If it's been a crazy busy day, then I definitely get excited to get home and get in bed with something very yummy (other than my husband, lol

)! Other than that I don't fantasize about it but I find myself always thinking about food in general. I know I look to food for happiness, but I'm not sure why. I have a very blessed life and I'm happy except for my weight. I was not like this growing up, as I've only been overweight since I had my 3 year old girl, but I realized recently that I cannot go to sleep until I have had something sweet, usually a large portion too. And I wait til my husband is asleep of course, because he is not overweight. Ugh,, why can't I stop? I want to be free from thinking of food as such a huge part of life and just enjoy eating what I need and whats good for me.