Today I sat at home and ate. A lot. My head isn't in the right place because I guess I was thinking "It's okay, you can just work it off later" and then halfway through some pancakes I realized that this is what got me to have to lose weight in the first place but then I kept on eating! I've lost a little bit of weight, nothing noticable or anything, but I feel so bad whenever I eat period now. Like....once I eat then I can't stop but I don't want to eat because I just go crazy!
I feel like I won't ever be able to accomplish what some of the users on here have with hitting their goal! I feel so stuck and I'm only 15! Other kids my age don't even have to worry about what they eat!
Don't give up!! You are making progress at least acknowledging the type of behavior that got you where you are today. Tomorrow is another day!
Next time you are at home and feel the urge to eat, try doing something else for 10 or 15 minutes (anything from laundry to homework). If you are still hungry after that, then find something healthy to eat. If you really weren't hungry to begin with, it's like the urge will pass
Please know that when you start up fresh again, you will be better off. Why? You will have more information. As For instance, maybe you can figure out what made you eat those pancakes. Or, maybe you'll figure out that eating certain foods lead you to overeating. Also, I highly recommend tracking your calories. That way, you can eat many different foods, but you'll be accountable and track how much you have left. Sometimes, I'll have something that is "sinful," and I think I've blown it and I end up eating everything in sight, but if I eat something "sinful" and I know I still am within my calorie range, I'm less likely to overeat.
As far as other people your age not having to worry about their weight....that's not exactly true...childhood obesity is at an all time high. You are definitely not alone. However, I can understand why you feel this way since so many young people your age are very thin and they seem to do it with no effort. Does it really matter though? This is your truth. Your reality. The alternative is to just keep on eating without any worry and where would that get you?
You've come to the right place and you will find a way. Please visit here often and get the support you need. Most of all, keep your chin up....you will see that your attitude is half the battle. One day, you'll be posting an inspirational story that will help someone else who is where you are now.
Thank you Mollewog (that such a cute user name!).
I guess I'll try and get some fruit or something that I like to snack on. My mom and I haven't been eating all that healthy lately.
I dunno, though, the urge just seems to...sit there and like eat at me sometimes. Those are the hardest to get away.
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And thank you Luckymom (I didn't see your post till I posted mine).
I go to a pretty small school, there are like...there are only 3 'larger' people there besides atheletes and I'm one of them. My friend is around my weight but she's pretty tall so of course she looks a bit thinner.
I think I will try what you've said, I've been a bit more cautious when I'm trying to eat normal how much of what I eat so it's within portion range.
I certainly hope I can one day!
Last edited by bunnythesAINT; 11-11-2009 at 08:18 PM.
I think you should try calorie counting so far its working for me! As long as you stick with it you will see results....i saw BIG results just being here 2 months and you can too! Just don't give up I wish I had a place to go to for support when I was 15, this place is great you will learn a lot from reading about what many of the people here do Good Luck!
Hey bunny, I'll let u in on a little secret. U are already having to deal with this and learning about diet and exercise now, correct? Well, the skinny girls are not even considering any of that. So, by the time u are in young adult hood u will know lots and they will know nothing which leads to u getting skinny and them getting to the overweight point because they have never had to deal with any of these issues. TRUST ME-this is coming from the girl who in school was rocking 200 and at our 10 year reunion one of the guys actually asked who I was married to because he didn't know me and all the "skinny" girls where not so skinny!!
Good point Jokan! I know plenty of girls who peaked in high school and then that was pretty much it. I can really understand your feelings. I started to binge eat around your age and I know how hard it is, but everybody struggles with something. Many times, it's hard to believe what goes on in people's personal lives...even when they seem to have it all. The problem with being overweight is that everyone can see your weight and so you can't keep that particular issue private. But nobody has it all. For instance, when I'm at goal and looking so much better, I have plenty of people that are very jealous of me. One friend, in particular, always tells me how much she envies my looks, etc....it's actually quite uncomfortable for me to hear. However, they don't know that I suffer from chronic daily migraines. I'm in pain at all times and I want to vomit at all times from this pain. They also don't know that my son has a disability. They don't have a clue as to the pain that is ripping my heart into shreds...even though I walk around trying to have a smile on my face.
I definitely don't want to bring you down with this post. Quite the opposite. I hope you will realize that you can change things around and the majority of that change occurs in your head and how you respond to your urges to eat. I feel like a total food addict and once I get a craving, it's hard to even think straight. However, in counting my calories, I'm really good most days. Go on Google and type in RMR calculator. Those are how many calories you burn if you don't move. I would aim to eat that amount and then, I would add in exercise. Start slow, drink lots of water, chew gum and drink tea when you now it's not time to eat...keep a food journal and do nice things for yourself.
You can totally do this!!!! We'll be here to support you all the way!
Thank you everyone!
Today I did better because I had to stay at school and wasn't able to eat as much as I would've had I been at home.
I was just feeling really awful yesterday.
Yeah, I never thought of that Jokan, I guess you do make a very good point.
I'm sorry about your son, Luckymommy, but yes I do understand what you're getting at.
I'm quite worried about gym classes, the semester ends quite soon and my gym classes are suppose to start in December but I hate school gym classes. I can't keep up with everyone else and I just feel like a total idiot for not being able to, and I know it's not about that I know it's to get exercise and all that, but even still I don't know how to deal with that either?
I thought about trying things on my own and waiting until next year to take the class when it could potentionally be easier for me if I lost a little bit of weight.
Thank you for taking the time to answer me =].
Thank you everyone!
Today I did better because I had to stay at school and wasn't able to eat as much as I would've had I been at home.
I was just feeling really awful yesterday.
Yeah, I never thought of that Jokan, I guess you do make a very good point.
I'm sorry about your son, Luckymommy, but yes I do understand what you're getting at.
I'm quite worried about gym classes, the semester ends quite soon and my gym classes are suppose to start in December but I hate school gym classes. I can't keep up with everyone else and I just feel like a total idiot for not being able to, and I know it's not about that I know it's to get exercise and all that, but even still I don't know how to deal with that either?
I thought about trying things on my own and waiting until next year to take the class when it could potentionally be easier for me if I lost a little bit of weight.
Thank you for taking the time to answer me =].
I was doing just fine for a while....
