Haha Hope, sorry about that - I was asleep before my head hit the pillow.

OK all, here's the report. I'm all in a whirlwind today post grad school visit. I'm definately going there this fall, barring any major change that stops me. The town was nice, it felt homey and safe which is what I need, and all the people I met (students and faculty) were really nice, and it seemed like I'd known them already. So I think the next few years of my life are going to be exciting, and filled with hard work but also good friends, I hope.

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Anyway, I'm trying to keep perspective on this, and not go overboard. Maybe it was just part of the whirlwind of the trip and the excitement of going to school, and maybe there was no connection on his end, but I don't think so. And I feel terribly exposed and raw even writing this to you girls, which is VERY wierd, cause I normally feel like I can share anything.

Whoa, OK, head realing again. I gotta go get some work done. Anyway, I am soooo glad to be back with my chickies. Have a great week everyone.

Edit: Ack, it got to me, and I had to edit the post, this is so strange. Francie - thank you so much Everyone else, basically I maybe met someone and am highly confused and odd about it, and I posted earlier, but in the end I felt way too naked leaving it up there, so I decided to delete it. Sigh. Who am I right now? OK, so maybe someday soon I'll be less wierd about this and can share again.

Amarie~When you meet "the one" you just know. You dont sound crazy at all.



Just stopping by to say Hi. I'm still feeling down about everything..so ya..I'm gonna go lay down.

I am still on Spring Break, spending my days working on a friend's website. So making money, but super lazy.

But I did go and have a massage today. It was terrible. Normally massages make me feel so good. Instead the therapist was weird, my tight muscles still ache and I am extremely agitated.

I'm not sure why I am so agitated. I guess I am used to some aromatherapy? Just lotion with this place. I went to a new spa because it is associated with my gym and it was not the same as the breezy, new age-y places I've been before.

Anyway it feels like it was a waste of money. The massage was great while I was lying there, but I have not gotten the usual after-effects of stress relief. That's all I was looking for.

ARGH

Hi all - its me again. I'm still being uber strange, but maybe thats just me. Have you ever had one of those days when you feel like the universe is trying to tell you something? I am today, and I feel like writing a note to the universe that says "OK, I get it, I am going to grad school there. You can stop whacking me over the head. Seriously, I get it." I'm not kidding. Just now I looked out my work window and there's a guy standing on the corner wearing a hat from my soon-to-be grad school. And this after a bunch of other stuff, including happening across a classified in my local paper of someone who wants to do a house swap next year and is in the town where I'm going. I better go home, sign my acceptance letter and put it in the mail just so I can get some peace!!!!!!

zoooooooooooooooooooooom ~ ~ ~


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good morning gang

I got up at 5:00 and did 2 miles so I feel good

HEY JOANNE - gosh it's good to see ya!!! I'm so sorry you're feeling lonely and defeated. I think we all get there at times but sure hate to hear you're feeling that way. But I'm so glad that you're here and posting! soooooooo let's chit chat - what ya up to? what's your family up to? what ya eating these days? weren't you doing WW for awhile? it's so good to see ya!

Leenie - I see you "zoomed" in and out of here hang in there girlie and try to take some time for yourself

Amarie - I read your paragraph before you deleted it. You don't sound strange to me at all! The teenagers at church are asking me all the time "how do you know when someone is the one, and how did you know that dh was the one?" and really that is a hard question to answer - or to explain. I always tell them something that I remember hearing years ago....you are gonna meet people in your life that you can probably live with...but you need to marry the one that you CAN"T live without. now the thing is to figure out WHO that is.

Shop - I hope you're feeling better

Jerzy - I've only had one massage in my life and that was while I was in Maui with my sister. Gosh it was wonderful. There was no aromatherapy that I noticed but I didn't really know what to expect. Sounds like you might do better going back to where you were enjoying your massages. Sorry about the one you got yesterday. Enjoy the rest of your spring break girlie.

Hey Sassy! it's good to see ya girlie! come and post even when you don't have much to say - that's fine. We just want you here. When I don't post it's simply bec I'm too dang busy to get in here or to read thru the posts OR to do personals. But I miss everybody when I'm not in here. that's cute about your user name. Sounds like you picked a "fitting one" for yourself if it found you at work too

ok gang well I've got to get to work.
hope everybody has a blessed day!
hugs,
Cathy

Morning chickies!

I am feeling much more myself today, I just decided that being confused and freaked out was just gonna be part of this huge change I'm making in my life and not to fight it so much.

Sassy - you are the queen of Sassy! How funny that you coworkers picked your username up without knowing it! Haha... I'm glad you shared that... Too funny.

Francie - How are you doing today? I've been thinking about you, and worrying if you are OK. PCOS is a pretty big, daunting diagnosis. Remember we are here for you (even when some of us go off the deepend from time to time - who, me?!?). Take care sweetie.

Jerzy - I'm sorry your 'ssage was not the relaxation you needed. My massage therpist moved from aromatherapy oils to lotions this year, and its just not the same Fooey.

Cathy - that is beautiful advice, thank you! And the best part of it is, only time will tell, no? So there's no point getting all worked up right now. The teens you work with must adore you!

Joanne - thank you! I am sorry you are feeling down, but I'm glad you came in here to say hi!

Leenie - you zoom, I putter. Haha. have a good day.

Heather, Buddly-bud, Hope, and all - how is your day?

love you all!

Well..I'm feeling better emotionally. I dunno..yesterday I thought dh was disppointed in me. We had talked and everything the night before and he said he was feeling optimistic about everything..but he ignored me all day yesterday. I was like wtf is going on?!?! I finally ask him what was up, and he said he was just really into the show he was watching (on his comp). So now I feel like I was just being too needy, lol. I hate being a video game & anime widow. I dunno though..I'm still getting weird vibes from him. He was being a jerk all through TBL, and I finally just got sick of it and told him off. I just know that once he's on leave we're gonna get into a huge fight, I can sense it coming. We were being so snippy with each other last night. We havent had a major fight in months..things have been going so good. He has duty today, so he wont be home until tomorrow morning. He's leave starts tomorrow, so we'll see how it all goes.

Physically, though I feel so out of it. Af showed up and is ruining everything. I'm just sooooooooooooooooooo tired. Last night, I sat down on the couch and was gonna read my book. Well, 20 mins later dh is all waking me up and it was like 6pm!!! I read a half a sentence.. Maybe AF is making me super senstive right now??


Anyhoo..I need to go to the post office for stamps..so I'm gonna go walk on over there. I hope it doesnt start raining, lol. BBL

Hi all,

I've been slack I know about getting in here.

Shop I'm going to google PCOS and learn more about it. Good luck on the hubby situation. With AF and everything else you've been dealing with it's hard keep your emotions in check.

Joanne: Good to see you and sorry you are feeling low. It does help to come in here. It got me through last year. I hope to hear about the job today or tomorrow. Thanks for asking.

Amarie: I read your post also before you deleted it and I think that sounds so exciting. Sometimes you just can't explain things, so who cares? Ride the wave and see what happens. You have such cool times ahead of you.

Cathy: I have been walking. I did 2 miles Monday and some other stuff from exercise tv. Today is so nice I think I'll go for a walk outside. Way to go today at 5am. You are an animal.

Leenie: Hi and bye.

Sassy: We've both been a little quiet the last couple of days. Good to see you.

Jerzy: Make that $$ while you can! I don't blame you.

Buddly: I definitely understand the shopping habit. Mine comes and goes. Avoiding stores is my only safeguard.

Heather: Howz the job going?

Well, I'm going to go walk outside I think. Maybe I can clear my mind and work off a few calories.

BBL

Hi everyone!

Just a quick pop in to say Hi and I'm thinking of you all

Nothing new here, I've tried to do some dunging out and I have the recycling all piled in the kitchen, but my van is parked on the road so I'm waiting until "help" arrives from school to cart it all out. Its amazing how big the dust bunnies can grow behind a tin can bucket! I should be scrubbing the tub, but I think I'll sneak off and read the book I got from the library yesterday, does reading count as exercise? Yeah, I didn't think so, one can always try tho, can't they? I don't know how some people can prop up a book or magazine and walk on their treadmills and read at the same time I get nauseous or maybe fall off!

Wow Hope you are doing great with the exercise, Good for you!!

And Cathy, I'm still amazed at you getting up at 5am! I understand, but I'm so not a morning person I can't do it, I have to do mine at night, but then I also like to shower just before bed so it works for me when I get into the habit. (I just need a to get started!!)

Amarie, glad you are feeling better and I'm glad everything is working out with school, how exciting and terrifying!!

Hi Joanne, hope you feel better. Hows your son doing? I hope everything is working out for him.

Shop hope you are feeling better as well. Hormones are just nasty aren't they? Just take it easy.

sassy that's funny about your name, obviously it fits!!

Hey leenie take care of yourself. You to jerzy!

Well I should be off, I'll go put in a load of laundry and pretend to be doing something productive

Take care everyone!
K

My little dancing broccoli man on my signature needs a buddy. But I am stuck stuck stuck. I've had a cold for 2 weeks and it's getting worse before it gets better. I am exhausted.

Any suggestions on exercise with this cold?

Buddly - Its exercise of the mind in my world! Was it a good book?

Hi all - I am feeling even better today. I went for my run/walk LATE last night (8:30ish) so I didn't get to bed on time, but I was able to wake up this am anyway! Well, its back to class today. Yippee! I'll stop by later.

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Well, I'm back. I saw I was last post so just decided to edit. I rode my bike 4.5 miles! Ouchie ouch, but woohoo! I can't believe how out of shape I am considering all my biking/walking/running... oddly, though, that just seems to motivate rather than discourage.

Hope - Thanks! I feel silly now editing that post, since most everyone read it, but it felt like the right thing to do at the time, so I'll just roll with it. I need to stop second guessing my decisions all the time. Seriously. I am sending you happy and hopeful thoughts of a job-related variety!

Francie - aww hun. Arguments with DH can be tough (or so I've heard), and for AF to show up when arguments are starting to brew just makes it even ickier. Just keep keepin on sweetie, take care of yourself and remember that we love you!

Jerzy - the only exercise I like to do when I have a cold is walk. Preferably outside. Anything else just makes me feel ooky, but I know that light walking, etc can actually help you get over a cold faster.

Ciao girlies!