Man do I EVER know how you feel. I have binged pretty much my whole life, but when I was about 20 I started purging (I'm now 45) - and this year I have managed to not purge AT ALL. Now I'm working on ending the bingeing (sure to be harder) - but take it from me, with a whole lot of determination, you can stop the purging....

Charlotte,
Remember, the cup can be either half empty or half full. 6 of those days may have been purge/binge days, but 6 of them were good days. Focus on the good days! :)

Keep thinking that way! Because it's true...for me AND for you:cool:

Hello! I'm new to this forum.

I've had a habit of binging for my whole life, but I've recently started purging this summer, a few times a week, and I'm trying to stop. It's definitely a day to day thing.

I had a normal dinner tonight, but the food was very filling and my stomach hurt after I had let it sit a bit, and all I could think of on the way home was purging, but I didn't, and I hope I don't in the future. I try to think of all the bad things it does to my body...like my teeth which I am completely vain about. Ugh.

Anyway, no one knows about this, and it's nice to be able to confess somewhere where people understand and are so supportive!

question to myself- what do i consider binging?
hmm certainly it wasn't the plate of spaghetti i had for breakfast + chinese food for lunch + cheese danish for a snack + my chinese leftovers for dinner + 7 potato bites that im not sure why i bought from arby's i had all in one day?

My Binge was The worst!! My oldest sister sent us all her Huge bags of leftover halloween candy and wheni came back from work yesterday i sat in front of the tv AND AT A HUGE bag of snickers, twix, m &m's and a whole bunch of other rubbish! God Why the **** do we do that?!?!??!?! :(

Today is another horrible day for me. I awaken after falling to sleep for a few hours with the promise not to binge eat. I lied to myself. I just finished binge eating. But I stopped myself, came here to share with anyone that I packed the rest of that trigger food in a trash bag and I am heading out the door to throw it away. I brought that candy yesterday so I wasted my money. But I told myself I rather for that junk to be in the trash rather than in me.

One success I have had is I refuse to purge. I am going to stay full,think about how miserable I am today and move on.

I am so thristy but I don't have any room in my stomach for water. Pretty sad of how I mistreat myself. But I am going for therapy because I am tired of being sick with this disease.

This alone shows a lot of strength. Kudos. :)

Also, it probably is good that you are going to go to therapy for this. I already see a shrink but I think that I might go to a ed/dysmorphia specialist for these issues "on the side."

Ick Ick Ick!

I got through the Christmas buffet ok. But I had to take leftovers home didn't I? :rolleyes: So after doing my kickboxing I came home and ate leftovers, then ate a 113kcals chocolate :faint: THEN ANOTHER CHOCOLATE, then more chocolate, then a big bowl of cereal! :faint: :doh: :kickbutt: Something just clicked... Bah!

I don't even know why I binged last night. :mad:

Today I'm doing ok though, 4 healthy meals under my belt so far, just another 2 to go, and throw out the choccies that I don't particularly like, and to get rid of the flamin 5lb box I've just been given! :doh: :doh: :doh:

2 day blur of food
 

I don't even remember what I ate to confess it all. I know today, that all along the way I kept telling myself "Throw it away. Don't eat it!" I didn't listen. I ate my way through the entire day yesterday and today. I hate hiding what I eat from my husband. I bought junk and put it in the trunk of my car. I went down to the parking garage (telling my husband some lame excuses to go) in order to eat it. I told myself the entire time. "this is ridiculous and disgusting." I felt hung over this morning. So started another day of one bite after another. I hate seeing the scale go up and thought how I maintained my weight instead of gaining it in the past when I purged. I know that I feel better when I eat healthy and exercise normally (not overdoing it). I know: Just because you didn't see me eat, it doesn't mean you don't see the effects of it. (weight gain, irritable attitude because I am angry at myself, distraction because I am counting calories or thinking of what to eat next or too uncomfortable, lack of motivation to do anything that I enjoy because I feel yuck about myself, negative health consequences that will burden my children as I get older, disconnection from and dishonesty to the people I love) I just wanted to come on here to bring my behavior to the light (out of the parking garage) and remind myself that I like eating healthy and appropriate amounts of food. I like exercising and spending my day focused on things other than food. Food is not the only thing I am interested in. My weight isn't all there is to know about me.
How much is my happiness worth? More than the cost of those cupcakes? Throw them away!! Be healthy...be honest.... love myself... binge free days are a result of individual decisions. One decision at a time leads to a binge free hour, which leads to a binge free day, which leads to a binge free week......

Thanks for letting me share my sugar and fat soaked thoughts!

ugh every week i promise myself that i will never binge again... i have binged once this week and overate twice. Its sad that i cant get over this. So if i have to be on this board 24/7 i'm going to do it. I cant stop eating and that means i keep on gaining weight. I AM NOT GOING TO BINGE EVER AGAIN! you guys have my word

I am glad I found this thread. (I think.) I have NEVER posted what I REALLY eat in any given day, except the first day or 2 of a diet when I succeed and post my menu somewhere (possibly with a little white lie or two).
I'm not sure how posting what I really eat will make me feel or how it could help me but I'm willing to give it a try.
I have 2 different types of days, there are days I binge and days I just eat too much and the wrong things. Those days seem to be the equivalant of normal to me.

Today was:

2 pieces rye toast w/ PB
hazelnut latte
breakfast at Ricki's (actually lunch time).... 2 eggs, bacon, 3 pancakes, almost ate them all
several chocolates kicking around
mcdonalds (gag) 2 cheeseburger meal /w coke which upsets me because i have an almost no pop rule, one every couple months is ok but ive had more lately, and I REALLY don't want to eat fast food!
bowl of cereal
there is some cozy shack chocolate pudding in my fridge and i just know I'm having some before bed.

That actually wasn't too bad of a day for me, if I posted for yesterday, when I was in the truck all day, all the Christmas baking I had with me...oh god...

sigh

ohmygoodness, that is the first time I have EVER put in words all in one spot what I have truly eaten in one day. I think I just scared the **** out of myself. Do I really eat that garbage? ughhh

Well time for some accountability...

The other day I went with my family to a salad buffet place. I made a lot of effort to fill in on vegetables, but they had dessert there and I had a ridiculous amount. Then I purged even though I did not want to, and I really tried and thought that I would eat only healthy while I was at the place.

And then yesterday I was snacking throughout the day when I wasn't hungry and I had a really huge dinner. I then decided I still wanted food, even though I was pretty much full, and topped off my stomach with a peanut butter and honey sandwich. I don't know why I did that! And I told myself while I was eating it, I would not purge it because if my body wanted it, then fine. But then as soon as I ate it, I felt incredibly full and sick, and I purged.

This is not healthy! I don't know why I'm doing this to myself. When I have a good day and eat salads and lean proteins, I'm fine, but as soon as I put something "bad" into my body, it's like I have to punish myself by purging. But I made the choice to eat it, so I don't know why I can't just accept that choice and move on.

anyway, HUGE thanks to everyone on this thread. Knowing that other people are fighting the good fight (so to speak) with me is really helpful.

My first time here. I found this site tonight as I was slowing down eating, because I was so full.

I've been rotating between a big bag of rippled potato chips and a 12-oz jar of dip. A box of 8 choco-something Pop-Tarts. A tub of fake guacamole and some stale mini-pita breads.

This is at least my 4th binge this week. I'm 80 pounds overweight.

Hi everyone,
I am new here. I started a diet this morning and decided that I needed to find a weight-loss community so that I could have some accountability. I am 19 years old, am 5'8" and weigh exactly 200lbs. I am so tired of being overweight. I just want to be healthy. Anyway, I never considered myself a binger until I saw this thread. I am exactly like you all. I am usually a light eater, but I would say about once I week I eat and eat all day long, even when I am not hungry. When I am emotional, I eat even more. I need to lose about 25lbs to be out of the "overweight" category so that is what I am trying to do. Here is to a binge free week!