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Originally Posted by dmdreaming
This is so so so soooooo true and happens to me way too often. It feels like a blackout then suddenly realizing everything I ate 
I'm trying so hard not to do that.
It's true but the key is not to feel bad, or guilty about what your doing. Those negative emotions will only continue to drive the emtional/binge eating. It's changing those feelings. Remember you can't change what you don't acknowledge. If you aren't consciously aware of what you're doing how can you blame yourself? The key is to slowly become aware of it, which you are doing, and that's AWESOME!!! Give yourself a round of applause cause being aware is the first step! It's the best step cause your awake to your habits now. Now that you know what your doing it will take baby steps to get to a place of finally deciding not to reach your hand into that bag of chips.
So be kind to yourself. Mid way through a binge if you all of sudden become aware of what your doing, don't feel bad. Realize "hey! I'm aware of binging right now, this is how I cope. I'm going to be kind to me, and love me for what I'm doing right now cause this is all that I have known, this is how I comforted my emotional needs for years but I am grateful to realize this now." This is self nurturing yourself being kind to you and loving all of you. Just because your binging doesn't mean your not a beautiful worthy person. Love all of you now, it will make a world of difference!
Sit with those thoughts and tune into your hunger. What happens to your body, your feelings etc? Become even more aware of those thoughts and your feelings. Even if you don't stop binging it's fine, you've taken the steps of becoming AWARE of what you are doing. Give yourself permission. Sometimes I would say "I know I'm binging but this all I know right now and I love me" and I would keep that awareness of what I'm doing and soon realize ok I don't want anymore, it's like the awareness keeps you accountable! Because I realize now how awful this food is making my body feel and the key is again, don't let those negative emotions creep in like "Ahh I'm so gross, I'm so fat, look at what I'm doing" I simply say, ok this is making my body feel awful, what do I want to do with it. Just keep going and be kind to you!
The next time the awareness will return with even MORE awareness, to the point where you can feel strong enough to say "Hey I don't feel like eating that because I'm aware that I'm in a bad place right now and this is my binging pattern to meet an emotional need" and you will slowly discover new tools to help you cope.
That's all it is, its a coping strategy. It's just making different coping choices. Good luck! It's totally a journey to dig deep and realize your subsconsious, but it's baby steps and awareness. Your doing it already!
