So I spent the last month or so eating. I'd spend a couple days dieting, a couple days eating and I kept saying "whatever, I have the rest of my life to lose the weight, I can just eat one more day of normal food". It is extremely difficult because I'm the kind of person who can't just indulge a little, I binge quite a bit, and I do it thinking "well tomorrow I'm going back on my diet, and I won't be able to eat sweets again for a while.." I'm so disappointed because I've been doing extremely well for the past year. But then I think about it, and losing 150 pounds in a year was an accomplishment, and so what if I had a little set back? It's summer, I'm twenty, and you only live once. But I also have come to the realization that living doesn't require snack/junk food. Or drinking with college friends. I can live life just as much on healthy food, spending time with my friends in a healthy (and legal!) way.
But in case my mindset doesn't stick (it WILL this time!) I've plastered skinny people* everywhere.. Seriously. My fridge.. covered. I think it's helpful actually, because it really does remind me, when I'm going to open the doors looking for something unhealthy, it's not worth it. Although I realize it probably comes off a little mentally... unstable. My dad seems to think I have serious issues. But I think it just kind of freaks him out to have women stuck to basically every surface of his kitchen. And women's clothes. When his buddies come over I think he will have some explaining to do. Oh well! Bahaha!
*side note I do not actually expect to be that skinny, that beautiful (they're airbrushed!), or that well, whatever. Nor do I really want to be. I just want to wear their clothes, really. And wear them well.
Anyways, I've committed to not buying any cute clothes until I lose all the weight. It's gym clothes only! I am going to have to make do with the clothes I have for cute clothes. Plus I figure if all I can buy is gym clothes, then all I'll have to wear is gym clothes, then maybe I'll actually do something like, I don't know.. go to the gym.
Wish me luck -- AGAIN!
Oh! And here's a few pictures! Just because I can't sleep.
My fridge! I wasn't kidding! I think the woman in the navy blue dress in the middle has my dream body. And that full length dress is the bridesmaid dress for my sisters wedding (only not in that horrible color).
AND for those of you who like baby animals (hopefully everyone in the world), meet my new pony that has yet to be named! Suggestions?!
My motivation to get the bike out (I don't actually ride with Penelope in the basket for fear of breaking her head if/when I eventually fall off my bike)
Bridesmaid dress.. almost exactly like the one we ended up getting.. so I have to make it look good by October 15th. Scary! PS I think that might be a better angle than I really am.. but I have this weird weight-loss vision that makes my perception.. confusing. Anyone else have that?
Oh, and these are said work out clothes. Goofy picture, but look at my pup! Cutest thing in this world right?
(pardon the crazy eyes.. reminds me of this episode of How I met your Mother I just saw.. awkwwwward)
Any staying on track suggestions? I'm 99.9% positive I am BACK on the dieting track... but I'd love some advice to keep me this way!