Weekly Check-In Thread: 5/24 - 5/30
 

Hi all...

Just starting the new thread. I have to work today, then it's off for summer break! :dance:

I went to a F2F last night...I'll tell you more about it later.

Good Morning! :wave:

Well then you can come up to NE tommorow Jennelle I have the weekend off :) I think I will just post my e-mail I sent to my FP sponsor because that is all I have to say.

Yes, calling in my food to you helps very much. Last night I finished the step work I have been playing with for over a month. No wonder I have been struggling so much, between food games and not doing the footwork I have made my own little slice of misery. I read through step 2 again for about the millionth time and something resonated in me. I have counted a lot on the members of the program and my tools when I have been struggling. Last night when I was so tired and I knew there would be food in the control rooms. I asked God to help me because I have no willpower. I walked away from ice cream and fresh baked cookies last night and I believe that was HP. I did have a food plan deviation yesterday. Two life savers (just 2 not a package!) they were given to me as I left work, for wearing my seatbelt. I actually tasted them.

It feels good to say poop there it is! :grouphug:
Chris

Three weeks until my summer vacation...
 

I work summer school but I have 3 1/2 weeks off first and then summer school is just a half day.

I've had a headache for most of the day today. :headache: Now that we have started TTC, I can't take my standby Advil. The Tylenol I took didn't even help a bit. :( I guess I'll have to sleep it off.

The movie DH is working on started filming today, so that's exciting.

I need to prepare some healthy meals (bought the food yesterday) but feel too crappy to do it today. Blah. I'll cook tomorrow night.

Hugs to all of you. :grouphug:

:wave: I only have a second to check in. I am doing fine. I had a little slip with my food last night, but now I have talked to both of my sponsors and feeling much better :) I will try to come back after meeting. Kat? Do you think its okay to do some Yoga practice everyday?

Chris

Hi, girls! :wave:

Quickie... just had the weekend from ****. Hope you're all doing well... love and hugs to all... back later... :grouphug:

Hi all
 

Feeling better today but tired. Can't wait for vacation.

Chris, yes, yoga can be done daily. I would alternate the more strenuous workouts with lighter ones.

Therapy and step work today girls. Wish me luck. If I start choking on my feelings I will be reaching out. Its hitting the wall and I need to feel what I feel instead of eating what I feel. It makes me completely miserable. That was kinda the theme of the meeting last night, reach out before you have to make the remorseful drunks phonecall.

Kat- Yeah I think today I will do a Sun Salute :D

:wave: Hi Ellis and Jenelle! How are you gals?
Much love to all!
Chris

Chris -

Therapy day was yesterday for me. But, I learned a LOT. It was productive. I'm finally beginning to really believe that things that happened to me were not my fault.

Hi Ladies, I'm here. But we've been having computer problems, so if I go MIA, that's why. DH insists I got us infected with a virus. :dizzy:

I envy those of you in therapy. HP and I had a long talk the other night, but I need to find the time for that daily.

Love you all girls. Some day, I'm going to actually start my recovery, and then I'll have more to offer here!!

:grouphug:

Afternoon...
 

Hey ladies,

Doing OK here. I feel a cold coming on. :halfempty But otherwise I am doing OK. Getting to my first f2f meeting tomorrow in a while. Also going to an online one tonight (tried last night, too, but the room was all messed up).

Chris, how was your sun salute?

Jennelle: That's great! I'm glad therapy is working out for you. :) Any luck in the sponosr department?

Tracy: You have started your recovery! You're posting to us, right? And mulling things over? That sounds like a beginning to me! :)

Ellis, where are you girl?

Kat, I like what you said to Tracy about her already beginning her recovery just by being here. Thank you. I often feel the same as Tracy... you girls seem so much more together about your eating disorders, and I often wonder what I'm doing here when I've barely started to work on my own.

Funny... the sun salute is one of the few poses I really dislike... I HATE the down dog.

I just had a LONG nap. I think I would have slept right through the night if I hadn't set my alarm. We took my Dad into Emergency on Monday with a very bad ballbladder attack. We were in there for HOURS, and it was exhausting and worrying... particularly for my Mom. I'm still catching up on my sleep.

I saw my trainer today. He's going to have my eating plan ready for me next week. He's running a marathon this weekend, and hasn't had time to get it together for me until now.

Jennelle... so glad your therapy is going well. Isn't it wonderful to be able to "dump" stuff on someone? :)

Chris, how was your therapy today, hon? It gets easier. :grouphug:

Jennelle, Chris, Tracy, Kat... hugs for all of you...

Quiet board lately!

I am getting used to the idea of summer. Yesterday I was pretty bored come about 1:00!

Doing well otherwise, though. :)

AWOL girlie checks in...
 

Hey ladies!!! Long time, no post, huh? Life just got too hectic for me for awhile. Between the master's class, the after-school program, the girls' dance classes and recital prep, preparing for testing, and home responsibilities...I just felt like I couldn't keep up with everything! Things are finally winding down for the year now. Whew! Oh, and techno-girl here screwed up my home computer when I downloaded some Norton Internet security software to stop my pop-up and spyware problem. Now I can't even access my email from home. :rolleyes: I don't know if I'll be able to fix it...been that way for weeks and weeks now.

Jennelle -- Bored already? Wanna come help me babysit third graders for two more weeks? We finish up standardized testing tomorrow and babysitting it will be. Glad you're in therapy and found a f2f meeting. (((Hugs))) I'll be thinking of you as I trudge out for the next couple of weeks!

Tracey -- I think I went AWOL before you joined us. Nice to meet you!

Ellis -- I've missed your sense of humor! I hope everything is on an even keel for you right now. Sorry about your dad's gallbladder problems. Ouch, those are NO fun!

Chris -- I emailed you this afternoon. Hope things are going more smoothly for you now. I'm sorry about the job. Something even more wonderful will come along for you soon. You so deserve it!

Kat -- Almost time to TTC, huh? Sending healthy pregnancy and healthy baby vibes your way! Hope your cold feels better quick!

Now that school is winding down, I hope to be able to pop in here more often. Have a great evening, everyone!

Christy

I definitely have stuff to say, beside Welcome BACK Christy! Missed you, but I need to journal. My family is being crazy at me, or maybe its my perceptions. I know that weight of the world thing, but then again its not that big, HP can handle it ;)

Chris

{{{{{{{{{{{{Christy!}}}}}}}}}}}}

I swear I was JUST thinking about you yesterday. I knew you had a bit of school left still because of the million snow days you had to take.

Welcome back!

Evening...
 

Hi ladies, how goes it?

I made it to my home f2f meeting today - it's been 3 weeks! :o One week I missed due to being in Maine and last week because I had work junk to do. Anyway, it was GREAT to be back. :gossip: :yes:

My sponsor ended up leading (the original leader was a no show :?: ) and the step we discussed today was 11. I really enjoyed listening to her. I've got a cool sponsor. :smoking:

I am going to start walking in the mornings, again (I was doing this in the fall). It's a great way for me to connect with HP. :cloud9: And do a walking meditation.

Ellis, how's your dad doing? Sorry to hear he's ill! :grouphug:

Christy!!!! I was just thinking about you too. Glad you've rejoined us. :dance:

Chris, come on back, hun. We want to hear what you have to say. :blah:

Jennelle, stop making me jealous of your vacation. :lol: I want to be bored! :kickcan: I hope you're enjoying yourself. ;)

Have a good night, all!

Christy, I've missed you, sweetie!! Welcome back! :grouphug: You are CRAZY busy, hon! How's your family?

Hugs, Chris... :grouphug: What's going on with you?

Kat, how's your cold? :grouphug: I'm glad you like your sponser! (no, not ready for one yet ;) )

We took Dad into emergency again tonight. It's been a really rough week. They've scheduled him for surgery in SEPTEMBER!!! In the meantime, he's not able to eat or drink without vomiting, and he's in a lot of pain. They're giving him painkillers and Gravol to get him through until September. :rolleyes: Give me strength!
I just pray that with the medications he'll be able to start keeping some nutrients and liquids down. He's dehydrated and losing weight. :(

Chris has alot of feelings, she will be over in the corner asking HP what to do next. What is the next right thing, when you feel the addict in you winning?

Much love to all!
Chris

Can I join you in your corner, Chris? I said goodbye to my friend yesterday, and I feel flooded.

Hi Christy!!

Prayers for your Dad Ellis :grouphug: How is he doing? In fact how is your MIL Kat?

Oh Tracy, its those feelings that kick my butt. Well last night add feelings to being tired and you have a recipe for disaster. Just a handfull of sugar seems to have me off to the races these days. Duh. I am powerless over food. Chris is powerless over food. It makes her life unmanageable. It makes my job hard, my thoughts hard, my responsibilities seem huge. Thats why I would rather play with food than life :(

I will be back I have my F2F meeting where we discuss steps and traditions. We did Step 11 last week. I love that one. Jenelle, you started there, do you still practice? Tonight is Step 12. Having a spiritual awakening as a result................. Feels huge.

Much love to all!
Chris

Chris - I do....it's not "conscious", though...I haven't set aside a time to talk to HP and I don't have a prayer journal and I don't conciously meditate, but I talk to my HP all the time - especially in the car. Yesterday, after a particularly frustrating talk with a friend, I went to a park that I rarely have the opportunity to visit and I walked the 1.6 mile trail and just communed with my HP.

Hi all
 

Ellis: My cold seems to have gone away. It didn't turn into much, thankfully. I am sorry to hear about your dad! Why is the surgery so far off?

Chris: I hope your meeting helped you out! I love step study. :D

Jennelle: Walking meditation, I love it. Starting that back up next week (was going to today but decided to sleep in a bit since I was fighting this cold).

Tracy: How are you?

Cyndi: Welcome!

I am so glad it's Friday! :dancer: This week I have been swamped at work, making up sessions with students because I had missed 4 days. I normally get in about 22-25 hours of therapy a week - this week I got in 41 1/2 hours! :fr: I grouped like mad.

Tomorrow is one year of abstinence for me. :hat: I am going to do some re-evaluation and make up some goals for this (HP willing) second year. Not sure what DH and I are going to do, although we do want to go to the movies. He has to go into work briefly, so I am going to tag along.

Both Sunday and Monday we're going to BBQs.

Have a good night...

Good mornin'! Thanks for the warm welcome back. (((girls)))

Chris -- I read your journal yesterday. Sorry things are tough right now. Hang in there!

Kat -- Congrats on your one year anniversary! Wow, that's quite an accomplishment. So proud of you!

I have my WW weigh-in this morning. (I know...Chris and Jennelle are probably cringing at this!) I know that Weight Watchers won't deal with my food issues per se, but I'm at the put-up-or-shut-up point with this weight loss thing. Strokes, diabetes, and heart disease run in my family and I know that I can't dodge that bullet for much longer at 240+ pounds. Plus I have a preteen daughter that I can see has some of my body issue tendencies and I need to counteract that as much as possible. So far, no obsession with overplanning or binges. I'm being very realistic about my progress and didn't fall into the abyss when I had a slight gain last week. We shall see...

Whew, I'm glad that's out in the open now. I felt like maybe you guys might revoke my membership in the ED club when I 'fessed up to WW. (Kat, you're still doing your version of it, aren't you?)

Today is a good day. Some friends and I are going out to dinner and a movie tonight. It's been over a year since I was able to do something like that! I can't wait.

You all have a wonderful day!

Love,
Christy

Hi Girls!! Christy, I did WW a couple of years ago, but I found that even with extra nursing points, I consistently went over each day. That was a big clue for me that I needed to start somewhere else. But it certainly can help you get into a more healthy eating mindset - for that reason, I've considered getting all my stuff out and trying again. So good luck to you!!

Kat - I've been too self-absorbed to ask - how is your MIL? Still showing signs of progress?? I'm thinking of her often. Also, are you having fun TTC?? I have this mental image of Catwoman and Batman getting it on. :p Hope it takes just as long as you want it to. ;) I loved being pregnant. So much anticipation and excitement. Even the birth was fun.

Chris - you are an inspiration to me, even when you don't feel like it. I hope you're having a better day. :cheers:

I'm okay. I think my medication may need to be adjusted or something. I was at the ATM last night, (no, didn't empty my account and drive to Mexico) getting money for Chinese food for the family, and I thought, "What the **** am I doing here? I was not meant for such a normal life." And I'm scared shitless I may be pregnant again. It's too early to tell, but something is up. With the nursing, it's hard to know. (I'm NOT saying this to scare Kat, but hopefully, she stopped reading after my note to her!!) I don't know if my marriage could survive another child, as much as I love my kiddies.

Has anyone read The Diet Alternative by Diane Hampton? Her program is based on Bible scripture. I like it. I'm becoming the self-help queen lately. I'm Bridget Jones. (looking for drunk smilie)

Love all!

Christy - Lots of people use WW as a food tool while going through OA. If it's what works for you, then it works. I just know it doesn't work for me.

Tracy - Your life isn't ordinary. Your life is a miracle. :) Tough to feel that way sometimes, though, I know! :lol:

Kat - A year of abstinence! Congratulations!

Happy OA birthday to moi! ;)
 

Morning gals!

Christy: WW is a great FOOD PLAN. As long as you work your program and make that the #1, then there's no big deal about using WW as a plan. I actually stopped WW a couple of weeks ago because we started TTC and I wanted more calories in - it's pretty low in calories, so I didn't want to possibly starve my body in early pregnancy (before knowing I'm pregnant).

Tracy: Thanks for asking about my MIL. She's still making progress and entered a rehab facility the other day. Her language is still limited but is slowly improving. DH's family is probably flying us back to Maine in early July to see her (I'll be on vacation and the movie DH is working on will be done with filming and into post-production).

I am LMAO at the idea of us as Catwoman and Batman. :lol: I can't wait to share that one with DH. ;) I am sorry you're worried about another pregnancy. Please keep us updated! :grouphug: And don't worry, you didn't scare me. :)

Jennelle: Hey, come back! How are you? :p

So today's my OA birthday. Wow. It's been quite a year. The biggest thing, which just happened, was dealing with my MIL's stroke. I realized a couple of days into it that I had not had an urge to eat. :mcd: I credit that to constantly talking to HP the whole time. Just little "hellos" and "this blows" kept me grounded and in touch with her.

I will post my story today or sometime this weekend. Thanks for the birthday well wishes. :)

Hey Cyndi -

I posted a post on the OA board for you. Welcome to our group!

I got some sleep
 

:yawn: And I am feeling alot better! Yesterday was not a fabulous food day, but I am in touch with my program and I feel very hopeful. I already called in my FP for today :D

Congratulations KAT!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! :hb: :cheer: :grouphug:

Jenelle- I so enjoyed talking to you this afternoon. Your so awesome! I love you :D

Kat- Have you upped your folic acid intake too as your TTC? :cool:

Tracy- Everyones life is special, because its your life. I use to use a quote that said, "What ever I do today is important, because I spent a day of my life on it"

Christy- We always love you and I don't care if your FP was 3 binges a day as long as you keep stopping by to get some support and love. You are Christy, not your FP. :grouphug:

On that note say HI Ellis!
Going to have the day I am suppose to have!
Chris

Quickie... I'm at Mom and Dad's... spent last night here. Dad isn't doing great. :( I may not be around much for a while. Love and hugs to all... :grouphug:

Good morning
 

Ellis: :grouphug: Check in with us when you can and we'll all be thinking of you and yours!

Chris: I've been on prenatals since January. I had a pre-preg check up then, got blood work done, etc... I'm raring to go. ;)

Yesterday went OK. DH and I argued for the first half but worked everything out (I was having a bit too high of an expectation for the day). He worked really hard to make me feel special the rest of the day, so that was sweet of him. :love: We are spending the rest of the weekend together, which is really nice since I see so little of him during the week right now.

I got some stepwork done this morning and journaled. So the day has started off well. :)

(((Ellis))) -- Sorry your dad is still ill, hon! Sending up lots of prayers for him and your family. Let us know how things are going when you can!

Kat -- You're going to be the healthiest, most together first time mom ever! Good for you getting all your ducks in a row before you conceive. I can't wait to hear that you're pregnant! Oh and I'm very glad your MIL is improving each day.

Chris -- Glad you had a better day! The three binge a day diet? I think I've done that one, too! Thanks for all the support from all of you guys!

So last night we saw Troy. Have y'all seen it yet? OOOOOOOMMMGGGGGG! There's enough eye candy in that movie to give you a serious sugar rush. Brad Pitt...drool. Orlando Bloom...drool (but his character was a wuss). Dude who played Hektor...drool. I highly recommend it! I would even pay to see it a second time, and I don't say that about any movie! Yummy!

Well, I have to make some plans for school. We aren't off tomorrow...drats. You ladies have some fun for me, okay?

Love,
Christy

((((((((((Ellis)))))))))))))) Prayers for your dad!

I am trying not to flake out on you gals, but today I have been running since I woke up. I have a dinner party in about a half hour. Big hugs to ya'll!

Chris

Oh Ellis, I'm so sorry. I sure hope his doc plans to move up his surgery date. I'd stay in his face about it. My love and prayers go out to you!

Christy - I'd be like - Peter O'Toole - drool!! Don't care how old he is!! We haven't been to a movie in at least a year - but I'm hoping to see Harry Potter soon after it's released. Troy must've been great to see on the big screen. DH and I were both film students, so we have a great time watching DVDs when classics are released - he got "Love Me Tonight" the other day, and it was hysterical. It's a screwball comedic musical from 1932. We roared.

And we're doing so much better. We hashed a lot of things out last night. Neither one of us had felt loved in a long time. We've both got things to work on, but we broke through the ice. It was very, very good. And just in time for our anniversary, which is tomorrow.

Happy anniversary to you, Kat!!