh well....i am gonna go read...ttyl..
hope you guys have a better monday than I am having!!!

Morning

I feel like poo today. I think I came down with something this weekend - my throat hurts, I feel too warm, and my muscles are weakie. Ugh. I better get well soon - every day of sick leave I take is one less day of comp time I get paid for when I leave this job. And given that I'll have about a month and a half with no income, eek.

Francie - I used to think I got paranoid, but in the end it turned out people really were out to get me (work stuff - nasty political crap), so I don't know if that means I was really paranoid or not. I know, thats not really the type of thing you meant, but it came to mind I do often get freaked out by noises at night - but what woman who lives alone wouldn't from time to time! Good for you cleaning this morning - puttin that extra time to good use!

Hope - Sounds like you had fun at the martial arts match! Except the sliced eyebrow part. Good luck with your interview! Don't get down about the change in job forecast - it sounded like your last job sucked so bad that any job would be better. I've had friends that really enjoyed working at HD - the pay isn't over the moon or anything, but they seemed to really enjoy their work life and coworkers. For me, thats worth a lot. Oh, and just think of the cals you can burn walking the store!

Heather - Hi, I think I joined you at the stupid-food eating party this weekend. I had such good plans, and yet made such stupid choices.

Momof4 - you have such a full plate! Its lovely that you want to give your hubby down-time when he's not at work, but remember - you need and deserve it too! I figure, you both work all day, so sharing tasks when he gets home seems fair. Its not like you spend the day on the sofa eating bon bons and watching soap operas! Maybe you and hubby can work out a schedule where you can establish certain evenings when one of you gets "down-time" while the other manages the house and kids. The other days you can share the house managing after work. I've found in my battle with depression I have to sometimes treat it like an injury so that I can explain my limitations and establish what "physical therapy" I need to keep it from getting worse. Keep your chin up sweetie! For what its worth I think you're doin great.

Leenie - This site is therapy for me, too! Now don't y'all go sending me a bill. It keeps me grounded to connect with all you incredible ladies who struggle with similar and different issues as me. And it reminds me that we're all part of a bigger whole, and can give a hand when one is needed, and get one in our own turn.

Sassy - glad to hear you are feeling better! See you again soon!

Well, I gotta go find something to eat. I haven't felt much like eating today (for a change), but I'm starting to feel a bit woozy, so I better buck up and find something healthy.

everyone!

Ok, that is too wierd - one of my pups is sick, too! Her breathing sounds aweful, like she's snoring all the time! And her wittle nose is warm Poor baby.

Anywho, hope your pups get well soon!

Okay..I'm sensing a trend with the cats, lol. The other night..my cats ran into the room and started jumping on this bag that was on the floor. And I swear to God, I thought it was some man in the room. It scared the crap out of me!!!!! Freakin cats need to calm down!!! Oh ya..I'm even paranoid when dh is home too. I get used to being alone so much, I sometimes forget that he's there too. LOL!!! Omg..this one time though. He came home from a workup, and since he came home early in the morning, I was still asleep. So he just crawled into bed and went to sleep too. Well..when I tried to roll over onto his side, I ended up rolling into a body, and that scared the crap out of me. I screamed and fell out of bed..and he jumped up and was like..wtf is going on? And I yelled at him to wake me up the next time he comes home early in the morning. LOL!!

shop-that is way too funny!!!!My dh has done stuff like that to me but purposly scares me...LOL

Just finished making dinner and thought I would take a quick break I really want to go for a walk cause its nice and cool after the rain. I gotta finish cleaning up the table....I had a lot of calories left but I didnt count what I had for dinner so I am hoping I didnt go over...Cause I have done great on them today...I am gonna go fold some more clothes her too...You guys have a good time
I hope everyones animals get better!!

sassy-hope your having a good night....I hope work is going better for you and you dont have to listen to those little girls running their mouth!!! I was just thinking about you so I thought I would leave you a little note.
To the rest you all have a good night hope things go well..

Hi everyone!

Busy weekend here. The grad was so nice, long tho. We came back to our place for a ham dinner. Then DdB went to her dry grad at the school from 11pm - 7am. I asked if they had enough volunteers and ended up walking around as "security" till we left at 5:30am. She had a ball, so that was the main thing and I got to know a couple of bored security guards who were hired to watch the one area. Then around noon, hubby, DdA and I met my father and step mother in town and we went to the antique car show and shine. It was pouring rain at first, but cleared up. Then Dad took us out for an early dinner. The other two girls opted to stay home as they were tired and had homework and studying to do. So all in all a very nice weekend and visit. Today on the other hand.....well. I stopped taking my paxil two, three weeks ago and have started "feeling" again. Even had real dreams not the few weird wacked out ones I would get on occasion. Unfortunately the anxiety has returned. I had a dentist appt made for next week, well they called as they had a cancellation. So that really threw me off as it was a new dentist, but it went really well and I really like them. But after I left my moms house I could hear some rubbing in the one tire. And oh, did it sound awful. Then I picked up DdA from work and it quit. Then when leaving the school after getting the other girls it started again and I went off the deep end. Hubby left town yesterday and won't be home until late Wed and DdA has her driving test Wed. Anyway I took it to a garage and he said it could be I rock like I suspected, but it looks like maybe my routers need changing. So I'm hoping thats all it is. Actually writing this all down like this sure does help. DdC has one test tomorrow morning, but at least the school bus is still running. We didn't go to judo tonight as I was beside myself. DdA was very helpful as she helped explain things better than I could to the mechanic. I guess I should make an appt with my doc to see about some other anti anxiety meds as I really need something and since I've done so well getting off of the paxil I don't really want to start up again.

Momof4, just take things one day at a time. You are out numbered and at that age all of you children need so much care. Honestly it should get easier, unless you have them in all sorts of clubs and sports and then you'll go crazy trying to keep up with the schedules. You are doing great. One thing my mil told me to do that really helped her was to put a blanket down on the living room floor and some pillows and then you can all "nap" together. She did that as she had four kids under six and she had to do that. I would put a blanket down and lots of pillows and we would put a movie in and just have quiet time and it sure saved my sanity. I was an only child until I was 15 with a divorced mother so I had no idea how to do this "family" thing. Thank goodness my hubby just says our place is very lived in lol!

France I was the same way with being jumpy and paranoid. if it got to late I couldn't shower, I hated putting my face under the water. Getting the dog sure helped plus now I have something to blame weird noises on!

Hope and Amarie I hope you pups are alright. Sometimes it would help if they could tell us whats wrong. Our Maxie has been snoring a lot lately as well and he has a runny nose off and on. I just figure he caught a spring cold. I was concerned as I found a lump behind his front leg, but it didn't bother him. My sister who has an older dog and use to work at a vet's office figures it just a ....um, I forgot, but it comes with old age and isn't harmful. Her dog has quite a few of them.

Hey Heather, Sassy and Leenie good to see you. And leenie as you can tell this place is my therapy as well! Amazing how writing things out and admitting things to people who understand helps so much. Even if no one really reads the rambling it helps to get it out there.

Well I should go, I had to be up at 5 this morning to take DdA to work and because of going to town and going nuts I have dishes and laundry to finish up!

Take care everyone!
K

Buddly, writing everything out really helps me too. I just want to thank you ladies for listening and caring. I don't know what I would have done this past year without you all. This has been great therapy.

I just realized as I was about to go to sleep that this thread and y'all are just about the first thing I think of when I turn on my 'puter in the am, and often the last thing I want to check in on before I go to sleep. So thank you everyone! There is such comfort in belonging among such beautiful souls! Best therapy ever.