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Originally Posted by paris81
Major confession time: I was at day 83 on Saturday, then Sunday, I fell. I had gotten some bad news from a professor about my work, and some feedback from a friend about some other work, and it wasn't good, and I felt really, really crappy. I had a friend visit me over the weekend, and so I ate poorly (though didn't binge with her here), and I didn't get any work done over the weekend. So on Sunday, I felt overwhelmed with all of the work I had. And I was still feeling crappy about the feedback I had gotten. And physically I felt gross and bloated from the bad quality food I had eaten with my friend (not too much food, just bad salty, yuck).
And I stopped caring. I didn't care that I was at 83 days, and that I had wanted to make it to 90 to get to three months. I didn't want to have to fight it, because I was fighting so many other negative and stressful feelings, it was just too much. It wasn't worth it.
So I binged. Not as much as I would have before, I couldn't fit it all in. I didn't feel worse emtionally, I already felt (and still feel) awful because of the other things going on in my life. But I did feel really gross physically. I can feel the bloat in my fingers, it's gross.
So today, I start over with Day 1. Yikes! Day 1 is so hard!
Paris, I am so sorry about this!
You're right, Day1 is so so hard, but it will quickly turn into day 2 and then day 3 and so on! I am sure you will do great! You are such an inspiration for me.
Ever since the binge eating has started, I binged at least once a week. I just couldn't stay on the wagon for more than 5 or 6 days.
Today I am Day 12 and I've only made it this far, because I told myself to think of the strong chick on 3fc (you) who has stayed on the wagon for more than 2 months!!!
You can do this again!