ok so i feel absolutely terrible. me and my fiance' stayed at our weekend house on the river and his parents came out and we cooked....and i binged..not just that day, all 4!!! (i have mondays off)

i ate a hamburger,beans,chips and dip, fried chicken, cheese toast, cinnamon rolls,cookies,pizza,bread (ugh reading all of that makes me sick!)...,pretty much anything i could get my hands on. i feel so awful. i was doing so good too. why can't i just say no?? i get it in my mind that it will be ok if i just eat a little bit. not like i can gain that much weight. i trick myself into thinking its okay to eat all of that and then i do..and afterwards i come down from my "food-high" and feel so guiltly and bad about myself...why couldn't i have been born skinny and not have to go through this!??!!??! whats worse is that i only have 6 months to lose 80lbs for my wedding. im never gunna reach that goal if i keep slipping up like this
