Okay! So me an my boyfriend are having some problems right now because of my jealousy...Well I felt like I wasnt good enough for him and yada yada yada..Well I got hungry and I made spaghetti, I even made garlic bread! I MADE A HUGE BOWL FOR MYSELF! There was enough for 2 people in my bowl! Plus the piece of garlic bread! I was literaly feeling guilty every bite I took of it! Thinking how bad it was guna be if I ate it all! I was thinking I was going to say screw it and eat the whole entire thing, but I stopped hurried and called my dog in the room set the bowl on the floor and let her eat the rest of it! It actualy made me feel better seeing her scarf it down cuz I knew it wasnt me! BUT it could have been me! ME scarfing that bowl of food to cover my emotions! I feel down on myself but I also feel relieved that I didnt eat it like I thought I was going to! Right now I am full, but not uncomfortably full! SO IM HAPPY abt that. I just feel ashamed that I was actualy going to eat all of it! Im going to go fill my bottle of water up and sip on that for awhile to make sure I dont go back for 2nds! I just cant believe I did that! I hope Im not the only one thats gone overly overboard! I just ask myself why?? Why would you let yourself go like that? Why would you think it was okay to do that? Would you do that in front of your friends? Your boyfriend? A stranger? Sometimes I feel so helpless! I dont understand why I treat myself this way..I think Im guna go take my dog for a walk, even though its cold an raining, I just need to feel free and not care for awhile! And also need to burn off some of this spaghetti..lol and My dog needs to as well! Right now shes laying on the bed behind me looking very fufilled and has her head on the pillow! I wonder if food does the same thing to her as it does to me? Sorry If this post is far off any topic of discussion but I just felt I needed to vent and let it all out!
How great that you caught yourself in the middle of a binge that was brought on by emotional distress. You are wising up to yourself! I call this "revenge" eating, but the revenge ends up hurting only ourselves.
I would think that this was a true learning moment for you, so be proud of yourself and know that you can conquer this!
the first step in dealing with the overeating is recognizing when we are eating out of emotions or out of true hunger. I would say that your doggie knows what you were feeling, and a new doggie toy is in order.
LoL! Thats so funny you said that because she just got a new toy today, forgot it in my moms car so we took a walk over to get it! And a bone!! :P I guess she was just spoiled rotten today! But I love her, she never says no to a walk! go figure.
dont beat yourself up, those people you would never want to emotional eat in front of have done it one time or another. Food is a hug we try to buy. just ask the walmart greeter next time and then you can get back in your car!!was trying to be funny there, my husband said i should quit trying. hopefully it worked though
Good for you for stopping. It took me years before I was able to do so! Sounds like a nice long walk for both you and pooch are in order ~ to celebrate! What kind of dog do you have? I'd love to get one but we live in a flat in the middle of a busy city, not big-dog friendly.. oh well, for now I have my kiddo to take for walks
zibsca-It was hard but I just basicly said IM NOT DOING THIS! And calling my dog in the room was the fastest way to make the food disapear without me eating it!! My dog is a black lab/rottweiler mix. But looks mostly like a black lab with some brindle on her legs. Her name is "Haze"
Im not sure If I can post a pic of her yet since I havent been a member for 25 days yet...but I will try. And I hope not. I dont usualy giv her people food, this time was just a desperate occasion!!
thanks so much for the birthday wish...but im not realy happy right now. i screwed up ROYALLY i literaly went on a 3 day binge! i ate whatever however much i wanted i feel disgusting and out of control! sometimes i just wish i wasnt even here..i feel so low.
Hmm... sounds like my past few days! We can feel disgusting together. My dog is my inspiration too! Sometimes when I'm binging she'll look at me and it almost feels like she's shaming me (although I know she's just begging, but still )
If anything, I'm more anal about my dog's diet than my own! I don't let her eat anything greasy...and if she gets table scraps it has to be something not-so-junky. This girl has several different veggies and fine cheeses in her foody repertoire. What a way to inspire healthy eating: If I don't want to feed it to my dog, I shouldn't eat it myself.
I understand you completely TeslaGirl!! I know better but its like I cant control myself! Once I let go, I cant stop! I just hope that I will have the strength to realy change..not just for a week or to, but forever..Because right now, I feel hopeless. I want to look forward to something...anything.
Thank God For my Dog!
go figure.
I just hope that I will have the strength to realy change..not just for a week or to, but forever..Because right now, I feel hopeless. I want to look forward to something...anything.
