This would have been day 23 for me. I messed up today, really bad. My daughter wanted to go to the Old Country Buffet( a really good buffet, they have great food)for lunch, I didn't want to say no to her, she is 15 , I'm glad she wanted to spend time with me. I usually do good when I go there cause I like the salad bar and that is all I ever get. But today was a disaster, I started out w/ a salad, tasted some of the hot foods, but didn't like any of it( I'm not used to processed or fat filled crap anymore) So I went directly for dessert, I'm not kidding, I had about 10 desserts! Once I tasted the sweet stuff, I lost control. Then 3 hrs. later at home, I went to the store and bought natural peanut butter, f.f chocolate marshmallow frozen yogurt, and marshmallow cream in a container. I came home and binged on that too. I also went and got some reduced 50% off Easter candy( 3 Reese's P.B Eggs, 1-Russell Stover raspberry egg and a marshmallow egg) ate all those too when I got home. Then 2 hrs. later I ate the rest of the container of marshmallow. I was feeling sick right after the Buffet, why didn't i just stop?? The funny thing is, I didn't even feel bad or guilty like I always do. I had fun with my daughter, we had a great day together. I agreed to take her there once a month as long as we both stay on plan til we go there again. She has been eating healthy for 4 yrs. now and over that time she lost 30 lbs. I don't want us to blow it for good. I'm starting day 1 tomorrow, I'm going to lose the weight I will gain from today, and I'll just look forward to going there w/ my daughter next month. Move on and forget it!

I've been binge-free for a week now, yay :) Not even found it difficult because I've also made lots of positive changes, like exercising daily, which makes a huge difference to my motivation and mood.

Last night was not my finest hour from a diet point of view...rather a lot of mojitos, some wine and lots of picking at tortilla chips, nuts and other snacks at a house party. But I'm not calorie counting or anything, just trying to eat in a more balanced way and change my attitude towards food. So I'm very happy that, instead of last night being a huge setback that causes me to fall off the wagon completely, I can just think "Hey, was Saturday night, I had fun and I'll just carry on eating sensibly today." OK, it won't have helped me lose weight but I still feel good about myself and in control of my eating. :)

Hope everyone else is doing ok and staying motivated. Thinking of you all...

Working on Day 2 today.

I appreciate everyone's support, and I agree, I shouldn't be so hard on myself. It's just so easy to get upset when you managed to tack off so many days and end up back at Day 1.

Instead, I should focus more on having overall fewer binge days in a week, month, whatever, than on having a successive number of binge-free days in a row.

I agree fruitlady, move on and forget it!

A binge free life
 

I can totally relate to you! I lived most my life w/ the curtains drawn binging my brains out, till the day came when I realized I didn't know how to live life without binging. Today I am happy to say that I live life on life's terms, and do not numb out with food, engaging in my eating disorder. Today, you have a choice, you DON'T have to hurt yourself. For me, OA has been the solution to my food addiction. If you feel your binging has spun out control, I would suggest giving it a try. Its free!:p

i didn't binge today but i certainly did over eat, it's back to day 1 for me.

Day 1 for me, I made it. It was hard today cause I remember how good all that dessert was at the buffet and I actually wanted more today even though my stomach burned and I felt like crap. Processed foods don't agree w/ me anymore, why do I sometimes binge on it? It seems if I eat any food that is different from my usual fruit, veggies, yogurt and lean protein, I suffer.

Today is Day 25. I just realized I was off on my count! Which, I suppose, is a good thing because I'm less focused on binging? I don't know. Either way, it's been a good day. My parents sprung a trip to Panera for lunch on me this morning which I'm normally fine with, but it was at a time when I wasn't hungry and I'd already packed my lunch to eat at work. My mom seemed annoyed that I was considering not going with them, but I figure no one can tell me when or what I should eat and she'd deal with whatever decision I made! I did end up going with them and just had a cup of the Chicken Noodle Soup and ate my pre-packed lunch a little later than planned.

fruitlady -- Congrats on making it through Day 1, even though it was tough!

D -- I do the same thing when I drink! It's like the "caring" switch gets totally flipped off and there's no hope of it coming back on.

rainbow -- it sounds like you have the right attitude towards weight loss! We don't live in a bubble and we will have to eat socially sometimes...it's just all in how we handle it!

See everyone on the new thread on Monday!

April has been rough for me. I keep finding excuses for "treat days." Easter was one, I basically ate badly that entire weekend.

This weekend: "Birthday Weekend." (Birthday is officially tomorrow, so I will be weak, and I have dinner plans Tuesday so I may have that 'screw it' mentality Tues; I'm all or nothing) I had pizza Friday night and just kept eating. I have Carvel cake in the house and ate a lot of that today, and then because I'm sharing that w/ my hubby and feel like I can't get my fill b/c I have to split it, I went out to grocery store alone and got a single cupcake and then a box of raspberry turnovers. I ate the cupcake and 1 turnover in the car, then felt so guilty I threw the rest of the turnovers out (which weren't even that good or worth it anyway).

BLAH!
So: Friday for entire day: 3202 cal, Sat 3692, and today 2497.
I worked out today but big deal, that will hardly make a dent. I was really good overall in March, what the heck.

Obscene amount of food Saturday night. One of those I need to go shopping because I cleaned out the fridge nights. Sunday all clear time to try again. 7 pound jump then gone by the end of the week the cycle continues,

tryhard- nice to know im not alone with the cycle of up and weight loss every week..but at the same time i know how frustrating it is and what it does to your mentality! stay positive :)

i had a great weekend and lots of fun but man its like you wouldve forgotten i was ever on a diet.

i don;t feel guilty though and never felt out of control. i i am not worried about going back to normal eating which is neat for a change. and thought it was more calories than normal, i didnt binge!

strawberry shortcakes for the bday cookout with the fam and i was fine with having half! went out for pizza last night before the bars and i was fine with 2 pieces!

something caarraaazyy is happening but ilove it!!!!!! another day binge free...and i forgot what number im on haha

still not gonna weigh myself in the am though, haha plus its tom :( but i loved looking at my bday pics and seeing my muscles! kick *** calfs! and my triceps were visible!

I was so close to bingeing tonight I was literally shaking. My boyfriend spent the weekend over, and I always eat like crap when he's here because I want to just "let go" and "feel normal" ... riiiiight.
Anyway - this weekend my best friend got engaged, and we had a surprise party for her. I had 2 pieces of pizza at the event, and didn't eat any of the cake. By the time I got home, though, I did kind of binge a little on peanut butter and bread.... But then I stopped. I did feel overly full, and kind of sick... But I didn't way, completely over do it.
After my boyfriend left, I really, really, really wanted to binge.... I ate 2 100 cal bags of popcorn, 1 piece of toast with cottage cheese, 1 box of raisins, some canned corn... And then I stopped. So, not too insanely crazy. I stopped myself. I want to eat more, and I didn't. I brushed my teeth and came on here.
I have been sick all week - my throat hurts really bad and my chest is congested. I forced myself to exercise last week when I shouldn't have, and I think it made me sicker. So that is all contributing to me wanting to eat.
But - to me - I stopped twice this weekend, when I could have kept going. I could have kept eating and eating, but I said "no" and stopped before it went full-on binge.
I am trying to learn to intuitively eat without bingeing on stuff like peanut butter, bread, raisins, etc... And so far, I have over-eaten a lot more than I would have if I restricted myself to fruits/veggies/lean protein only. But I want to do this in a way that is sustainable for the rest of my life. I want to learn to "deal" with these foods. Some things are still off-limits, like cakes/sweets, etc. But ... I didn't BINGE this weekend in such a way that makes me sick and nauseous and want to die and feeling totally ashamed... :-( So. therefore. I am giving myself day 18 today because I am continuing my streak of not having a big, sickening binge. I am overeating and I need to rein that in. But I am showing some restraint where there used to be none.

Congrats, Ravensglen! It sounds like you are making some real progress in tackling your disordered eating. I am trying to eat more intuitively too. Keep up the good work.

Day 2 for me, my weight has me scared. I'm sticking with the plan til I lose it. No binging for me!