Is there any hope for me???
 

I am up to my limit of how much I can take. I just don't know what else I can do. I've tried everything - talking to a therapist, going on a diet, reading as many books as I can find... NOTHING helps. I still eat a lot. I eat until it hurts. I just hate myself. I feel like there is nothing else that I can do. I guess I just need to learn to live with the fact that I am just always going to be this way... Is that true though? It seems so hard to believe that :(

No one knows. I don't have the courage to tell anyone. I'm scared they will be ashamed to be my friend. It's just so hard to live this way. I just want to eat normal. I just want to be normal. I just want to distance myself from food, but that is nearly impossible. I'm just so frustrated and don't know what else to do.

Will I ever like myself? Will I ever be healthy? I feel like my eating has gotten so much worse because I'm just not happy. This is just pure ****.

Sorry to be such a depressing post, but I just don't know what else I can do :(

First of all I commend you for coming on here and telling you story. Second, how long did you see a therapist? How long did you try diets, and what kinds? Where they even realistic??? What books have you read? Don't you give up yet, you may have just not found what you need yet. Don't be ashamed either! You are not alone by any means!!! And ultimately it is up to you if you will even like yourself. You have a couple choices you can either accept yourself fully or change things. You being healthy is also up to you. Just don't give up hope!

Thank you for your honesty and response. I saw a therapist for about 4 months weekly. I was doing good, or so I thought, but then I found myself not being truthful during the sessions and then felt like I should stop wasting money. The crazy thing is, I don't even want to eat. I'm not even hungry most of the time. It's just that something good or bad will happen in my life and I either want to celebrate with food or drown myself in it to make whatever bad happened go away. Is anyone else like this? It's so hard to get out my feelings because I just feel so alone :( It's so pathetic of me. It's like "Why don't I have strong enough willpower to just stop eating"

I've been dieting on and off since college. I've tried Nutrisystem, Atkins, South Beach, low fat, counting calories - I feel like I've done everything. It's so hard to stick to something especially when you are around others who aren't eating like you. I guess I put too much pressure on myself and if I mess up and eat something that I am not supposed to, I will be convinced that I just messed up the whole day, so why not eat whatever I want whenever I want. I know that my thinking isn't correct...

I've read books on the above diets, I've tried reading some binge eating books such as: Overcome Binge Eating, The Truth about Beauty, books from real life people journaling their ways of eating... I just haven't found something that I could get too much info from. MOst of the time, I'm just so confused and I just binge more.

Deep down I want to accept myself fully, but i don't know what that means. I don't know how to do that. I want to be healthy and I want things to change, but how in the world does this stuff happen????

Hi Pink -

I feel horrible about the way that you feel about yourself. You and I are very similar and I just wanted to say how sorry I am that you are feeling this way right now. I wish that I could tell you the magic cure, but I have to agree with the other post about deciding to make a change in your life. Just start off slow with baby steps. If you want, you can pm me and we can talk... I just want to reach out to you and make you feel better about yourself.

Good luck.]

But God
 

After reading your post. If you would give Jesus a try. You would find you did the best thing you could have done for youself. If you want me to lead you to Him. Just let me know. I will be more than happy. He loves you and wants you to love you too. :hug:

hi pink,
you and i sound a lot alike, i have been battling with food since i was a little girl. i know i will struggle with this all of my life. just telling you what to do isn't the answer really. we're all here to support you but ultimately you have to find the power inside to start the changes. looking at the whole big picture was very hard for me too. i have a lot of that all or nothing mentality. i find that taking control of one small aspect and building on it is the best way for me to re-gain control. i don't know if that is something that will work for you or not. coming here for support is a very positive step in the right direction. not sure what else to say except that you aren't alone in this!!!

Hi pink! :)

If you dont mind me asking, what foods do you binge on? One of the things that made it easier for me was to stay away from my binge foods at all cost in the beginning. I know it is not easy at times but if you go a few days away from your normal binge foods, it helps you begin to believe in your self because you feel more in control. Once I felt in control I wasn't so hard on myself because it felt possible that I would not be this way for entire life.... I could finally start seeing a light at the end of the tunnel.

I believe its the little things that happen and continue to happen that starts putting you in more control and closer to not binging as much.

I hope this helps because it is one of the things that has really helped me. :)

Thanks to everyone that posted a message for me. It's nice to know that people care, even though we don't know each other.

Sarah: You asked what I binge on. I guess the question should be what do I not binge on. Anything loaded with carbs, candy, chips, chocolate, bagels, tortillas, dips, pizza, donuts, just anything. I've thought about staying away from foods, but havne't actually tried it. I just give in too easily and I am afraid that by depriving myself I will just want it more. You said in the beginning though - Does that mean that you can eat the foods now that you avoided before? I am really glad that you noticed that you wouldn't be that way forever. That is what I want to feel too. Thanks for sharing what helped with you.

Jodi: It's nice to hear that there is another person like me. The all or nothing mentality of mine definitely needs to change and you and Sarah both mentioned getting in control of tiny things. I will try to start that and keep it up throughout the day.

Thanks again both of you for the good advice :)

As Turtledove says, God has been the solution in my life also. God DOES love you; and WE care too!

Hi Pink!

You asked, " can eat the foods now that you avoided before?"

Well, I've allowed myself to have whatever I want but only when I am with someone else. I found that this does not deprive me and also keeps me safe from becoming a full out binge. Its funny though, I dont even find my self wanting the same junk food that I used to. I am enjoying being and eating healthy. I have really learned a lot about my self over the last couple of weeks after reading kristin's book. I admit the first month without binging was so hard, so I started writing everything down. I found that really helped me, and maybe that will help you too. :)

Same here Sarahberry... I don't "deny" myself any of the foods I really want; BUT when I am eating healthful foods I stop WANTING the junk; and even when my "body" wants it and I am tempted I don't REALLY want it because I want my health and to lose weight even MORE! And there is something special about having said "no thanks" and turning it down... the good feeling from THAT lasts MUCH longer than the good feeling from having eaten it!

Good morning everyone :)

Misti: God is in my life and I know that he loves me. Thank you for reminding me. I guess I just need to learn how to deal with everything and incorporate Him in it. It's just hard sometimes - especially when I just feel so down. It's hard to seem positive about anything sometimes... Here's my promise though: I'm going to try everyday. Really try to turn over my problems and ask for help. I do really want to change my ways and change the way that I feel about myself. It's so easy to wish for a quickfix, BUT I know that is not the answer and there is no such thing.

Sarah: Thanks for your post again. It's so nice to hear about someone who is a step ahead of me. It encourages me. You and Misti both mentioned the fact that when you guys are eating healthy, that you don't crave the bad stuff. I just want to get to that point too. I want to feel that special feeling of turning down food. Last night I ordered a pizza, but I only ate 3 pieces, which was a start I guess. I need to not be so hard on myself too.

It's been so nice talking to you guys on here. I do feel support, which is something that I haven't felt before. It feels nice to be reminded of things tat I know and to hear stories from people that are ahead of where I am right now.

Thank you to everyone that has posted on here for me. I will continue to check this and hoepfully more people can write in what has helped them. I really appreciate it.

Oh, sarah, you mentioned something about "Kristin's book"? Is that the name of a book? I didn't understand what you were talking about.

Hope everyone has a good day - I know that I'm going to try :)

Pink,

You are already on the right track! You mentioned that you only had 3 pieces of pizza. That really is something you can be proud of and celebrate! :carrot:

We all have to start somewhere and be proud of your self that you are starting to get in control. I found that it's helpful to write down how you feel in a journal and write down your successes because you can look back on them when you are feeling down and remember how good it felt to stay in control. :)

To answer your question, he he, it's not called kristin's book I hope I didn't confuse you. The name of it is "how to stop binge eating and take control of your life", i think.

Kristin's book is what helped me to finally stop binge eating. I'm not sure if it is published or not, but I got it on her website endbingeeating.com.

Hi Sarah -

Your positive words almost made me cry. Thank you so much for your responses to me. It is just so nice.

Thanks for telling me about that book. I was really confused at first. I'm going to check out the website - I will try anything... I feel so desparate.

Thank you. Also, congrats on losing 12 pounds! That must feel so nice!

Hi Pink,

Awwweee! You are so welcome! I'd love to know if you got Kristin's book. I've emailed her several times and she's been so helpful to me. I owe overcoming my binge eating to her fully. :) I should tell her about this forum because I think she could help so many of us here!

Thank you!!!! I seem to be stuck at 12 pounds but hope to fix that with me walking 2 times a day I've started. Do you do any fitness thing or go to a gym? I'm still getting to that point my self. :)

You keep up the great work girl! :carrot:

Pink,
I know how you're feeling. I've been there too. You said that you've tried a lot of diets and books seeking help. Have you ever tried Overeaters Anonymous? I've been going for two months, and I've found the tools, the support, and the strength to not eat my trigger/binge foods for 30 days. It's a miracle. You may find what you're looking for through the Overaters program. It's full of people who feel the same as you and are struggling just like you.

SARA-IGOT KRISTIN'S BOOK!!!

I feel so positive right now. The things that I read made sense to me. Like finally made some sense out of this mess i am in. I cried at some parts - Can i ask what part of it you found helpful? i really like the part about all of the things to start doing and how we can change things. i just feel like screaming this to everyone i know, except no one knows that i eat too much. if anyone is reading this, you should look at this girl's site. i am blown away and haven't really binged today. i just can't believe it. thank you so much for telling me about this./ Thank you Thank you Thank you.

Hi Marni,

I'm sorry that i didn't include you in my post... I didn't even see that you posted.

No, I have not tried OA. I did think about it, but don't know what I think. I am going to try this other thing out and see how it works for me. I'm really excited about starting it.

thank you for the sugestion though.

Hi Pink! Hey, we ALL go through times when we feel as if there is just no hope. In fact, sometimes it TAKES that for us to get to the place where we are determined to do something about it... we come to the place where the pain of staying where we are is worse than the hurt of making the change.

So glad you have God in your life! Yah I need reminders of that too sometimes. We are all human, and that is why we need each other too! I am going to PM you with a link to some great messages which have been such a tremendous help to me and which you might find encouraging!

Hang in there... I am praying for you!

:carrot:Way to go Pink!:carrot:

I'm so happy for you! Take today as the first day of your recovery and celebrate! You didn't binge today! Write down how good you feel in a journal. Write about everything! :) You may need to go back and relive this day if you are thinking about binging down the road.

My favorite part about Kristin's book was how she talked about creating your perfect day. I've written over 30 pages so far and spend time on that and writing in my journal every day.

Recently, I had been going through some tough times and really wanted to binge. I almost lost contol several times but I took out my perfect day and read it. It's helped me so much. :)

I also suggest that you e-mail kristin after you are finished reading the ebook. She's been so helpful to me! Is she on this forum? I'm going to e-mail her and invite her on. :)

And Hey Misti! :) You are everywhere girl! If you don't mind me asking, what did you send Pink? Is it something that you could share with me?

By the way... I have great news! :)

Thanks so much for the encouraging words. It's like one day I'm so down and it seems like there is no one to talk to, etc. and then I join this and this is really the only post i've posted on... anyways, I feel like I've made a couple of friends. it just feels so nice to know that people are wondering about how i am doing and that i have someone praying for me. Thank you girls so much. I really feel like there is hope now. just thanks thanks thanks!!

Berry (can i call you that? ha ha), what is your great news?

i'm going to bed. will check this post first thing in the morning, as I just feel so addicted to checking it... but it's fun. good night.

LOL yah I get around! :) A PM is on the way to you soon! ;) I think I know your great news; saw it on another thread LOL.

And Pink... SO glad you are feeling better!!! Yay! Hang in there!

What helped me was deciding that I was no longer a victim of binge eating but a survivor. The change in mindset really helped me. If you see yourself as a survivor then you know you can get through it. If you see yourself as a victim them you'll always feel helpless. Do you understand what i mean? :hug:

Grace, how did I miss this entire thread? :?:
I'm so glad you're finding strength and encouragement here. These ladies are wonderful. :)

Ah, the number one asked question. :lol:
And the only real answer is... we can only do it for ourselves!
I think we're all (myself included) hoping for some magical cure for our "additions" to food and our dislike of exercise. It isn't going to happen. :shrug: I've learned that the hard way. It's not easy to accept. Only last night I was thinking, "I'm going to tell my husband to say "no" when I ask him to get take-out next time."
And then I thought, "Umm, hellooooo, Ellis! If you don't want take-out, then it's YOUR responsibility not to ask for it!"

It's almost as though we haven't grown up where caring for our bodies is concerned. We're responsible in other areas of our lives... our work, caring for our families/friends, looking after our homes, etc. So why can't we say to ourselves, "I'm going to look after myself. My body is in need of some good food and some exercise today."? :shrug:

Coley hit it bang on. See yourself as a survivor, not a victim. If you make one good choice today, you can feel good about it. Empower yourself with every good decision you make.
I try to picture the good stuff in my life up around my heart where I can "see it". And I picture the bad stuff on the floor. I hold the good stuff to my heart, step on the bad, and move forward.

Sending you big hugs, sweetie... :hug: ... we can all do this together. :grouphug:

Y'all are just all so nice and supportive. I know that i've said it before, but I am really happy that I finally posted on here. Y'all are just so awesome and make me feel like I want to do whatever it takes to get "there". I guess all it takes it just to do it - post on here and see what advice graces my life. I can now understand why people say that coming here has provided so much support and motivation for them. I finally understand that.

Coley - What you said is so true. I did used to see myself as the victime and always would question "Why me???" I mentioned in an earlier post that I got a book that was recommended by another person on here, and I'm starting to see what you mean by survivor. I'm starting to realize that I do have choices here and I don't have to always wallow in the "why me's" of life. I guess stuff will always happen in our lives, but we have to be the survivors to get through it. (i just feel like im on my way to becoming a totally different person - in all of 3 days. it feel so nice)

Ellis - know exactly what you mean with the take-out situation. i've been there and told my husband to not let me have a bad snack or order something bad at a restaurant and then it's like this light goes off: IT'S COMPLETELY UP TO ME AND MY CHOICE. Food is very hard to overcome. W all need it, and I an envious of the people that don't struggle with this. I can't wait until I move in that category, and realisitically, i feel better than I have in a LONG time. It's also so true that I kind of put myself in the backburner when it comes to me. I feel available to everyone else and want to help my friends with whatever they need me for... but where is MY time? I need to get that part of me back.

I did make many good chioces yeserday and I didn't binge. I can't believe it. I feel like a different person and I feel so much more psoitive about my life. It's so cool :)

I know I say it a million times, BUT thanks again to everyone out there. The combination of this board and the advice i've received, especially reading the new book is just simply awaesome. :)

good for you pink!!! great job not binging yesterday!! just take it one little bit at a time! you should be so proud of yourself. i am so proud of you!!! it takes so much courage to say no to food sometimes!! stay strong! you can do this!!!

hi jodi - thnx so much for the encouraging words. congrats to you for losing so much weight - how in the world did you do it??? good job. thatmust mean that you have a resistance towards food and i'm sure that you are doing a good job fighting it. good job!!! best wishes to you on your continued success :)

PINK! :carrot: Of course you can call me Berry! I never asked you if it was OK if I call you Pink. ;)

OMG! I know exactly what you mean about Kristin's book. :) I got an email back from her and she said that she will join us. :) So exciting! If you don't mind, I also mentioned you and how you've been having a lot of trouble and how her book helpef you. :)

So tell me what you think about it! I've been dying to talk to someone about everything! Did you start your journal?

Oh! And my good news is................................ I BOUGHT A TREADMIL!

It will be here in about a week. Believe it or not, it will have to go in my kitchen because my apartment is so small, that's the only place where it will fit. *I think!* ;)

i can't even imagine a treadmill in a kitchen - you'll have to post a pic of that on here, if you can. how will you cook? hopefull you have a large kitchen :) when you mentioned the great news - the last thing on my mind was a treadmill really. I hope that your eally enjoy it and use it a ton. you'll have to keep us posted on how that goes.

so, i am feeling better still about myself. do you ever have any 'ah ha' moments when you feel like a revealation hs been spoken to you? it just feels so right to do what is in that eBook. i wish i had $$ to send you flowers or something to show my appreciation. i'm glad that we will be able to talk about diff stuff that we want to know. it was just really neat to actually feel like i bought the right thing for me at the right time. too often i was looking for a quick fix, but nothing felt right. i was only looking for the 'cure' for the moemnt but didn't want to fix the problem, i guess. i just feel like i bought the right thing for me. so freaking cool.

i did start journaling and i fing it helpful and almost therapeutic. i haven't really done that in the past, so it is quite new and i'm fearful that someone iwll read it one day... that prob isn't going to happen and im just paranoid. i think that i'm really going to like doing that. i have looked forward to writing in it today because i felt good overall and didn't binge. i guess it will always be easiesr to write when you have a 'good' day. :)

by the way, i don't mind that you mentioned me in your email. i actually emailed her too. thanks for thinking of me ;)

i don't know if i did the right thing, but i posted in the reading material section about her eBook. i just figure that maybe it could help someone else?? it is ding me good so far.

well i'm going to try to read right now and then go to sleep.

oh one more thing - do you exercise daily? i know you mentioned the gym, but i can't remember what you said. oops - sorry. :)

Hi Pink!

Well, I hate to admit, but my kitchen is small! :( When I have my parents over for dinner, we may have to use the treadmil for the kitchen table! OMG, I was so excited this morning because my sister said that she can tell that I am losing weight! :) I've always looked up to her and always thought that she had the *perfect* body. But now I know better to think that way and I'm happy that she noticed. :)

I've just started to work out. No, not going to the gym yet. I used that money to get the treadmill, so I may have to wait a couple of months. ;)

Flowers! You don't have to do that! :) We're all about helping others here and the best way that you can say thank you to us is by not binging any more. :) I can tell that you are on the right track, keep it up girl! :carrot:

OH! I have more exciting news!!!! I met my new neighbor and we talked for a couple of hours about binge eating. She is also having a problem and we will be working out together and keeping each other on track and motivated. I can't belive how fast things are happening for me. :)

Pink, keep up the great work - you are proof that anyone can stop binging and as you and I know, it all starts from within.

YOU GO GIRL! :carrot:

Well just to let you girls know - today i walked on the treadmill. I don't know if I pushed myself too hard or if i'm just out of shape (i'm hoping its the first one) but i felt like i could quite possibly pass out. it was terrible. when i was finished i lay on the lfoor and just caught my breath. im hoping this does get easier - does this happen to anyone else? part of me was happy that i actually worked up a sweart but the other part was sad because it was too much :( a little disappointing, but i will keep on going.

congrats pink of your sis commenting on your weight. i can't wait until i'm at that point too! i know that it mucst have made you feel really good to hear those words :) i'm really so very happy for you. i'm also really glad that you have a buddy now (besides me, ha ha) to talk to and motivate. that is wonderful news.

how is everyone else doing that looks on this post? i hope y'all are having a good day and just so you know... i did something new today that i've never done - i practiced starting to really like myself and i took notice of the things that i do like about myself. it made me feel happy that there is more to me than just bingeing.

(by the way, what is the correct spelling of that word? is it bingeing or binging?)

thanks for listening girls :)

LOL Sarah, good for you for putting the treadmill in your kitchen! Good choice! Sounds like something I would do LOL.

And Pink... you are only supposed to start out on a treadmill for about 10 minutes and at low speeds; and work you way up to more. Sounds like you maybe did waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much the first time! You can damage your heart by overdoing it too quickly.

Hi Pink,

I was in the same boat as you a few weeks back and though some of you ladies may not know me from the boards (been a member for a while, but I mostly just read) and I can tell you - you already know deep down inside what to do. Like me, the trouble is actually doing it! It is difficult and yes, there will be bad days...even though I am NOWHERE near my goal, talking and reading about other's experiences has made everything click. I lost just over 2lbs this week and I feel like I'm on cloud nine right now.

hi girls,

well misti according to what you said I really over did it. i was on the treadmill for like 30 minutes and switching between walking really fast to running. i didn't feel bad while i was doing it, but right when i finished is when it felt like a ton of bricks fell on me. it was bad. i felt sick the whole night last night -c an you believe it? you probably can...

hi amy - thanks for what you said and congrats on the 2lbs. i know that you must feel so wonderful... i have yet to lose any weight, ubt i know that it is coming. you are so right about there being so much support on here too. i really find that helpful and i enjoy reading what everyone says.

you know today is day 3, i think for me. as you may have read, i bought an ebook and found that it helped me make things click inside my head... i didn't binge the first day or the 2nd, which i was so happy about. yesterday i didn't have a full binge, which is good, but i did eat more than i wanted to. i ended up giving in and eating some candy and chips, but no where near the amount that i would have before. at first i was really bummed, but then i readlized something that i read in that book and that is: 1. things aren't going to miraculously change overnight and 2. i can't have the all or nothing mentality. in the past, i would have thought "oh well, i already ate it, so now i will continue" whereas this time I stopped. i thought this was a huge accomplsihment for me that day because it made me realize that i'm changing into the person that i want to be... slowly changing, but changing nonetheless. it was just really nice AND i didn't beat myself up about it. isn't that great?

hope you girls have a nice day today :) Thanks again for all of the support ;)

Hi Pink

Oh I can relate only TOO well because I too have a tendency to put everything I've got into it rather than starting off slowly and building up! But hey, glad you are okay sounds like!

That is great about your stopping before you totally binged... LOL I know that thinking too that I've already blown it so may as well go ahead! Sounds like you have some great thinking and good attitude... hang in there. You will get this thing going and once you are on track it will become a lot more natural!

THanks Misti - I'm sure hoping that this will get easier. i feel more in control, but the urges are still there.. i guess that is normal. i just wish there was a quick fix and i could snap my fingers and be all better.

yesterday i ate pretty good - again no binges, which is almost a miracle. i did eat 3 peices of pizza, but not the hwole box, so that is good. but it is still a struggle and i find myself going back to the ebook more and more to just feel like what i am going thru is normal.

I will get there!!

Where is Sarah lately????

Hi Pink

I think it does get easier... the more you say "no" to yourself, like any other discipline, the more it begins to become a habit!! You're off to a great start!!!!

Hey pink! :carrot: so funny!

I just got in here and was replying to a private message and then saw that you posted, and then asked about me! :) Say that 10 times fast! HE HE HE!

I've been busy helping my sister move which is great because my arms and legs are REALLY hurting! ;) I'll be staying over there again tonight and she doesn't have a computer, so I will not be able to come back on and read. :(

And PINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOOK AT YOU GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

I am so proud of you. You have come so far so quickly. Congratulations! :carrot: Yet more days with you staying in control. Do you see how it gets easier? OMG... I forgot to mention, I talked to Kristin on the phone a couple of nights ago. She is so nice and helpful! I had some questions, emailed her and she asked for my number and called me. :) I even told her about you and how much her book has helped you and she said for you to send her an email sometime to say hi. Its so funny because I was so nervous to talk to her but she was so helpful. :)

OH!!! And I have more GREAT news!!! I'm going to be moving in with my sister for ahile at her new house. I will have my own seperate area which is private and has more room than my partment!!!! :) That means that I won't have to put my treadmill in my kitchen! ;) I will actually have my own work out room!

I've been writing out all of my goals and dreams lately and going back through them, I am amazed at what is happening!

I was so sad that I was going to have to put my treadmill in my kitchen. I mean I was excited about it, but I just wished that i could afford a bigger place. And look at me now, I am moving into a bigger place with my own living room, kitchen, work out room (which I may have to share ;) ) and bed room that is MUCH bigger than before and I am paying 1/2 as much for rent!!!!

This stuff works girls! :carrot: I'm just so excited. OK... gotta grab a bit to eat (a salad with chicken, water, 1/2 a apple, and a pickle.) and then head back to my sis's house.

Keep well everyone! :carrot:

wow...
I have read the whole tread and feel so connected to all of you. My story is long and much the same. I know I have BED and for a while I had it under control, but stressors that have continued for over a year have lead me to binge almost every day.
I am destroying my body. I know this. I'm worried about my heart and added fat to my already petite frame. I feel useless and gross at this time.

I read Kristin's site and some of her journal entries. She seems such a wise woman for her years...
I tried all diets, including OA, which didn't help for me. I'm just at the end of my rope, for now I feel better as I read all of your words..
bless you all
purple

hi purple, this is pink.. hee hee :)

i'm really happy that this thread is one that you can relate to. i was feeling pretty worthless and just so down when i wrote it, but as you can see, i am feeling better day by day. i guess this is just what it is about - taking it one day at a time and not beating yourself up about anything. it's a hard process, but i haven't binged in some days now (I think 5, go me!) but like you read above - it's such a struggle and i think that we can all relate to that.

i'm so happy that you deicded to post on here. i've found a lot of support from the few people that have posted to this thread. there's is something so nice about knowing people out there that you don't even know aare rooting for you:)

i'm so sorry that you are feeling gross all of the time :( that really makes me sad to hear.

personally, i dont think diets are the answer. i've tried many too and i always went back to bingeing. those times were the times where my binge eating was actually worse...

i hope that youll continue posting on here and keeping us informed about how you are doing... i've found it really nice to post once a day and i like to think that people are reading it :) it just makes me feel better and almost holds me accountable for anything.

what other things have you tried, if you dont mind me asking?