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Day 32

Hey guys! You all are doing great! Hang in there!

Myself, however, is a different story.... I was on call last night, and needed to buy dinner from the hospital cafeteria and went a little hogwild. I had a super grilled cheese (cheese, bacon, ham on sourdough) with italian wedding soup with six crackers... if that wasn't enough I went back to the cafeteria an hour later (I was not hungry -- just bored!!) and ate a pudding sundae with oreo cookies... yes. It's as bad as it sounds.

This morning I just wanted to say "screw it" and buy a hamburger/fries/milkshake/cupcakes/everything on my drive home... but I drove right by and went home instead :smug: I ate some egg beaters on one piece of toast with low-fat cheese.

I think I'm starting to realize that achieving weightloss, for me, is a series of small battles instead of one large war. How do you perceive the struggle for yourselves?

lata - thanks... it is nice to know tim hortons is not just my issue :) i had to buy donuts on monday for a colleague that was leaving - so i gave the money to someon else to buy them and managed to avoid them. did you know that timbits have 60-90 calories EACH!!! you're better off eating a full donut at 300 cal than snacking on 'a few' timbits!!

shelflife - i TOTALLY agree that it is little battles... daily, sometimes hourly! way to go ...pat yourself on the back for recognizing what you did, why you did it and for making a healthy choice at home!!!

so as i was typing the post above, i was eating sugar free werther's ... about 200 cal worth... that is no small feet! they are about 7 cal each so that is a lot!! my tummy is wicked upset now... not from calorie overload but... YUCK! i am soooo friggin tired and now my belly hurts and i soooo dont want to exercise in a little more than an hour... i have not wanted to 'fall off the wagon' this badly in a really long time! and i am even at work where it is normally soooo easy to get through the day.... i need strength.. and am not sure i am going to find it within myself today .... why do i feel like crying? eating? is it just that i am that tired? or ???? yesterday was amazing... great food, wicked exercise, huge accomplishments...and today... this.... guess i need to focus on yesterday and make today just as positive... i'll try to 'rinse' out the werthers with some water and warm tea and hopefully feel okay to spin in an hour... sorry for the rant ... super unimpressed with myself right now!

I was feeling incredibly bingey after my first post. I practiced some anti-binge eating techniques, but no matter how much I asked myself "am I hungry?" and insisted "no" , that part of my brain yelling "fries! fries! fries! fries!" would not quit!

So asked myself what else could be wrong. I was on call last night, and got about 5 hours of sleep, so clearly I was tired. I tried to appease the voice at first with alternate foods: an orange, wasa crispbread with laughing cow, and finally a Smart Ones meal. When, after this, I felt like I needed another microwave meal and was still fighting with myself about driving down the road and pigging out on fries, I finally listened to myself. I took a nap.

I just woke up after a couple of hours, and guess what? I've stopped thinking about fries :)

happytobe...you may be unimpressed with yourself, but I am TOTALLY impressed with you. You've just hit a rough patch and I know you'll be able to make it through today. Think of this way...you may feel super anxious and sad and wanted to just eat right now, but if you give in to that, won't you still feel anxious and sad? The only difference will be the added (bad!) feelings that accompany a binge. Things WILL get better. You just have to wait it out!

shelflife -- isn't it funny how our bodies know what we need, but we deny it? For what? I am horrible about eating according to time and not according to what my hunger levels are. I'm trying to get better at that so I can get better at listening to my body for all kinds of other things...like needing sleep!

Congrats to all you binge-free chickies! We are an awesome group! I'm on Day 21 and I'm feeling a little better about my calorie splurge the other night. I've also down super well today, even though it hasn't been a routine day! Hope everyone finishes out this day strong (I know you will!)

Day 20 for me, did good today. No cravings at all!

Day 65!!:D

Fruitlady, I'm so happy you made it to day 20! You made my day. :D

Blairsey, excellent job! We're making this happen. :carrot:

Happytobe, I think you're doing an awesome job!:bravo:

Foxxylady, Keep up the great work! :cp:

jdonato, just wanted to say hi. You're doing a great job, too! Good luck with your exams. :coffee2: :goodluck:

shelflife, congrats to you for realizing you were tired. Keep going. Forget it and move on. The fact that you're here trying is super! (I know what you're going through...I've been there, done that.) I'm thinking good thoughts for you. I know you can make it!

Paris, congrats to you making it to Day 32!

Let's stay strong, everyone!

Tyla

Day 1...boo! :(

Yes we are!:broc:

I am on day 10! Double digits! Right now for me it's TOM and I am craving a binge big-time. Doesn't mean I'm going to give in to it, but I just wanted to write that I'm struggling a little right now. For now I'm chewing gum and trying to distract myself.

WOW you ladies really really rock!!! I cannot thank you enough for the encouragement... I am feeling much better today ... yesterday I went down to the gym and did my own spinning for 45+min and at the end i felt like i had accomplished something and the urge to eat was gone. i then took my oldest son to a movie and snuck in all our own food to avoid the temptations... then home and had my evening snack... feeling very good today for sure!

lets all knock today off!!!! thank you!!!!!!!

Good Morning Ladies,

I completed day 10 and am working on day 11 now. I'm also doing good with my exercise. I'm following my FIRM rotation to the tee and I'm doing some additional walking.

Skyra - I hope you made it through last night. Stay strong.

Duqs - I agree with you on the all or nothing mentally, I'm working on that too, I'm trying to allow myself to have some of the things I want (in moderation). I've read that binge eaters should not deprive themselves of anything.

Have a great day everyone. We can do it!