thanks.....:) i keep telling myself that things WILL be better once i see a doctor and get on some meds. i was on zoloft for a few months when i was having panic attacks. they do calm the fears. i just wish i could take a zoloft to go for the checkup.....lol

If you feel you need meds, then that's what you need--there is nothing wrong w/ taking some help from prescribed medicine.

Over a year ago I had the unfortunate experience of panic attacks and severe depression as side effects from another medication. It's kind of a long story...it was supposed to be a once a month for six months hormone injection. After the 2nd month out of no where the panic attacks started. Then the depression rolled in. It was the absolute worst I have ever felt in my entire life. I finally forced myself to the doctor and was prescribed medication. I only needed to take it for a few months, but it was a total lifesaver! (Needless to say I didn't continue w/ the 4 remaining months of injections!)

So, I guess the moral of my story is, don't wait--the longer you wait the worse it feels.

Good Luck!

But isnt it preferable to try and not take medications? We don't know the longterm effects.

And I see post on post from people on various messageboards writing about awful side effects they experience. I'm fully aware what toxic means, I meant it in a nonliteral sense, more as in "stuff we don't fully know what the effects of will be".

Isn't therapy preferable? Much harder though and more time consuming, but we already put so much artificial stuff in our bodies, why put more in that you don't absolutely have to?

however, I am a masochist who doesn't believe life is alright unless im a bit in the Suffering Zone!
emily
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I am a worrier and a fretter. I am also a control freak and totally obsess when things are out of order. I have to make list and everything must be in it's place or I freak. I have suffered from PTSD for years and if I feel like I am losing control I will start to have flashbacks and night terrors. I hate crowds and would be happy if I was alone all the time. I sometimes feel that I am incapable of loving or accepting love. I suffer from insomnia and sleep deprevation. I worry to much about nothing to sleep. I tried therapy years ago for my PTSD but found I could NOT talk about it. I don't take meds and I don't talk to my doctor. I can put on a false front like no one else. Plaster a huge grin on my face and deny anything. Inside I am a wreck. Sometimes I think things like happiness and contentment and love are all fairy tales, at the least they allude me.

I have a pretty bad case of anxiety. I won't work out during the day cause I'm scared of what people will think of me. I have a hard time eating infront of strangers. Just the other day my family and I went to a buffet and I was so scared to go up in line that I had my mom get me the food. I know that sounds crazy but it's like I become paralyzed with fear of what others will think. This doesnt happen often but if I start to notice my own heart beat I will focus on it and start worrying about it stopping......Anyway, that's just a few examples of my anxiety.

I hear you on the not working out in front of others bit. I won't even go into "cool" or fashionable shops sometimes because I'm convinced everyone is laughing at me, thinking "whats that scabby girl doing in here?! Is she lost?"

emily
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