Think I need to be here
In the past I suffered badly from binge eating habits, but the past few years I thought I'd gotten over it, thanks to changing the way I think about eating and dieting and my body (ie no off-limits foods or rules, and focusing on being happy and feeling good over just being thin). But, after a loooong time, since giving birth, the binge habit has returned in full force, now as a way to deal with the stress of caring for my high needs baby girl. As the day goes on and I feel overwhelmed and crazy, my first thought has become to eat a bunch of sugary, fatty, processed food to zone out and recoup. Even though I know that afterwards I'll feel worse, and that the habit is costing me lots of money and health and time, it's hard to not give in in the moment, because it does make me feel better temporarily.... Not to mention, the discomfort of the weight I've put on because of binge eating makes me strangely want to eat even more to try and forget about it!
Anyway, admitting that I feel trapped again is hard, but necessary to making a change. I really want to find new habits to spend my time and deal with stressful emotions that eating!
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