I know I have an ED. It is a combination of a few of them. I am am not fat, not skinny considered to be a good weight for my size......why am I so obsessed with losing weight, obsessed with food, obsessed with dieting? I am so afraid of getting fat. I quit smoking two years ago. Something I never thought I could do. I gained around 10lbs since then and I keep beating myself up about it. I hate this vicious cycle. I hate losing 4lbs and gaining 2lbs. I hate how I think about food from the minute I get up until the minute I go to bed. I hate how I am afraid to be left alone with food as I sometimes have no self control and binge like crazy. I don't purge anymore.....not in years but, occasionally I take laxatives which just make me worse. I am on ww right now and having a hard time......I keep losing and gaining again. I just want to be healthy and happy!! I am sick and tired of food running my life and not wanting to go places because of eating issues. I am sick and tired of my clothes being too tight from binging. I need to do something!!! Can somebody help or offer a tip, a motivating word or some insight??

Hi there! I also struggle with my eating....I can relate to what you are saying. The last few days have been very bad for me, i go on cycles of eating fairly well and then not being able to stop eating sweets and junk food.
It is a VERY frustrating part of my life, to feel so out of control.
I hope it helps just to know you are not alone here...If you want to email me my mail is in my profile or you can send an PM.
Take care

Karla

karla -- you are too sweet! I know it can be hard to control your cravings, but just hang in there!

I like Overeaters Anonymous, and feel that it has finally set me free from food obsession. I go to online meetings usually, have an online sponsor.

Hi all and thanks. I looked into OA and the meetings are not convenient for me.....the areas and times. Can it really help me online? How?

Have you thought about a psychologist? Possibly a cognitive therapist?

Dear Mamalove, I am a compulsive overeater and enjoy OA although like you there are no close meetings. I also obsess about my weight, food and my appearance. I do know that God loves you and I right where we are now which is a big comfort. A good resource is the book Eating by the Light of the Moon by Anita Johnston( its not religious) Keep in touch Susanna