Feeling kind of weird right now. I had planned on celebrating my 21 days today, but everyone was busy, and I don't feel like going to a restaurant today alone.

I have the desire to go and shop and buy foodstuffs---but I have more than enough already.

I am trying to convince myself to do some cleaning when I get home.

I think I am just feeling a little let down because I thought I would have lost more weight by now. Also, it has been a month since I have seen my ex, and well, I think that is probably a bit why I am blue---just accepting the reality of how our new relationship is, and trying not to get bummed out about any future potential dating prospects. A friend told me to date casually, but right now, there are no fish biting and I wonder if there ever will be, ya know?

Sigh. I ate today, and I didn't feel full at the end of my lunch. I didn't feel like much of anything, other than I felt just a bit incomplete. Hmmm, that is probably a bit telling, no?

Hey it just sounds like you've been a little down these few days, so all I can say is cheer up!

The whole community here is behind you and we all know how painful it can be to be dealing with issues everyone else deals with and at the same time be losing weight.

All the way ! =)

Thank you for your support.

I am feeling really discouraged about the weight. My weight is still hovering at 314lbs. Ugh.

I am going to get more strict about my calories. Lately, I have not been able to stick to 1200, and have been eating more along 1600 calories, etc.

I am going to change my calories to 1300-1500 to see how I fare with that range. I also need to increase my water intake.

I am trying to deal with how I am feeling about a certain situation. I am worried because I know that when I am upset or frustrated, I end up eating, and well, just hurting my body with too much of the wrong types of food.

A friend asked me to an event, and I said yes. I wasn't completely sure about going, but I thought that it may be good. I am not sure that her friend really wanted me to go. Her friend was supposed to give me the information about how to get to the event. Her friend wasn't so forthcoming, and at times, I feel like she tried to not be clear about it purposely. that upset me a lot. I had wasted time getting ready for the event, planning my day around the event, etc. I am also upset because my friend seemed to not really notice or care about the effort I had made. Sometimes she gets focused on things in her life, having fun, and I cannot always really talk to her like I can with other friends. This is hard at times because when a person isn't available to talk to, and they are focused on things and having fun, it can be upsetting at times.

I just thought I would write out how I am feeling and maybe it will help me with avoiding any binges. I just feel really upset at my situation with my friends and I am feeling kind of alone and just, well, upset.

I felt very close to overeating and breaking my healthier eating today. I just started craving all of the food I am not supposed to be eating.

I think I was just generally upset today. Can't say why really, maybe hormones? I just had that browbeaten feeling. Sigh. I am not sure why I felt irritable today, maybe just not being able to turn to food as an outlet?

But, aside from some banana chips and cheese, I did ok food wise. I ate over my calories, but I thankfully didn't get something to eat that I shouldn't.

I was going to go grocery shopping, but I realized that 1) I have enough food to eat at home that I can surely throw together a meal and 2) if I got to the supermarket when I am feeling like this, then I am more likely to buy something that is not good for me.

I don't know why I am feeling the way I am, I do hope that I feel better tomorrow.

I also feel like there are some things I want to accomplish in my life, and even though I shouldn't say it, it does help to keep me motivated to think of that it may be easier for me to accomplish certain goals at a lower weight. One example would be having kids. If I weigh less, that could help to improve my chances of fertility and help me to be able to get around and have a better pregnancy if I am not carrying too much weight.

I was so hungry when I got home, I just quickly made myself some soup broth with a bit of kick to it, to quell that hungry feeling. Tomorrow, I will bring a good amount of food to work, and some fibrous veggies and hopefully that will help with the hunger.

I just so want to get to 305 or below. Wish me luck.

So, I have been a bit disappointed with the lack of weightloss and, I have been working a lot and not bringing my diet food with me. My schedule has been so hectic and I have been so tired that I haven't been cooking as much as I usually do.

So, here I am, hungry, not able to get food for a couple more hours, AND, I am not sure what I am going to eat for dinner or for tomorrow. And, I ate food at a friends house and ate more bread and chips than I had anticipated.

I am not sure what to eat, my lean protein is frozen, and I am on a budget and may not be able to get to my fave supermarket today for some healthier food options. Sigh. I feel like I am close to just buying some kind of cheap food for today and tomorrow, but I don't want to start that negative pattern again.

On a positive note, I have been better at avoiding sugar than I have at avoiding bread and pasta.

You can do it! If you are on a budget- some tofu and frozen vegetables is my favorite cheap/healthy meal! If you have some soy sauce or marinade- three-four meals will cost less than $5 total! Add some frozen brown rice if you need a starch also! I live in the frozen foods section of walmart, lol Or even a lean cuisine or something? Or heat up some beans with taco seasoning, mix with salsa and brown rice and throw em on a plate of bagged salad? (poor/healthy mans taco salad!!) But they are all cheaper than fast food!

I am also on a tight budget and it does help being vegetarian, you can get healthy food cheap- just think creatively! Every nights dinner leftovers becomes tomorrows lunch for me ( I plan it that way)- maybe that will help you with bringing lunch to work? It's hard when money is tight. Your hard work is going to pay off though! I hope your week gets better and you see some big losses!

thank you, everybody!

I ended up not eating take out for dinner, and just got some meat from the supermarket. I will also chop up some veggies to eat for tomorrow as well.

I do realize that I have to be more careful with planning my food. It was so easy for me today to go to a fast food restaurant or eat some high carb food because it was nearby and cheap. I really have to make sure to cook on the days that I am home on time(lately, I haven't been coming home at the same time and haven't felt like cooking).

I ate some pasta this weekend, and it felt like my body wasn't happy about it. Also, the next morning I woke up feeling slightly congested. So, this really tells me to avoid those foods when possible.

I hope that the scale is nicer to me tomorrow. I really want to keep losing this weight. Once I get below 300lbs I know I will feel a lot better about certain things.

I have been feeling a bit blue lately, and just wanting to escape from it all. I have also been having strong cravings for intense comfort food and sweets. I am watching the scale and trying to not give into those cravings often. Just having a hard time avoiding the lure of sweets, and the comfort that they give.