I binged this past thursday night because I was stressed out about this guy I was seeing. I knew I didn't wanna be with him, but didn't think I had the courage to end it. Well, today I did! And after I broke up with him, I thought about bingeing, and although I probably ate too much at dinner I did NOT binge. Woo!

*high-fives everyone* GO US!!!

Ravensglen, congratulations on breaking up with that guy. I'm proud of your courage and your ability to stay on-track despite the stress!

today instead of running to the fridge at work thinking i have to eat all the food I have there before I go home I gave it away to my coworkers and treated them to eat...I felt "GOOD"...instead of going home guilty that I ate way to much...

I NEED A BIT OF YOUR COURAGE!!! its better to be alone and happy then to be miserable with someone...I wish i could just listen to myself and let go...its not healthy.

Guzman -- you can do whatever you put your mind to. Though I know it's not easy. I've definitely been in the "I'd be better off without but I haven't left them yet" situation.

Today I made oatmeal for dinner with a tablespoon of peanut butter (mmm!). Normally, when I eat oatmeal, I have something on the side because I got it into my head that I need more food than just oatmeal. Today I said "I'll start with the oatmeal, and if I'm hungry afterward, I can always eat something else." Sure enough, the oatmeal filled me up just fine, so I saved myself an overeating session!

ha ha I was shaking when I was doing it, but I knew it would just eat me up inside until I just broke up with him. And the way I saw it - the self-torture is far worse than anything he could have said to me, etc.

Way to go Skyra... oatmeal with peanut butter is yummy! Its awesome that you just told yourself you could have more if you wanted later, but didn't need to. :-)

Today I drank only water and ate pretty healthy meals throughout the day. I feel great :]

Thank You!! Each day he does something to make me realize i should leave...i get the courage to say something...but I don't...ugh!!

I LOVE OATMEAL...i can do without the peanut butter though not much of a fan...

You're Right...it is a TORTURE...

Well this afternoon when i walked in to work I was feeling hungry so i got WATER!! yay

ravensglen -- thanks! this is definitely a new thing for me -- putting less on my plate and telling myself I can add more if necessary. I don't know why that's so hard! But it'll help me cut out some unneeded calories for sure...

Britt -- good for you! I'm glad you feel great

Guzman -- If it gets bad enough, you WILL leave. I have tended to leave relationships only when it got to an emotional breakdown, "I can't take this anymore" stage. I really wouldn't recommend letting yourself go through that much pain. If you know you're going to break up with him anyway, and if you know that you should, it's much better to do it sooner than later. It can feel near-impossible I know... and I don't have the best track record... but I'm thinking of you. I hope you can steel yourself and do it! You owe that to yourself! I know when I got out of a toxic relationship, it was near impossible to initiate the breakup, but once he was gone I felt SO much relief almost immediately... it was so worth it!

ETA: I was tempted to binge yet AGAIN this evening, but I made some hot tea and chewed gum instead. Yay for me~!

Hi everyone, today I munched on dry high fiber cereal with raisins mixed in. It was good and it satisfied my need to munch. I had no cravings today that would lead to a binge. Yahoo!

Today I picked up a pretzel (a big no no for me as I am a celiac) and then I talked myself out of it and put it back in the bag.

This isn't quite about binging in particular, but it still relates to physical awareness, which I think is pretty key to breaking the binging habit. (I've been surprised how sometimes I'm not even aware my stomach is full until I consciously ask myself, "Am I full yet?" Weird! But it's been helping me a lot.)

Last night I could NOT sleep (my brain was racing and my stomach hurt). I tried meditation, a bath, writing, reading... everything, but no matter what I did I still couldn't sleep. I was up until about 4:30 am, and I have work at 8:30. When I woke up this morning I felt exhausted and nauseous. Normally I would have ignored it and gone to work anyway... but lately I'm trying to do a better job of listening to my body ... and this morning it said ... no way! I feel sick!

So I'm taking today off. My body is telling me to rest, so I'm going to do something different today and listen, for once. Hopefully that's a "good choice". I feel guilty about it because normally I wait until I'm deathly ill to take a day off. And by that point, I'm sick for the whole week, but have to go in to work anyway, so I end up feeling horribly miserable and my healthy eating goes straight out the window for days at a time. I'm trying something better this time... but I still feel kinda guilty...

Skyra, you did the right thing by giving your body a chance to rest. Take this time to really take care of yourself.

I have a severe migraine today. I have one every day, but it's much more intense today and this would normally lead me to binge on something, but instead, I had some tea. So far so good.

I just found this thread and I love it. I make so many good choices lately, but I was only focused on the bad choices. I was sick around Halloween and I binged for 3 or 4 days (the worst time to do it due to all the candy) and now, since then,I have been binge free...definitely a huge accomplishment!

luckymommy -- Good for you! wow, you've been binge-free for so long! WTG on the tea, too. it's definitely good to focus on all the good choices. it really helps you remember that you're improving even just a little every day i'd love to see you post more here!

and thanks for the support. I slept all morning and I'll make sure to make the rest of the day a nourishing one as well.