Seriously.
The last TWO days I've gone over by at least 600 calories each day (well in total the damage for both days was like 1258 or something like that, like what I ate over added together). I was doing SO GOOD before that. I really was. I had a few over-days but not this bad. I feel like total crap, I mean I know I can just "start again tomorrow" and that that really can't undo all of my weight loss but I feel awful about it. I want to lose 20 more pounds (well I actually don't know how much I have to lose to be at 226 because I've been too scared to weight myself in weeks) by my birthday in May. This is not helping me, I know that this won't go away that this is going to be a problem probably until I die but feeling so desperate and giving in to everything makes me feel really weak and well, really really fat.
One thought was upping my calories to 1400. I've been trying a 1200 but I've also been doing a lot more exercise than I was in the beginning a couple months ago and I've kind of been doing a 1200-1400 but I've really been aiming for 1200. I'm thinking if I have room enough for a snack a day then I'll be less likely to binge (kindofsortofnotreally). I don't know I just need to know again that there are people out there who have the same issues I do, I have no one else to talk to about this in my "real life", this website gives me comfort even if it's just open in a tab because this is where I can get help with this thing I'm going myself, you know?

Yes, definitely, up to 1400, if not higher. I looked you up, just generally, on www.freedieting.com, for their calculators, (at my age and height, since I'm not sure of yours) and it has 1950 for EXTREME fat loss at your current weight. Don't set yourself up by going too low!

As far as 1400 goes, that (well 1400 to 1500) is my daily goal, and it is nice - I get breakfast (250), lunch (300), a snack (150) and still have room for a big dinner and maybe even dessert. It's way more doable than 1200.

I feel you on the website being comforting! It is so wonderful to have a place to go to for support. We're here for you!

Yeah, I think 1200 is much too low. You may be sabotaging yourself with too few calories. Losing weight isn't about starving yourself and you're unlikely to have long term success if you're hungry. I'd try 1,500 or 1,600 calories a day.

*Okay I tried editing my title because I mixed up the words but it won't save so I just had to mention that*.
I feel so crappy right now. I appreciate your advice, I did up my calories yesterday and today but today was Easter and it went horrible. I promised myself I wouldn't binge but I took a nap, woke up hungry, and grabbed the first things I saw which happened to be doughnut holes and almost a hole solid-mini chocolate bunny, I just feel so awful for that right now. I'm not going to be losing what I want to this month because of this week, I don't think. I feel just really gross and icky.