Mayness, you're doing the absolute right thing....coming here for support, distracting yourself and comforting yourself with fun activities that don't include food and you still have that 100 calories to do with as you like. Just hang in there. Close your eyes and visualize yourself stepping on the scale in the morning and see it go down after you resisted your urge for what your body doesn't need. Binging never helps make things better. You and your husband will work things out, but this food thing is between you and your food. Can you do some push ups and crunches? Those help me get out frustration...also, there's the plank position, which is torture for me, but it gets my mind of things. Hang in there..I KNOW you can do it!!!!!
I have been away for a long time.... I was in and currently in a downward spiral of self medicating through food and self abuse. Where I'm going with my life is...somewhat a blank canvas.... I have ate and ate so much and so long that I felt like just eating myself to death, giving up completely... But One good thing is that I just started therapy, Seeing a Psych doctor and getting on Medication. My doctor has refered me to a local treatment center here in asheville. I feel so sad, I worked so hard to loose over a 100lbs then I quit smoking and put on weight and just kept going... But I wanted to post on why I have been away for so long... I want to start over, But is there hope once you get to 370lbs again???
Thank you so much ladies! It ended up being a good night... I did use those 100 calories on crap (sugar free hot chocolate, a mini candy cane, and a Jell-o mousse temptations thing) but I was under my limit. I was sleepy so I went to bed by 11pm, which helped, haha.
And this morning I was down a pound! Probably still losing water weight from the Thanksgiving weekend. It really helped knowing that there were people out there supporting me.
christymourning, welcome back and of course there is hope. You are a winner experiencing a setback. I am very sorry for your pain and what you are going through, but congratulate you on getting help. Even at 370, you are still 100 lbs lighter than before. I'm sorry you have regained 22 pounds, but don't lose sight of the huge amount you have already lost. In addition to that, you have quit smoking which is another healthy choice. Good for you....You can beat this!
Thank you for sharing what you're experiencing. It has prompted me to post here tonight instead of running out and pushing down my misery with some artery-choking "comfort" foods. I have had a nasty bout of depression creep into my day, building over the last few weeks. I feel like I could have written your message over my own name.
From your words, I read so much of what you've accomplished and it helps me. You already demonstrate "hope" because you:
1) Realized that you were using food as medication for feelings
2) You are taking positive action through recommended therapy
3) You quit smoking!
4) You've already released 100 pounds
5) You posted here and have helped at least one other person (me!)
My suggestion: Forget, for right now, "370lbs." It's a scale reading; Youare not a number. I believe you can move beyond these feelings that are pulling you down because you wrote this: "But I wanted to post on why I have been away for so long... I want to start over,"
I've got a bunch of things to sort out and want to start over too.
I love second chances!
I'm picking up that "do-over card" and running with it.
Thank you again for your message. It helped turn me right around.
We can do this, christymourning
Thank you for sharing what you're experiencing. It has prompted me to post here tonight instead of running out and pushing down my misery with some artery-choking "comfort" foods. I have had a nasty bout of depression creep into my day, building over the last few weeks. I feel like I could have written your message over my own name.
From your words, I read so much of what you've accomplished and it helps me. You already demonstrate "hope" because you:
1) Realized that you were using food as medication for feelings
2) You are taking positive action through recommended therapy
3) You quit smoking!
4) You've already released 100 pounds
5) You posted here and have helped at least one other person (me!)
My suggestion: Forget, for right now, "370lbs." It's a scale reading; Youare not a number. I believe you can move beyond these feelings that are pulling you down because you wrote this: "But I wanted to post on why I have been away for so long... I want to start over,"
I've got a bunch of things to sort out and want to start over too.
I love second chances!
I'm picking up that "do-over card" and running with it.
Thank you again for your message. It helped turn me right around.
We can do this, christymourning
Jean
Thank you. Thank you so very much, I am crying.... I know I am worth it we are all worth it and by god, I will wake up in the morning and start my healthy life instead of diet. I will do this. I must do this. Everyone here has been so kind and I believe still that we should form a convention one day and have a meet up! hahaha... I will kick myself in the arse and get going again. And I'm sorry I didnt respond to your im, I was laying down putting my 5 month old son to bed dear<33333
Christymourning, you can definitely do this! You definitely know how as you have already demonstrated. I firmly believe that almost every person who reaches their goal has some set backs. It sounds like you're being kind to yourself....a lot of times we beat ourselves up to a pulp because we are our own worst critics. However, we (that includes me) must not do so because we are human and we all have challenges. The key is to forgive yourself and look forward....when you do look back, do so with pride, for to me, you are an absolute winner and an inspiration.
Christymourning, you can definitely do this! You definitely know how as you have already demonstrated. I firmly believe that almost every person who reaches their goal has some set backs. It sounds like you're being kind to yourself....a lot of times we beat ourselves up to a pulp because we are our own worst critics. However, we (that includes me) must not do so because we are human and we all have challenges. The key is to forgive yourself and look forward....when you do look back, do so with pride, for to me, you are an absolute winner and an inspiration.
Thank you so very kindly. I honestly am going to try my hardest on my own road to freedom. I know that there will always be days and times when I might slip but what I have learned is I can always get back up, brush the dirt off and go back to kicking butt! I started a new ticker today and I am cheering for my life back! Thanks again for your kind words!
The one thing to remember for today. "I control food, Food does not control me".
Entering my food intake on Myfitnesspal! This morning started off with a cup of Kashi heart to heart oat flakes with blueberry clusters 200cal and 1 cup of smart balance 1 percent lowfat milk 140cal. Now time to do some moving!
Christymourning, we're all here for one another and thank you for your hugs. It is SO awesome that you started the day off so mindfully! You are going to do incredibly well! Reading that you started off so great made my day! Wooohooo!!!!!
It ended up being a good night... I did use those 100 calories on crap (sugar free hot chocolate, a mini candy cane, and a Jell-o mousse temptations thing) but I was under my limit. I was sleepy so I went to bed by 11pm, which helped, haha. 
Probably still losing water weight from the Thanksgiving weekend. It really helped knowing that there were people out there supporting me. 
