My story
 

I know I have an ED. It is a combination of a few of them. I am am not fat, not skinny considered to be a good weight for my size......why am I so obsessed with losing weight, obsessed with food, obsessed with dieting? I am so afraid of getting fat. I quit smoking two years ago. Something I never thought I could do. I gained around 10lbs since then and I keep beating myself up about it. I hate this vicious cycle. I hate losing 4lbs and gaining 2lbs. I hate how I think about food from the minute I get up until the minute I go to bed. I hate how I am afraid to be left alone with food as I sometimes have no self control and binge like crazy. I don't purge anymore.....not in years but, occasionally I take laxatives which just make me worse. I am on ww right now and having a hard time......I keep losing and gaining again. I just want to be healthy and happy!! I am sick and tired of food running my life and not wanting to go places because of eating issues. I am sick and tired of my clothes being too tight from binging. I need to do something!!! Can somebody help or offer a tip, a motivating word or some insight??

Hello there
 

Hi there! I also struggle with my eating....I can relate to what you are saying. The last few days have been very bad:( for me, i go on cycles of eating fairly well and then not being able to stop eating sweets and junk food.
It is a VERY frustrating part of my life, to feel so out of control.
I hope it helps just to know you are not alone here...:balloons:If you want to email me my mail is in my profile or you can send an PM.
Take care
:df:
Karla

karla -- you are too sweet! :D I know it can be hard to control your cravings, but just hang in there!

I like Overeaters Anonymous, and feel that it has finally set me free from food obsession. I go to online meetings usually, have an online sponsor.

OA online meetings
 

Hi all and thanks. I looked into OA and the meetings are not convenient for me.....the areas and times. Can it really help me online? How?

Have you thought about a psychologist? Possibly a cognitive therapist?

Dear Mamalove, I am a compulsive overeater and enjoy OA although like you there are no close meetings. I also obsess about my weight, food and my appearance. I do know that God loves you and I right where we are now which is a big comfort. A good resource is the book Eating by the Light of the Moon by Anita Johnston( its not religious) Keep in touch Susanna