Awwww Ellis HUGs to you!!
I do wish i could send just a portion of my mood to you guys this week! you guys have been great and support not only me but all the others on this thread so I wish just once I could make bingy days easier for you guys!
Harpo I have never had buffalo can't imagine that I will ever get the chance either but its good your cats like it...as for the cookie dough...bake them and take them to some one less fortunate or something
I am still feeling strong today I hope it lasts...Not up to my challenge to myself on exercise but 1 thing at a time here.
I AM majorly craving plain potato chips with mustard right now but its also close to dinner time so I could be just getting hungry...
Ellis do you find that you get snacky and bingy not just days for for like 2 weeks before your TOM? I am wondering because I DO....2 weeks before I start I feel like I can eat a house most days.
Okay I confess.........I started out today totally with good intentions and blew it! We went out to eat with a friend of ours whom we haven't seen in a while and I messed up. I had a salad, then had pasta and instead of putting half or more into a box right away, I ate most of it AND shared dessert with my husband!
On our way home I felt sooooooooooooo bad and for the first time in my life I wanted to "purge" I didn't, but boy did I ever want too! I came home and my husband and our friend was working on the computer so I went back and lied down (I know another mistake) but I felt so bad. After I lied down for a bit I felt better. But I drank reg. pop. I just feel like a big ole FAT failure! I just can't seem to get this right! AND it didn't help that my fil made a comment today, "that we ALL could stand to eat healthier and LOSE weight" I know he was making a statement and wanting us all to be more healthier, but it made me feel bad because it was because he saw the band-aid on my hand and asked what happened. I told him I had my blood drawn for my A1C (checking my blood sugar -- I'm a diabetic). So he said that comment RIGHT after that!
I want to do better but it seems like every time I try, I just set myself up for failure!
Well I've taken up enough of your wonderful ladies valuable time!
Okay I confess.........I started out today totally with good intentions and blew it!
Oh, isn't that how it always is? It is for me, anyway. I never wake up in the morning and think, "Man, I'm going to eat myself out of house and home today!" but it happens anyway I woke up yesterday with every good intention. I was going to go walking, eat propoerly, drink plenty of water...well, I kept my word on some of those goals. I did drink over 3 liters of water yesterday. I did go for a walk--unfortunately, it was to Subway and back I tried to be good at Subway and get wraps instead of bread (fewer calories), but as luck would have it, they were OUT of wraps! So I ended up with my 12" chicken teriyaki on honey oat bread and not 1, not 2, but 3 cookies (at something like 400 calories EACH).
I also had 3 slices of provolone cheese, probably about 3 servings of SunChips, a yogurt, a fudgesicle, and some pineapple chunks all in addition to the Subway meal after work yesterday (plus the 2 slices of pizza I'd had for breakfast). All in all, there wasn't a lot of actual junk food, but it was still just entirely too much food (ending the day at a bit over 3700 calories).
New day, new plan...onward and downward
Buffalo, eh? Must say I've never had the, umm, pleasure...
And yeah, TOM is absolutely, positively EVIL I think once I've had all the kids I want to have, I won't just get my tubes tied--I'll just have everything girly removed
Same here I did really well last night until my Aunt came over and then I blew it! My triggers are anything stress related and she came over last night and was wanting a pity party for herself ..umm hello #1 you are drunk #2 it was you that wanted the divorce...then to add to it she tells me that I am "taking the kids childhood away" by not letting them eat more than 4 of the cookies she brought into my house for them. OK it was 9:00pm and they had to get in bed, normally they wouldnt eat this late but she insisted....it was right after she left that I started eating cookies. Lost count at 10....I was sick with myself
My point? we all wake up and say I AM GONNA DO IT TODAY!!! and I did yesterday...I felt awesome ate awesome but then....Stress. All it takes is our trigger and our good day turns bad Its not exactly our fault, I mean we can fight it but why? I don't know about you girls but trying to keep myself from binging hurts...like not pain but just hurts..not sure how to explain myself here.
I mean seriously read my posts on Page 3 and how great I felt and how awesome I was doing then keep in mind that 3 hours after my last post last night I was planning what to binge on when the dreaded aunt left. and when she left I had my night coffee and scarfed down cookies!!! GRRR but today is new...I feel like crap from the late night binge but I will turn it around, start feeling better, then work out and move foward.
Good luck ladies You are all in my thoughts and prayers today...lets have a binge free day
I can confess a binge that NO ONE has yet to ~ I've been bingeing on buffalo. Weird, huh? Buffalo burritos to be exact. My sister brought me a HUGE bowl of ground buffalo (which is delicious by the way) and I've been eating on it for the past couple of days. Finally, I said enough is enough and I threw it to my outside cats. So no more buffalo. And then I drive by our town's resident buffaloes, and then I feel guilty for eating their cousins.
Harpo~Ok, it's official--you get my vote for most unusual binge! The closest I've ever come to buffalo is the song---"oh give me a home where the buffalo roam...."
I am officially in the running for most healthy binge! If an "apple a day keeps the doctor away" ---I won't need to see a doctor EVER! Nah, I didn't binge---I was just trying to save on healthcare!
Yup, I had a day of apple bingeing! Big apples, little apples, green apples, yellow apples and red apples. I lost count at EIGHT big apples! I recorded it all in fitday and was amazed to see that I consumed over 400 carbohydrates for the day! Very little protein and fat. Probably WHY I was so starving even though I had about 2000 calories for the day! Duh, I do KNOW better. But once I start crunching on apples, well, binge beast takes over! I'm trying to sedate the binge beast with lots of protein and a little fat. Basically, trying to eat a BALANCE, instead of all carbs!
LeaLee~Sorry to hear about your Aunt! Sounds very stressful---especially trying to be "nice" to someone who doesn't really deserve it(sorry if that sounds mean)! I am an Aunt to 3 gorgeous neices and I can't imagine EVER telling their parents what to feed them--ever! In fact, when they BEG me for stuff---like cotton candy, I always ask their parents first. I'm glad to spoil them, but NEVER want to step on their parents' toes.
Flady~ We ALL mess up sometimes! But you are NEVER a failure! You are aware of what you are eating and how you need to change, instead of just burying your head in the sand and ignoring your behavior. You are posting here for support. You've taken LOTS of postive steps in the right direction! You will get there!
Jilly~ WTG on the water and walking! Subways sounds good---yummm.... Today's a new day!
Ellis~ sorry you had a rough day! I do the SAME thing---when I don't eat breakfast, the binge beast escapes and goes wild! I hope you're having a better day today!
Thank you LeaLee and Ellis for being so kind, I don't deserve it but I really appreciate it.
LeaLee- stress always triggers a binge for me. Luckily I'm on summer vacation and I have nothing to stress out over so I haven't binged for a few days. But I do want to really bad. I'll try to beat it though. I hope you managed your binge-free day.
Ellis-you made my mouth water when you mentioned Pringles. They are the devil. I hope you're doing better.It always happens for me that I have a great day but then I blow it at night. It's very irritating.
Harpo- I don't think buffalo is even available in Ireland. Does it taste like beef? And choc chip cookie dough sounds really good.
Telemetrynurse- I have been known to binge on healthy foods before. Its so annoying when you realise after 2 bananas, 4 apples, a bowl of grapes, an orange and a bag of lettuce that you could have had half a pint of ice-cream or 2 bars of chocolate. Such a waste.
Anyway I'm going to surf the web pointlessly to avoid a binge.
Bye,
Maria
I was not that "good" of a girl today either, BUT good thing is I was outside walking and SWEATING, so that has to account for something.
Hub wanted Burger King. Now we walked in, and I saw they had a grilled chicken sandwich, I thought, okay I can get that. But oh noooooooo I had to get not a Whopper Jr, not a Whopper, but a Dbl Whopper and w/ cheese! BUT the good part was neither one of us even finished not even HALF of our meals! We THREW most of our meals away! I know that is wasteful, but at least we did NOT eat it ALL! I told hub I think if we do happen to get fast food (I know not the greatest idea) but if we do, we should get kids meals. But at least its a sign that our appetites are DECREASING and that is a GOOD thing to me!
to everybody here who needs it right now and lots of
So, how did everyone's day go TODAY?? Better, I hope. YAY!! Not in here to confess, but to do personals!!
Sharon Unfortunately, I ate the cookie dough. I actually usually make cookies and give them to my sister and her family, but I ate it all instead. And, I know they have to have buffalo in MO, you are right next to us, they don't have to ship it very far. Do try it if you come across it, it's leaner than beef (but I piled cheese and sour cream on mine ) therefore rendering it unhealthy.
Your aunt sounds really messed up. Have you thought about giving her an intervention? Every male relative in my family (BOTH sides) is an alcoholic, some are recovering and some aren't, but AA does wonders . . .
ellis I hope you had a better day today.
flady You are like me, up at all godly hours (*noting your second to last post*) I'm sorry you've been having a rough time, but hey, not finishing ANYTHING is a victory in my book. It's a rarity among bingers. We are the original members of the "Clean Plate" club.
Jill Buffalo is great. Very pleasurable and healthy when you eat it plain Sorry little dumb prairie humor there. Nobody got it, did they? I tickled myself, boy I'm a dork. WOW, Subway's cookies are 400 calories EACH? That is madness. Are they extra big or something?
I don't know if you were serious about getting a hysterectomy, but almost all of the women in my family have had one, and 1) it threw them directly into menopause (hot flashes and all) and 2) one of them went mad (not even joking). I've never heard of anyone having a pleasurable experience after getting a hysterectomy. My personal conclusion is that it's pure ****.
Elizabeth You do know that song is my state's official song, right? We sang it every week in music class. Home on the Range!!!! And here's more titilating tidbits to bore you into unconsciousness: Our state bird: Meadowlark. State flower: Sunflower. State tree: Cottonwood; First city of Kansas: Leavenworth (wonder how I know that?) Capital: Topeka ; Governor: Kathleen Sebelius. We have one of the most famous state songs. Every one knows ours, and no one knows anybody elses. Am I right?
Apples, huh? I've overdone it with apples, but tangerines are my downfall. Oh, yes. But you could have had cake or something, which would have been carbs AND fat.
Maria Buffalo tastes much like beef. Have you ever seen a buffalo in Ireland? Do they have them there? I remember seeing a bunch of sheep around Mont St Michel and pigeons in Paris. And I saw a dog at Gatwick. I'm pretty sure that dog was Scottish. Those are the only foreign animals I have seen. You've got a lot of sheep in Ireland, don't you? You don't eat them, though, do you? And HAGGIS!!! Do you eat haggis, or is that Scottish? No, that's Scottish, right. Well, close anyway. I got some haggis one time and it was the most disgusting blob of grossness I have ever seen in my life. I almost threw up. I can't think of any regional Irish dishes I could ask you about.
HarpoChicoGroucho - thanks! Yes it is a big success to me because I've always been a part of the "clean plate club". So its HUGE for me.
You know what I was actually DREAMING of apples, I don't even like apples unless they are cooked! But I was dreaming of eating a raw apple! What is up with that? lmao!
I have been feeling like bingeing the whole day long....and I haven't yet but I am afraid that now is the time that I am going to do so.
What I am going to try to do:
- eat very very slowly.
-stop thinking about work as I am eating as it will only make me more stressed
- allow myself some potato chips ( been dying for them ) but not the whole pack.
- chew my food and taste it before swallowing.
-Dont' watch TV while eating.
I definitely ate alot. Feeling pretty disappointed with myself. Been telling myself continuously that if I want to lose weight, I will have to deal with the 'pain' of not using food as an emotional outlet.
Sigh......seems like I am back to square 1 again. this suxxs. Always going in circles and never progressing. I move up one step, slide back 4, move up one, slide back again. when will this ever end?
so tired of telling myself tomorrow will be a better day. But tomorrow will be a better day right? I may have eaten more today, but that does'nt mean that i have to 'blow it' and continue stuffing my face with food.
I definitely need a fruit detox tomorrow. only fruits tomorrow. Need to cleanse my system.
centrestage88, the same thing just happened to me. I had a great week where I was satisfied with what amounted to very little food...followed by a big binge, and now even though I'm not bingeing, I am definitely eating more at each meal.
I don't know what causes this. I think maybe sometimes when we're "not bingeing", we are actually secretly restricting and are just sort of in denial about it. So when we DO eat (like a binge), we can't "re-set" ourselves to eating those very small quantities again--because our bodies don't want us to starve.
Does that make sense? It's one of the possibilities I've been entertaining since last Thursday's big binge.
I know it's hard.
I think so too. Such a fine line between healthy eating and 'secret restricting'. Still haven't found a balance. such a struggle.
I realize that I am either hungry, very full or extremely full. Never in the middle, never just satisfied. I' always at one extreme or another.
I know that is wasteful, but at least we did NOT eat it ALL!
I used to always eat my food because tossing it would be "wasteful" (I think many of us are raised to believe that), but then someone on here mentioned, isn't it just as wasteful for someone who doesn't need that food to eat it? What a lightbulb moment! Basically, that food was unnecessary, so it would have been wasteful either way whether you ate it or tossed it, so at least by tossing it, it won't end up on your hips
Harpo--definitely kidding about the hysterectomy I would never undergo a major surgical procedure voluntarily, especially one so drastic and body-altering. Just whining about TOM and the perils of being a woman Anyway, glad to hear you weren't here to confess...means you had a good day, right? Yay!
centrestage--I hear ya on being either hungry or full, no in-between. It's really hard to learn to eat before we feel hungry...for me, anyway, because feeling so hungry is often what leads me to binge. In any case, you're absolutely right--tomorrow WILL be a better day
As for me, I am pleased to say I had a binge-free day yesterday I ended up with only a little under 1300 calories for the whole day--WOOHOO! At my weight, I don't need to be that low every day, but considering how high I've been lately, I needed that I've got a great plan in place for today as well, and I WILL stick to it!
We went out to eat with a friend of ours whom we haven't seen in a while and I messed up. 
I woke up yesterday with every good intention. I was going to go walking, eat propoerly, drink plenty of water...well, I kept my word on some of those goals. I did drink over 3 liters of water yesterday. I did go for a walk--unfortunately, it was to Subway and back 
I tried to be good at Subway and get wraps instead of bread (fewer calories), but as luck would have it, they were OUT of wraps! 
So I ended up with my 12" chicken teriyaki on honey oat bread and not 1, not 2, but 3 cookies (at something like 400 calories EACH).
I think once I've had all the kids I want to have, I won't just get my tubes tied--I'll just have everything girly removed 
I just wrote a huge post and my Firefox crashed!! 
to everyone!
BUT the good part was neither one of us even finished not even HALF of our meals! 
We THREW most of our meals away! I know that is wasteful, but at least we did NOT eat it ALL! I told hub I think if we do happen to get fast food (I know not the greatest idea) but if we do, we should get kids meals. But at least its a sign that our appetites are DECREASING and that is a GOOD thing to me! 
Sorry little dumb prairie humor there. Nobody got it, did they? I tickled myself, boy I'm a dork. WOW, Subway's cookies are 400 calories EACH? That is madness. Are they extra big or something? 
I ended up with only a little under 1300 calories for the whole day--WOOHOO! At my weight, I don't need to be that low every day, but considering how high I've been lately, I needed that 