Chirsty: I am no longer worried--I thought you were not going to eat ANYTHING! Good luck!

candy....
 

Help! The halloween candy is calling my name! It is almost 10pm. I had a snack 30 minutes ago so this is NOT about hunger. I just think I might need a PB cup... (need? lol)

If I let myself have one, will it just be one? The stupid thing is that it won't even taste that good--I know this.

What am I going to do with all this candy!?!?! I can't throw it out, the kids will kill me!

God, I hate these obsessive thoughts! Why can't they go away and leave me alone!!!!!!!:mad::mad::mad:

Karen, don't do it!! One PB cup (at least in my experience) is never just one!!

Eat something healthy instead! Or make tea! WHATEVER IT TAKES.

I know this is probably old by now and everyone here is on topof thing but I so am not.
Lost weight about 10 years ago and it has been a constant struggle to keep of.
Now exercise every day but at one point it was twice (how mad was that)but I am also so good most ofthe day then at night I am totally preoccupied with what I am going to eat -so good to know I am not alone .Why on earth does this happen?I am so jealous of my husband who eats his evening meal and goes to bed 4 hours later having not eat another thing.

we are all here to help/listen. my husband is so tiny! hah! he can eat 3 pizzas and not gain an ounce! ugh....i understand, but, keep your chin up and come back here, there are lots of good folks here to lean on!

fw37, Hi, I know what you mean. I've only been maintaining for 4 mo. and it is a constant struggle. you have been doing it for 10 yrs. That's great! I get hungary every night around 9pm. I grab a few grapes and carrot sticks, it helps alot. Don't give in and keep up the good work!

Thanks for your positive comments-my hubby is lovely but seems to think it is easy to just stop(darn men).He also thinks that I should not worry about my weight-what are they like?Will be back for sure.

fw37, I think men don't take weight loss as seriously as women do. It's not easy to stop! Mine didn't care too much about eating healthy all his life and he never got real heavy from it. Sooo lucky! He found out he had borderline high cholesterol, and the doctor told him he should excersize and watch what he eats, even then he didn't listen. Now a year later he is trying and we take walks together every day. He doesn't think there is anything wrong with the way I was binging and also doesn't care how much I weigh. They just don't care!!

The halloween candy on the counter in our front office had had my undivided attention all afternoon. Three fun sized mm's and a starburst later and I'm begging for help! I wish I could just go out there and toss it all in the bin! Do you think that would be rude? Do you think ppl will get pissed if I do that?

Hi, I'm new, and I'd really like to join this thread. Having read the experiences in this thread, I realized I'm definitely a starve-then-binge girlie. I used to be a starve-and-starve girlie, but then my ex boyfriend would put huge plates of macaroni cheese in front of me for supper, so unsurprisingly I turned into what I am now, which I didn't think was binging, exactly, but... well.

How awful, to be in denial like that... I mean, it makes a lot of sense: I still have leftover anorexic habits but now they're punctuated with the most unbelievable, incredible binges, week-long things. (e.g. I went with my hubs to see his friends in Spain, and I ate so much during that week that they said I could eat more in a meal than the two men combined. Which was true. I could.)

But I just thought it was a lapse in self-control. I didn't label it as "binging". You're witnessing an event here, ladies... I was reading this thread casually, thinking, "I'm not really a binger, but it might be helpful to read," and eating my bologna sandwich, and I suddenly thought, "Man, I don't think one sandwich will be enough, I'm going to eat five of them and I won't be able to stop myself..." This is a normal sort of thought for me, so I tried to deal with it as I normally do: finish the sandwich, park my arse on a seat and not get up for ten minutes until I don't feel the need to eat every single slice of bologna in the world.

You can imagine what happened next: as I was eating, and subsequently parking my rear, I saw the exact same thing in the posts I was reading. And then, "Oh my god I really AM a binger, just not willing to believe it!"

So I guess you'll see me around here sometimes.

lost - My heart just bleeds for you... When reading your posts I felt like crying. You're such a brave person and I just want to give you a hug! Hang in there.

Nenu, I hear ya, I realized I was a binger only after a few months. So I'm trying to cure the problem now before it gets worse. 3fc really has helped me get past it, I'm binge free for 3 days now. Just remember it's never to late to try and stop, tomarrow is a new day!

fruitlady - For years and years I just labeled it, "a lack of self control", or "disordered eating" or something that was a general label for a very specific issue. But now that I think of it, it really is the sole reason I'm now ~172 lbs rather than 110, like I was during my teenage years. I'm not a junk food junkie; I like it, sure, but my favourite foods are "good" food. I'd much rather have a sandwich made of thick, grainy whole wheat bread, chicken, avocado and homemade mayonnaise than a McDonald's burger, for example. But I'd have nothing to eat all day and then THREE lovely sandwiches, or a lovely sandwich, a big plate of macaroni cheese with homemade cheese sauce and a homemade chocolate lava cake, for example. ALL AT ONCE. Which must be 2500 calories or more.

The reason I came back to the thread so soon is to tell you ladies what happened at dinner tonight.

Today for breakfast and for a late lunch I ate a bologna sandwich with light bologna, fat free cheese, light mayo and light bread. (I don't know the calorie count but they're 4 WW pts each.) Tonight we went to dinner at a lovely restaurant which has the most gorgeous, biggest spinach salad in the world. I was very pleased with myself for getting the dressing on the side.

But then I had a bread roll with butter! And then a 3 oz piece of my hubs' steak! And then I wanted dessert! And when my hubs (who had a headache and who wanted to go home) finally vetoed dessert, I meekly asked him if I could get TCBY on the way home! (A child's size is cheap - 2 pts.) And he said, "You'd just be throwing away points. It won't be worth it."

Bless his heart. I don't know if that sounds like a lot of food (which it doesn't when I write it down), but you have to believe me when I say this spinach salad comes on a platter that is larger than my head. It's HUGE. MAMMOTH. If Godzilla were to eat spinach salads, his would be the same size. Bloody ****, if Godzilla WERE a spinach salad, it would be the same size.

All the time the words were coming out of my mouth, I was hoping he would say no. NO, YOU CANNOT EAT MORE. Because I couldn't say no to myself. :(

Edit:
I just realized I didn't even tell you chickies everything I ate for dinner... I also had 1 dinner roll, about 1 tsp of the whipped butter, and I polished off my husband's cooked spinach from his plate when he was done! I didn't even remember I'd had those things.

Does anyone else get this? The memory-wipe afterwards?

At least yor husband seems to be trying to help-mine(although is very sweet ) doesnt really see a problem.Have to admit this is probably because I hide a lot of itt so well.

Mango 30 I sometimes get that prob when people bring goodies to work and leave then lying about-its awful I end up not being able to concentrate.I am determind to stop it though not really because of my weight which is ok but I am so so sos sick of it filling my thoughts.KEEP POSITIVE Mango

Hi Nenu, The huge spinach salad sounds good! I love it. You could have ordered something alot worse than that. Give your self some credit! I'm the same, I would rather eat healthy foods than junk also, because I just love the flavor much more. But you also can gain weight from too much healthy food also, more than your body needs. Cows get fat on grass! Keep trying, don't give up!

So they called me from school and I had to go pick up my son. He's coughing his head off and I got him an appt. for this afternoon. So, what do I want to do right now? That's right. EAT. Going to take a shower now and I hope I can white knuckle my way through.

Wardhog dont doit keep strong.

Don't do it! If you have to munch on something, choose veggies!

such a binger
 

Wow! I thought I was the only one who liked to binge in hiding. I have always had a problem with my weight and binge eating. When I was a teenager I went as far as buying a small refrig and putting it in my room to store my own little goodies so no one else would get them. I'm now at the point where I HAVE to do something. I'm getting married in June of 2010 and refuse to be one of those huge brides with back fat and a double chin in my pictures. I want to be proud of them and show them off. Sooo I'm determined! But it is still so hard. I've been on my diet now for 2 weeks and I'll do so good for a few days and then BOOM! I found myself making chocolate chip cookies after my fiance' had gone to bed. I need help!!! I must say though, I did really good yesterday and didn't binge at all. And I had lost a pound this morning! That makes it so worth it...but it's hard to resist the urge when it hits you cause you don't think about that one pound loss when all you can focus on is devouring the bag of chips...lol

mslrb, Hi! I know where your coming from. I'm on day 4 of the binge free challenge. I have learned to talk myself out of a binge. Just think how rewarding it is to lose just one pound, and say to your self " No food tastes as good as thin feels" and how gaining is not worth the binge. Which is isn't! Good luck!

Fruitlady, Im sure tryin! This is my second day binge-free....so far. If I can just make it through tonight lol..night's are always worst for me. Hopefully I can make it and lose another pound by tomorrow. I'll let ya know how I do :D

Did okay so far today ladies. Went to a buffet (a yummy, mostly healthy) one and made great choices. I got dessert too--two small bites.

Did my four mile run this morning and walked 2.5 miles this afternoon.

good for u Thighs!! I know it can be tough going to a buffet and not gorging so props to u! Keep it up :)

mslrb, yes, please let me know how you do. I know nights are hard, if you have to eat something try baby carrots or grapes. They don't seem to do as much damage. As the days go by the urges to binge get better I think. Good luck, you can do it!

fruitlady, i eat a small apple when the urge comes. im on a diet called hcg so cant have carrots or grapes

Hi All!

I'm very new but I just wanted to say how comforting it is to know that others feel the same way I do when it comes to food. I turn to food a lot when I am stressed out which has been happening on and off for a couple years. I totally can relate to what others are saying and know how frustrating it can be! I hate the feelings that drive me to binge, coupled with how awful I feel after. I think this thread is a great idea and I will look to it when I'm in need.

Good luck to everyone!!

and good luck to u too dreamer!

Hi fellow bingers,
 

I am so glad I found this thread! I have a HUGE issues with compulsive binging. I eat so much and then, I can't even remember half of what I ate. :?:

I can be good all day and then, at night, I have these urges and if I ever give in to those urges, my binges can last days, weeks, or even months. This happened to me one year ago. I was about 3 lbs. away from my goal and looking mighty fine. Then, I started to binge. It went on and on and it was like I was on a mission to destroy myself with food. Nothing tasted good enough. I would eat something (in secret, of course) and I would feel like I could do better and then I would stop, but that day never came. I gained about 70 lbs. in about 8 months time. :o

Now, I'm on a mission to lose the weight. I thought I had it under control, but then, I got sick...body aches and major weakness. I ended up eating everythign I could get my hands on and this went on for four days. It was a combo of being sick and also having plataued with my weight for over a month. I ate tons of my kids Halloween candy too. It's just a horrible and exciting feeling all at once.

Now, since Monday, I've been working my butt off :carrot: trying to undo the damage. I can't go back because I don't see an end to it. I can totally see how someone can become so obese that they cannot get out of bed.

Now, I want to eat again...which is why I'm here now. I'm chewing gum like it's the last piece on Earth. ;) I would love to go to sleep, but my husband is on a business call and it's quite loud. I'm just here because I can tell you all understand the disease that this is. Unless someone has this problem, they just don't get it. Not all overweight people have this intense addiction to food. When my cravings are severe enough, I can't even think straight and I"m not even sure if I'll remember this thread.....I hope I do.

Thanks so much for being here.

hi luckymommy. :hug:

We're here for you. I'm glad you found us!

Thanks Skyra!
 

I feel so lucky to be here. :hug:

Hi luckymommy, Welcome, this thread has helped me alot with binging and it will help you too. This is something that our families just don't seem to understand. You can do it!

Thanks fruitlady!!! It already helped me last night! :) :) :)

luckymommy, That's great to hear! Keep going strong!

we're all here for u luckymommy! i know exactly where you're coming from. sometimes my cravings are so intense i can't focus on anything else. im now on my 3rd binge-free day though :)...it hasn't been without cravings though!! when i get them i try to distract myself with something, such as cleaning or looking at stuff online. Just got to take one day at a time. Each day binge-free is a sucess! And makes you feel so proud of yourself. It's so nice to feel good about yourself and realize that you can control it if you just set your mind to it. That doesn't mean you won't have days when you slip up and fall off the wagon but the key is when that happens just realize you made a mistake and get back on the wagon. Don't let it drag you down and pull you back under. We're all here to support each other. With help we will succeed! :)

mslrb, I agree with you 100% Having people you can talk to that have this in common and understand what you are going through really makes a difference!

I did good today. For breakfast I only had One chocolate almond biscotti with coffee and stevia. Then lunch I had a kashi curry with 2 light tofu smart dogs. Snack was a small gala apple and 2tbsp of peanut butter. For dinner is will be spaghetti squash and pasta sauce and dessert will be sugar free jello and a sliced bananna.

I have a mini goal of being binge free until my Anniversary of 7 years on the 19th, then I'll do another mini goal and reward myself!

I binged yesterday and felt so disgusted with myself. I am now starting fresh today, but already had thoughts of doing it again, but I know it's not worth the weight gain. I know i will be thinking about it all day, god, do I have a mental problem?? This isn't normal, is it? please don't let me do it again!!! Help!!

Oh fruitlady, please don't be so hard on yourself!!! We are all here for a similar reason and most of us will get off track from time to time. But, if you can stop being so hard on yourself, you might just let it go and move on to your good habits. You have lost so much already!!! :) Focus in on the big picture and you will be great!

Hi luckymommy, Thanks for your advice, I am always hard on myself when I binge. I know I shouldn't be, but it just comes natural to me, lol