Oh well, I guess we have the same topic at the moment, Ms. Cate....
I lost around 7 kg, been down a few dress sizes and gained fat free muscles and overall fitness. Just in that moment when my weight loss and changed body became visible, I started agai with bad food choices, stopped exercising...and I got ill.
I figured out that the biggest factor in my "relapsing" was the fear of being thin. I have the dumb thought that thinness= perfection as well and being thin means being sexually attractive...And for me, being overweight was and is an excuse. If people donīt like me, they donīt like me because I am overweight- if I would lose weight, they would like me....But what would happen if I would be skinny? There would be still people who dislike me, but there is no "excuse" for me anymore...
Ok, I have a bad time expressing myself today....Do you know what I mean??
I just wanted to say that the fear of being thin is my biggest obstacle...
Donīt kow how to overcome it, but I am trying an experiment today: I try to think of how I would react if I would be thin, what would I wear, what would I eat, what would I do...and do it. I guess one way to overcome that fear is to have a look on what is frightening you about being thin and working on making that things "ok" for you.
Ok, I need more tea until I can write properly....
I have no web- recources (but I will research), but would highly recommend the books from Susie Orbach.
Feel free to PM me- I am able to write more clever things when I am really woken up...
Kate