That's great luckymommy!!!

wow luckymommy. My binge triggers have been running rampant. I am on my period. Stress with relationship. Stress with school. Migraine headaches. I don't know why I think eating will help with that god awful pain, I just get sick to my stomach....

you did great. I need this thread. I needed it LAST NIGHT. oh well, there's no rewind button. Just keep pressing on.

Hi everyone :) wow, as horrible as it sounds I'm glad there are other people out there that have the same problem I do. It's less harsh feeling not so alone about it. I binge. I eat compulsively, to celebrate, to fill a possible void, to get rid of boredom. I'm learning ever so slowly in my heart (because in my head I already know this) that eating more never solves a problem. It makes my problem bigger. I work at night, my husband works during the day. So I have a lot of opportunities to hide overeating. Even then I eat at home and when I go to work I am absolutely surrounded by candybars (we have a snack food fund), things people bring in, the Holidays are here. I know I have to be extra dilligent but it is just so hard. I feel like I have no excuse to let my guard down because I know if I do I go overboard...or if I do and say, "ooooh it's just one day", I might just do it again later that week. I've done it about 3 times this week. I'm not as cruel to myself as I used to be, I used to punish myself with food thinking I deserved nothing better so I'd keep on eating. I've discovered I don't have just one trigger food. It is also impossible for me to keep only healthy food in the house. My husband (who has the metabolism of a horse) doesn't have the same problem I do and I could never ask him to get rid of everything just for me. I've also learned to control it a little bit on a day to day basis...but if my friend offers me something it is soooo hard to say no. I know I know, I should tell people not to offer me things. I just need to vent a little. I didn't used to be obsessed with food. I'm getting better but what I really want is to lose ten pounds. I'm not overweight but I would really feel a lot better about myself if I had a little less jiggle. Plus I feel like it would help me learn how to control myself. Knowing I can do that would just help soooo much. At the same time I know it will be me and know one and nothing else pulling myself out of this vicious cycle of losing a pound or two by eating right/exercise for a few days, and then overeating it back on. Each time I do it I want to give up. I don't want to get as bad as I was before where food was my heaven and my ****. Hopefully this forum will help. I feel inspired when I read everyone's posts :) I'm not alone. The darkness is a little less dark.

Welcome Laeah. :hug: Yes -- you're not alone. Glad to have you here.

Skyra

I'm having a binge emergency :(

I've been doing SO well on my diet for 3 weeks. Honestly, my cravings haven't been too bad, I've been filling up on smaller portions, and I've just been truckin' along.

But for some reason, today has been hard. I've been studying for tests all day (finals are coming up). Before, I would always let myself munch on the worst foods during studying. My thought process was "I'm doing a really boring and un-fun activity...might as well make it more enjoyable with a Snickers bar or 3." Well I'm having those same feelings, but somehow celery and carrots just aren't as enjoyable as junk. I've felt the craving for some garbage brewing all day.

I keep going to my cupboards and fridge thinking "Alright, I've been good, time to give myself a treat." But I know that if I start with that, it will just snowball into a big nasty binge. I HAVE been good on my diet, but I do NOT want to set back my progress. Fortunately, I tossed most of the unhealthy junk snacks. Bingeing on celery and carrots can't be that bad, lol.

Ugh, somebody snap me out of it!

Mkendrick, I'm glad you came here and posted. Oh, I so get what you are saying, but you have successfully lost 8 pounds and been following your diet for 3 weeks. The urge to binge will disappear, but those calories won't if you give in! It's not worth it.

Did you know that sugar slows down our ability to process things mentally after the sugar high leads to a sugar low? Then you will just feel like you need another hit to be able to focus. You will be hurting your studying efforts if you give in to that old habit. Have yourself a piece of fruit with a nice big glass of water if you are feeling the need for something sweet!

What's a treat you can give yourself when you are done studying that doesn't have calories attached to it. A bubble bath, a sappy movie, a moonlight walk? Come'on, you can do it!

For next time you feel this way don't do it! Stop yourself! Remember that eating that candybar/junk will only feel good until you swallow it and after that the guilt will swallow you. If you absolutely have to keep your mouth busy get some fruity gum. I know people say diet soda is not good for you but it's the lesser of two evils and can feel like you're indulging if you don't mind the taste. Good job on choosing carrots and celery though :D. Although I hope you don't truly binge on them...that sounds like a nasty tummy ache hehe.

Thanks for the replies guys :)

Just saying "hey, I'm having a binge emergency" helps to put it in perspective.

I did NOT binge or break my diet, and I don't plan to for the rest of the night (or ever, but one step at a time...). And that does feel good, I feel in control.

I had a quarter of a cucumber sliced up instead. Cool, refreshing, and tasty. Who needs ice cream anyways ;)

Woo Hoo... Three cheers for you! :carrot::carrot::carrot:

You can count me in too!!! Right now, I am reading a book called 'Life is Hard..Food is Easy'. I have been struggling with this crap for 47 years and I am sick, sick, sick of it!!! I'm sitting in my cubicle at work eating some healthy soup that I made, but right outside my cubicle is a French Silk Pie that I am fighting with. Everyone is having a piece to celebrate my co-workers birthday. I know that one piece will throw me off for the rest of the day!! It's like if I have one slip, I blow it for the rest of the day and eat totally out of control. We need to help each other!!!

justbeu, when you see your coworkers eating the pie, don't imagine how good it tastes, imagine their butts getting bigger with each bite, haha. Good thing you're not eating it! Hehe

I'm struggling. I have been since thanksgiving. I knew it was going to trigger me. I overate both on thanksgiving and the whole weekend that followed. On Sunday I stepped on the scale and it said 195 lbs, a gain of 6 lbs. I know most of it was poo in my colon, and water retention from a lot of salty foods, but still, it scared the **** out of me since it took me 5 weeks to lose 5 lbs before that. So, on Monday I stopped eating, I slipped once and had some pizza, then purged it because I made myself feel so bad about having had eaten it. Then yesterday I ate nothing, but drank two beers and had some creamer in my coffee. Today, I've had a latte, a bottle of diet coke and a coffee and its after 5pm and I cannot bring myself to EAT anything until I know I've lost that 6 lbs I gained. Its, like, literally become neurotic. Help!

mkendrick -- I LOVE your idea! haha. today at the store my roommate bought an Icee, and I really wanted it... but those things are 100% sugar... so I bought some flavored water instead and looked at her and imagined her butt getting bigger as she drank it! :lol:

Mango, you have to eat sensibly or your body will rebel and make it harder for you to lose the weight. The 6 pounds will come off. You have still lost a lot of weight, even if you gained six pounds. Keep making healthy choices! Skip the beer, creamer, diet soda, and latte. They give your body little in the way of nutrients and can all trigger binges. Come'on girl... What you are doing isn't going to get you where you want to go!

I don't usually go on this site from home, but I'm having a binge emergency.

We drove down to the Verizon store to try to take care of a cell phone issue and the entire national Verizon computer system is down. And then on the drive back, my husband and I got in a bit of an argument... making me feel like complete crap. We've got a friend visiting so we both agreed, for his sake, to put all the grumpiness aside before we walked back through our front door... but that just means I'm holding in the frustration, trying to resist the urge to bury it in peanut butter until it shuts up.

I'm going to take some "me time" to cut my nails, maybe even paint them, and listen to some dance music. Then, I'll go back and hang out with the boys and watch TV or play video games or whatever.

I've technically still got 100 calories or so to use tonight... I've done really well today, even making myself a healthy vegan dinner while the guys ate my favorite boneless chicken wings. But I'm not gonna risk it until I know I'm in control and I'll be able to STOP eating if I start.