Okay, I'm out. I screwed up big time yesterday. I gotta quit feeling sorry for myself. When I see other people chow down on sugary stuff, it makes me mad sometimes that I "know better". Sometimes I wish I was still in the dark, or in denial or SOMETHING. Most people don't even think twice about eating a cookie, or a piece of candy, but I agonize over it, debate it, make deals with myself, and in the end, the only thing that ever happens is I binge and feel like crap for the next 2 days. So here I am...Day 1 again.
You know, I gave up cigarettes, (a pack a day 20 year addiction) and I NEVER even dream of smoking. I drank a 1.75ML bottle of Black velvet whiskey by myself in around 4 days...every day for several years. I quit and don't even remotely crave the stuff...matter of fact it sounds vile to me...WHY can't I feel the same way about SUGAR??? It makes me feel terrible, puts me in a coma like trance, makes me gassy, and constipated and bloated, but I still crave it, dream it. The $hit is TOXIC for me.
RANT over.
