Hi everybody!
This is my first post in the "Depression"- section of the forum....Hope you don´t mind if I join the weekly chat!
Well, maybe a short introduction would be good: I am 26 years now and it feels like I am suffering from Depression since...forever. Actually, I still tend to think that my life has to be this way...I already tried to committ suicide a few times.
Most times, I try to "cure" myself with overeating, i also had issues with alcohol and valium abuse.
I read a lot about depression and I KNOW, that it is a chemical imbalance and it´s not just lack of willpower. But I somehow think that this not true in my case. Every other depressed person in the world is ill, I am just lazy. That´s why I never took ADs.
At the moment, things are going really though. I have my final exam in 14 weeks. Bad, because I don´t have the energy to get up and learn. Ok, learning is totally unnecessary- my mind is so cloudy, I can´t remember what I read a few minutes ago....
And it doesn´t go away- no matter how clean I eat, how much I exercise or if I take my vitamins. I do all that, but I still feel horrible.
Plus (I guess that´s: th icing of the cake) I have a very painful Temporomandibular joint disorder (TMJD, TMJ or TMD or TMJ syndrome) since five month. So my jaws, all the facial muscles around are really hurting. Unfortunately, a surgery seems to be the last option for me
Interestingly, ADs are also used to help with pain. One physician gave me Amitriptilin (50mg, had to take it with an opiod). I rarely felt that bad in my life. The side effects were horrible! And I was a bit freaked becaused of the "promised" weight gain. So I didn´t took at again....
Anyway. The next try would be Cymbalta. I already have the pills here, but I want to speak with my dentist about it before i take it. And I have a exam/ presentation next Friday- so I think I´ll wait eight days.
I am a bit thrilled: there is a chance that there is a solution which reduces my pain (it´s really a lot of pain) and it helps with my depression the same time. I am really afraid of all the side effects, but on the other hand it could be a life saver for me!
Ok, that´s was a very looong short hello!
Kate
