I'm trying my damndest to be fit, active, healthy, and lose weight, and I've been doing a decent job for the most part lately. I've been eating really healthy and wholesome foods, and I've been running daily and doing the Insanity workouts.

But today we ran out of veggies at home, so I didn't have much else to eat. I tried to stick to a healthy meal with what I had at home – Egg Beaters and a piece of wheat toast – but I wasn't satisfied, so I ate several Fiber One bars and an apple.

Even after eating all that, I was still feeling unsatisfied and probably a bit bored at home, so I ate leftover tofu and veggie stir-fry, more Fiber One bars, and a good amount of almonds and pretzel sticks from my mom's spicy cajun trail mix.

I hate myself so much right now for ruining my body. I'm super self-conscious about how chubby my cheeks and bulky my thighs are, and I just feel that I ruined my body and myself. All I want to do is eat more and feel better, but I thought coming here to post this would be better instead. Still, I can't help but feel an overwhelming hatred and cry over this, which I feel is ridiculous.

Thanks for letting me vent on here, lol.

It's only 1:00 in the afternoon here, too. I can't believe I consumed that many calories so early in the day.

I know the feeling and am sorry to hear that you are so down on yourself right now. But every moment is a new chance to do better and to be kinder to yourself. We all slip- it's what we do after we slip up that determines our success. You can do this!

Hang in there =) I have had many days like this and I know exactly how you feel. This probably sounds "cliche" but tomorrow's a new day, and you can start fresh then! Take care..

Two lessons learned:

1. Don't run out of veggies!

2. The biggest damage you've done to yourself today isn't the calories, it's the self-loathing.

I agree with everyone else about the importance of being kind to yourself. If the path to healthy eating were easy, none of us would be struggling with it. It takes a lot of factors in balence to keep the temptations at bay. Hang in there! You are not a bad person just because you overate, although I do understand the feelings you are having, since I usually feel the same way after losing control.

Hating yourself is definitely not the way to get back on track. It's only one day and you probably didn't go off the rails as much as you think you did. On a side note and maybe tmi, be careful how many fiber one bars you eat. Too many can result in a bathroom issue if you know what I mean.

Thanks so much for the support, everyone! Even though my vent was nothing new on here, it still helped a lot to read words of encouragement from others on here. I'm doing my best to not hate myself like you all said and seriously change my mindset. You all are the best!

An eating disorder is no different from alcoholism. One day at a time, girl. ((((bighugs))))

You're going to mess up. It's bound to happen. What matters now is if you keep going or if you give up.

Okay, you ate more than you wanted to, it happens to all of us, don't be too hard on yourself and be positive about the changes you have already made, tomorrow is a new day.