I never actually thought of myself as a binge eater before...but now I have to admit to myself -and to all of you - that I am. I especially recognize this in myself as I try to change my eating habits and experience slip ups. I was chugging along just great and was 10 days into my healthy eating. Then I made the mistake of weighing myself and discovered that I was one pound up on the scale. So what did I do? I ate. I ate all of those things that I had denied myself for the past 10 days. And I ate until I was very full and I chose everything loaded with fat, sugar and white flour. I used to think I just made poor choices, but now I know for sure that I use food (and large amounts of it) to comfort myself, to ease my stress, to cure my boredom...I use it to cope and alleviate my fears and insecurities.
Anyway, I guess the first step is admitting the problem and I am glad to have found this forum because it is making me get 'real' with my issues. I feel like a normal average happy person, but I'm really not. I am a compulsive eater and need to meet my problems head-on. I have a family I need to stick around for and I owe it to myself to get a handle on this thing that I have been struggling with my whole life. I need to get healthy and stop using crutches to deal (or not deal) with my problems/stresses in life.
Thanks everyone for listening. It feels liberating to finally come clean to myself and others.
you are definitely not alone!!
