Originally Posted by saef (Post 5192276)

Well, there's one good thing here: I'm sure OP has recovered from the Fiber One bars by now, as the thread is about five years old.

I keep Quest protein bars in the house. They are without a doubt the sweetest thing that I eat anymore. I have one for dessert. After I eat it, there's sometimes a touch-and-go moment where I might head back to the pantry to get another. I feel like a drug addict in a movie, struggling with demons, as I make myself turn around and go do find something more productive with my time. And with any luck, if I become absorbed, I forget that I wanted to eat.

It wasn't eating to eat, it was eating to taste. Even more than wanting to taste, it was seeking a form of oblivion, something soothing.

And it was why I used to eat the same thing repeatedly: A switch went on, and I thought, "More, more, more" even as it wasn't tasting so good anymore, but eating was possessing, as if I was afraid something might be taken away from me and I had to cram it all in before someone pulled away the box or the dish.

Or else I used to binge sequentially, from salty and crunchy to soft and sweet, like I was searching for the exact taste & sensation that was satisfying enough so that I would finally feel sated and relieved.

I don't do this now. Haven't done it in maybe two years. But I never feel that far from it and oh, how how I understand these posts. I could go back to being that woman so easily, if I didn't watch myself and remind myself what these cravings are really about. For me, they are always a form of self-soothing and a release of tension, due to other things in my life causing stress -- none of which have anything to do with food or eating, so that will never solve them.