Over the weekend i ate over my calorie limit, but today I think I binged. I was all alone today, just eating & eating, jumping to different foods, way past the point of full(3500 calories, including three healthy meals). I was feeling very uncomfortable, like my skin was being stretched tight across my stomach. That's how stuffed I was! I went for a walk, to help with digestion, but the feeling lasted for 4 hrs. I have not done that in months, I felt a little too comfortable with having junk food around & didn't feel the need to be careful. But once i started, I couldn't stop.

Day 1 tomorrow!

fruit lady, i overate, but sadly the food i overate wasn't through a binge. it was a regular dinner. golly those things have alot of calories in them. Plus, i got drunk off pina coladas.

i didn't engage in gross binge behavior--well, i wanted the asiago tortollini because i scorched the shrimp bisque--and I don't eat scorched food. Which left me hungry. should have never opened the package. 2 servings= 1140 cs. gah! They aren't big servings either. About the size of a restaurant dish.

i know my calories are up in the 3000s. haven't added them up yet. OH well, like you fruitlady tomorrow is a new day.

fruitlady, be careful of wanting to binge on sweets. if you feel yourself going down that dark alley---get out of the house.

Hey Fruit Lady--Sorry to hear what happened. You seemed to be donig really well though. Was the junk food anything that you felt calling to you before when you were NOT alone in the house? Maybe the junk food was intended for your other family members, and as soon as they left, that's when the "trigger" began?

Whatever happened, I'm sure that you were mindful of what was happening, even during the binge eating. I just KNOW and can tell that you've come a long way with fighting binge eating, and that each time, you have better awareness and control.

Each time that we make a mistake, we can learn from it. Even if it takes making the same mistake over and over again, we will learn from it.

There are some mistakes in life that we just have to repeat in order for us to come out strong and learn from it.

Hey ManekiNeko--late night eating was a problem for me too, even as recent as last week. I would eat a yogurt with granola. I would then move on to something else. It's helpful to try some things like your green tea substitution, or some other tea that doesn't have caffeine (to help you sleep). I tried just brushing my teeth as soon as I feel like i could eat more. I then feel better and ready for bed. It's so obvious, but brushing your teeth really works for me. I eat when I'm tired late at night for some reason. It's changing now.


Krampus--oh no girl, what happened?

Sarati--Welcome here Paula! Popcorn is a good snack for you to eat because it has a lot of air and it's filling. I read that popcorn (without the butter or lowfat popped popcorn) is a great snack in many health magazines for that reason. It's filling. But cashews are too small and high in calories and it's hard to just eat a small handful of them. I used to binge on the sesame covered honey cashews from Trader Joe's, so now I just don't buy them. It's like if you had a problem controlling yourself around halloween candy, you just wouldn't buy it, right? Or you would throw it away so that it wasn't in your house. So maybe try not to have cashews in your home, until you are in control of the eating and firmly planted into the driver's seat ready to tackle any eating hazards.

heather29--I have to say that having a normal relationship to food again takes as much time as it took you to develop this habit of binge eating. Or at least it seems like that to me. I developed the binge eating through years of this bad eating habits, where I would overeat, eat late at night, eat mindlessly without paying attention, not care about the quality of foods I ate, and all of these habits cultivated the "binge eating" which to me is the height of my eating problems. Slowly, with time, the new healthy changes in your eating habits will grow in numbers and with more strength, to a point where your old binge eating habits no longer exist. You won't fear BBQ's or forbidden foods anymore. It really takes a lot of changes in the way you look at foods too. I think when you stop the mentality of having "forbidden foods" in your mind, then you will fear food less and start to enjoy these foods again in moderation. The moderation part is key and takes practice, so try exercises and techniques to see if you can handle a certain food one at a time. If it ends in a binge, then you know you need more mental work at it.

For example, granola and crackers were a forbidden food to me. After so many weeks of being binge free, I bought a box of graham cracker and tried my best to eat only 1 serving each day. It worked to some extent, so I felt comfortable buying more carby snacks, but with caution. Now I have like 12 boxes of granola at home, and I just won't binge on them because I know how terrible I will feel, and I know that I can enjoy it more with just one serving at a time and not have it every day, but maybe once every 2 or 3 days.

282 here. :)

Fruitlady: I'm sorry you had a rough time. I'm glad you are here and posting. We all can help you through this. You are so strong. I know how easy it is for a binge to slip in when you least expect it. The important thing is that you're here and you're ready to keep fighting. We are all here for you, friend! :hug: :hug:

hang in there fruitlady!! just keep on going and keep the faith. there will always be some obstacles on the way.

vixsin--way to go!!;) you're doing great.
jendiet--good that you didn't go overboard and binged ;) small victories are the best.

today is my day 30!!finally one month. i must say that it was a piece of cake! for the first time.
it's obvious that i only binge because of school and my fear of failure/success, and also since i haven't seen my family for quite some time it has helped me so much because they would usually make me depressed and therefore i would binge. good thing that i won't have to see them for a while.
omg, one more thing...today i woke up really really early like 7.30 (usually i get up at 11 am) but today my mom and my sister woke me when they were leaving the appartment so i decided to go running ...for the first time. it was awesome, even though i ran only 6 min in intervals, but i'm only begginer. so i'm doing this 7 week program and hopefully i'll be able to stick with it. it's great because there are no people in the morning and i feel like i'm alone. but my knee was killing me after...i hope it will heal quickly.

fruitlady, a special shout out to you to get through this day! You can do it. Allow yourself some delicious healthy food and a treat. don't tell yourself no, no, no about the treats. that is your food too.

missunshine,congrats on your day 30!!!! i really want to caution you, maybe it is because my mom RUINED her joints with all the high impact things she did when she was younger. the women in my family have loose joints as it is...if you are ALREADY experiencing joint pain, i beg you to find another way to jog. I found jogging on a rebounder is great, and not jarring to my joints...and it is one of my favorite exercises..especially with the like the wii. rebounders cost like $20. And they are so worth it.

Paula, i agree. air popped popcorn is a good source of fiber and is VERY filling because of that.

heather, i agree the very thought of a "forbidden food" makes me lust for it all day.

well since i slept off my hangover...lol...i am thinking of doing a liquid fast with lots of vitamins and minerals. I know i will feel better, plus there is nothing in there i really feel like eating.

Hi Ladies!

I am so glad I found this thread, my food addiction has taken over my life. I've been on Weight Watchers for 18 months and the first 15 I had maybe 5 binge eating episodes if that. Now when I try to get back on track I do great until night time arrives, then the monster comes out and eats everything in sight.

I am truly in agony right now, I'm sitting here nauseated from the binge I just had about an hour ago. I have lost over 100lbs and am terrified of going back to where I was almost a year and a half ago. I don't know what to do.. Tomorrow starts a new week for me (My weigh in day) so I was really going to try this time and NOT binge no matter what.

A couple friends suggested that seeing a therapist who specializes in eating disorders may be a good idea. The sad thing is this morning I ran 3 miles and for what? To eat back the calories I burned.. I feel like such a failure.

kimberly - welcome! there is some great support in these challenge threads, and i hope you find it here and we are able to help some.

fruitlady - stay strong and know that every day is a learning experience. even when i didn't binge and thought of food like a normal person there would be times that i would eat too much. i think everyone does it. so don't be too hard on yourself and know that what you were doing was working for you, you just hae to be a bit more careful about what you do when home by yourself.

as for me, day 3 almost complete! i continue to have thoughts about when i can allow myself to binge again. a lot of the time i would plan my binge days. i don't know why. probably because it gave me something to look forward to? i'm trying to think of something i can reward myself with when i make it a week, 2 weeks, etc., so i have something else to look forward to that isn't related to food. i continue to feel that so much of my binging goes back to emotions and my moms passing. right after she passed i let myself binge for the first time in weeks and i did so because i thought i would feel good. and well, i enjoyed eating all that crap. and it was one thing i was enjoying in that week we were taking care of packing up her stuff, etc. somehow, i have to find something else to fill the void i have felt since she passed.

forbidden foods didn't really start until recently either. not sure why it got so bad. trying to slowly break my mindset on that one too...

Hi Heather!

Thankyou so much =D What exactly do I have to do for this challenge? Post daily about how my day is as far as if I've thought about a binge or actually had one?

The saddest part about my day today is that even after I binged, I almost went through the drive thru and Burger King and ordered a Whopper & Fries. I was still nauseated and wanted to eat more but I didn't, instead I went home and am glad I did.

KimberlyP, can I just say you are sooooo gorgeous!! Wow!!

Anyway, finishing day 3 for me. :( i'm sick of this. Hit the day 13 mark and went crazy for 2 days. Ugh.

Kimberly- Welcome, I know how you feel. I'm terrified I'm gonna gain all the weight back too. But it doesn't seem to stop me!

Thank you everyone for all your support! You chicks are the best! I don't know what I would do without you all. (Hugs to all)


I don't know why I messed up yesterday, I haven't been feeling deprived at all & was totally happy. There was no reason for it at all, kinda scares me cause that means it doesn't matter that I changed my diet and added variety. It still didn't prevent a binge. All weekend I was eating more than my share, then it got even worse. It's like i wanted to continue eating a high amount of calories, still having trouble getting back down to my normal range. Once your doing that for a couple days, it's hard to get back to normal.

Today was better than yesterday, but still overate. I think I would have binged again if the food would have been here. I was doing good til lunch, ate a healthy lunch, but then just continued eating. Wasn't hungry, I felt like I wanted to feel real full( not to the point of feeling sick), I feel like that alot.
I ate 4 pop tarts, 1 serving of cheese curls & 2 servings of Cheerios Snack Mix. I then felt real full and I stopped. I didn't want dinner after that, but forced myself to have lean protein and veggies. I thought it would help me feel like I was getting back to healthy food.

The snack mix went in the garbage! The cheese curls & pop tarts were my daughters, she wasn't home and I went into her room to get them. Again I was alone in the house! I didn't weight in today, I feel so heavy that I didn't want to know how bad it really is. I told my daughter the pop tarts were outdated and I threw them away, she doesn't know i ate them. She should be able to keep some snacks in her room, I feel so bad.

fruitlady,i am guilty of eating others food and lying about it too. I feel your pain. I don't think you should lie to your daughter though. I think it keeps your accountability down. please here me on this. I used to pig out on my aunt's puddings she kept in the fridge. I did it almost every day. I binged and included her good foods in it too. Finally one day, she got really upset and said "Jen, not for nothing, but I would like to have a pudding too." I felt mortified and sooooo bad. BUT, i didn't binge on her foods anymore.

You need to buy YOU something special and it is ALL YOURS. And when you have a good moment--go to your special treat. Hang in there, we are all pulling for you.

KimberlyP, I second that you are beautiful. Also you are an inspiration you lost 100 lbs and you have managed to keep it off. we are here to help you not slip back into old habits. especially if you feel a binge coming on--we are your support. there have been alot of times, i felt like binging, and my computer is less than 2 feet from the kitchen...so I come on here and type what I am feeling. WE HAVE ALL been to the point where we couldn't draw the line on a binge. But when you are in that mode, you just have to tell yourself, ok this STOPS here.

again, we are here for you.

LAKERS, congrats on picking yourself up and getting back to day 3.

heather, a loved one passing is a common trigger. it is an event out of our control. We seek control by eating what we want. Then we feel out of control, and then start to put "no, no's" so we can gain control again. it is a mess. REmember you ARE NOT that person anymore. You have other methods to cope. journaling, a walk. If you don't have a new coping tool--find one. You can do this. I'm sorry for your loss so so sorry. I went down a long dark road when my dad passed.

afm: day 13. yesterday since i overate, i haven't wanted to binge. I have drank 3 breakfast shakes and some green tea, and a chai latte. All liquids. I feel pretty good. Almost 2 weeks. I am so glad this place keeps me accountable.

Day 1 went well (it always does for me). Day 2 is fine so far. School held a farewell ceremony for me and I had almost no emotional response. My appetite is low-to-nonexistent today and I am choking down my lunch. Later at the mall we're getting giant parfaits; I hope I can contain myself.

Thankyou :)